Update; I Had 2 Go 2 A&e And It Turns Out I Don't Hav Anything Fatal I Just Hav Mystery Illness

update; i had 2 go 2 a&e and it turns out i don't hav anything fatal i just hav mystery illness

love having an asthma attack so bad that i can't fkin stand or walk w/out feeling faint or being in pain a month l8r and then being told by my dr that i don't need a wheelchair since im not an old person and 2 "drink lots of fluids"/s

so recently i decided 2 go back and read the 1st peter pan book now as an adult and hav concluded that peter is awful and hook was right 2 want 2 kill him in this essay i will,,, ok but fr tho let's begin w/ other stuff aside from that, 1 of the things i was *not* expecting was that from the way J M Barry wrote hook,,, hook was black, he's constantly described as "the black pirate" and also was described w/ an old timey word 2 mean "some1 who has a dark complexion" so basically disney whitewashed captain hook and then every1 else copied disney's design so now every1 thinks hook was white, not relevant 2 the point im making here but i thought it was interesting

ok so now the actual bs peter pan is a over 100 year old pedo, hook in the story was said 2 b black beard's bo'sun which means that peter has been around since b4 then [will explain y b4 then and not at the same time l8r] now this book [peter and wendy] was published in 1911 according 2 the website im using 2 read it [bc i rly don't feel comfortable owning a copy of a book written by an alleged pedo] [c also J M Barry's other work where he wrote a book 4 a family who he was friends w/ abt their irl baby being stripped naked as a gift] and i also no longer hav the audio cassettes of the book i had as a kid and even if i did i don't hav any way 2 play the audio, however if peter is alive in 1911 and was also alive when hook was a child and bo'sun 2 black beard [yes some bo'sun's were children due 2 kids being enlisted in the navy and having 2 run away and a bo'sun is a job where they would just report 2 the captain if any of the crew was doing anything they weren't supposed 2 so this makes sense] peter would at this point b over 100 years old since the golden age of piracy was somewhere in the early 1600s and blackbeard himself died in 1718 according 2 google, so even if we're being generous and say that hook joined peter in 1718 that would still mean he met peter almost 200 years ago

so now onto y i think hook was younger than peter i don't remember 4 sure which book it was in [the 1st book, the 2nd or peter pan in scarlet] but i remember something abt the pirates being the lost boys that peter got bored of that grew up, which would suggest that all the pirates [hook included] were once lost boys, i am choosing 2 stick w/ this given that it is very in character 4 peter, 4 example in the 1st book it's stated that as well as killing the pirates [yes, killing, not fighting and "defeating" them] he also kills lost boys, this is shown by the book saying he "thins the heard" and then again when tootles tells peter 2 kill him and the only reason he doesn't is that wendy stops him

so what makes me think peter is a pedo? i can think of off the top of my head [from what i hav re-read of the 1st book] -a line where it is said that peter "does something" 2 the kids 2 make them fit their trees -peter pan's name being based on a word that was at the time a kid word 4 penis -him sharing a bed w/ all the lost boys and there being a "strict rule against turning w/out giving a signal at which all of them would turn" [which kinda implies they r all spooning] -peter being the father and wendy the mother -his constant flirting w/ wendy -hook being thankful 2 hav gone into the hideout "unmolested" [which suggests that he was by peter when hook was a lost boy] -the bit where wendy asks for a type of flower called "babies" for her house they r building around her and the lost boys not knowing that this is a type of flower and knowing peter doesn't either "rush to start singing again before peter orders babies" so basically they knew that peter would demand for them 2 try 2 make babies if they didn't stop him

aside from that peter is also just abusive even if u don't agree w/ me abt him being a pedo [again just what I remember off the top of my head from book 1] -despite what the films say, in the book his imaginary meals only made him feel full but he hit those that didn't play along -as mentioned previously he kills lost boys -he hits the fairies -he kills pirates even when they aren't going anywhere near him "for fun" -the lost boys "aren't allowed 2 know anything peter doesn't know abt" -2 make the lost boys look different from him he makes them make clothes out of bearskin from bears they hav 2 kill themselves

so yeh peter pan was awful and hook was right 2 try 2 kill him given that peter was just kidnapping children and then doing all this bs

love having an asthma attack so bad that i can't fkin stand or walk w/out feeling faint or being in pain a month l8r and then being told by my dr that i don't need a wheelchair since im not an old person and 2 "drink lots of fluids"/s

just this whole fucking video's existence reeks of eugenics and i refuse 2 watch it, luckily most of the comments i can c seem 2 b calling this video out

this is 1 of the top blogs in the "mixed race" tag on tumblr

again w/ the weird eugenics youtube vids [edit bc i realised something wasn't super clear; from what i remember w/ the "reacting 2 'mixed race wh!te passing women are not our allies'" vid it was a i think monoracial black woman [again my memory could b fuzzy but i am *not* subjecting myself 2 that video again] and she got her 2 mixed women friends 2 react 2 this video w/ her that was talking ab how they aren't allies 2 the wider poc community and don't belong in it "the girl w/ the braids" that every1 keeps referencing in the comments was literally just pointing out the problems in the video and the woman making the video and the ppl in the comments got mad at her 4 not agreeing w/ this video that was talking abt how she doesn't belong]

idk much abt what what context this was supposed 2 b in when this person who originally said this said it but this is all the context i got 4 this tumblr post so it's going on here, let's make this clear; colourism is a problem and should b talked abt and we should try 2 get rid of colourism and some light-skinned and ""white passing"" members of the community can experience erasure and oppression both from outside and within the community r 2 ideas that can and should exist 2gether, just like how it's not ok 2 talk over or try 2 silence the voices of ppl w/ darker skin when they talk abt colourism it's also not ok 2 talk over or silence the voices of light-skinned and ""white passing"" ppl when we tell u abt our struggles like the constant erasure that we face from all sides [will add more when i find more]

[mixed ppl feel free 2 add ur own experiences/things u've seen no matter what ur mixed w/ as long as ur not trying 2 act like ppl mixed w/ white r the same as white ppl]

[monoracial ppl don't clown this post this is a post 2 raise awareness of the racism that mixed ppl experience]

fuck this im having a bad day bc of ppl being weird abt me being mixed w/ black and mixed w/ white so im just making this a masterpost of all the kinda bs i deal w/ bc so many ppl don't seem 2 believe me when i say me and others like me go thru this shit, gonna reblog this w/ any new shit i find

apparently they r comparing us 2 coffee now

weird race fetish bs

weird eugenics bs

in case u thought it was only 4 coffee cups

same hc!

Asterix is a trans man and he is in a querrplatonic relationship with Obelix

ppl rly do like 2 say that every disabled character in a queer relationship is child coded huh?