Bpd Mood - Tumblr Posts
Omw to go cut everyone off and self isolate :3
no one talks about the rage you feel when u realize that every adult in your life has failed u
THIS!
Literally I'm tired of people pretending to be supportive n shit whenever I disclose my bpd diagnosis, and then turn around and get all pissy when I show an actual sign of BPD
LITERALLY JUST SAY YOU HATE PEOPLE WITH BPD AND STFU.
sorry for showing symptoms of the disorder i told you multiple times I have. Do you want me to kill myself?
nobody will understand how badly it hurts when you wither everything you touch and lay waste wherever you step.
bpd is not knowing if you’re a good person or if you’re a bad person and you’re just gaslighting yourself to believe you’re a good person.
wow it’s like i was born to be betrayed by my most closest confidants. neato.
I feel so fucking disconnected from reality atp i don't know what to do anymore
Sometimes it is my fault sometimes I am a horrible person
This but instead it's just the most random bullshit either that or my negative perception of relationships or myself lmao
I hate disassociating during class. I go from “the mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell” to “I’m not real, none of this is real, we’re all dead somewhere or in a simulation.”
I need a big red circle and arrow around me that says “sensitive. will cry” like some sort of shitty clickbait YouTube video
You see, if everyone around you tells you you're the problem. You eventually internalize it. I wish I never existed, maybe then people around me wouldn't be so miserable. They'd be happy. And that's all I want.
i'm nothing if not an attention seeking bitch
This but I'm not "sensitive" (I think), and most of the songs I relate to are because of my experiences with BPD lol
"just learn to tolerate things" if i hear that shit come out of your mouth one more time I am going to hit you with a brick, fuck you.
I hate whenever people tell me that I "struggle with tolerating things" or how I "get triggered whenever someone has an opinion that's not 100% like yours", because while it is objectively true, people forget that i canNOT control this shit.
I stopped tolerating shit because i had people constantly manipulate and exploit me to the point it basically killed my wellbeing, it's LITERALLY a trauma response.
And the black-and-white thinking is because, get this: IT'S A PART OF MY FUCKING DISORDER, ONE OF THE MAIN CRITERIA ACTUALLY.
Also, saying that I get all pissy at someone not 100% agreeing with an opinion i have is a bit of a stretch. I can tolerate someone not 100% agreeing with me, I'm not that close-minded, however, what i DON'T tolerate is someone being a genuine asshole about their opinion and/or actively attempting to trigger me on purpose. (*COUGH COUGH* The Tony Crynight sever Incident)
Seriously, people act like I don't constantly argue with people online..
Anyway, probably gonna show this blog to my therapist (because at least SHE knows how I fell and at least I can actually trust her..)
Hallo :D
attention seekers u are safe here with me. if u want attention from me all you gotta do is reach out in literally any minor capacity and I will turn my attention fully to u with the force of a proton beam. I am just bad at reaching out and am usually wallowing in some kind of misery. but I love u.
When you are a borderline
Sadness feels like suicide.
Anger feels like murder.
Distance feels like abbandonment.
Joy feels weird and unknown.
Being in love feels like being an inconvenience.
Loving someone feels like losing control.
Losing someone feels like dying.
Happiness feels like unbearable euphoria.
Feeling normal feels like feeling nothing.
Now put all that in a single week.
your tone changed your tone changed your tone changed just say you hate me