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i finally finished the book series! i love these guys sfm they make me feel things

it’s fun to stay at the Y

throwback to the time father and I were watching The Witcher and I think it was Yen and Geralt who started kissing and I fast forwarded it, bc I don't like the kissing scenes, and my dad said, and I quote,

"You only like kissing scenes when it's boy on boy", in the most accusatory tone I've ever heard come out of his mouth.

he did NOT have to call me out like that at nine in the morning

I Need Screen Time at Night to Fall Asleep As an ADHDer

AJ’s Brain

God knew if he made me not have treatment resistant depression, that I would become an unstoppable force to be reckoned with. Or, a rant.

I'm going through Venlafaxine/Effexor withdrawals and HOLY FUCK this is terrible, I spent months tapering down to 75mg but I couldn't wait any longer to get off this capsule of hell. But now I'm going to try Bupropion AKA Zyban which isn't covered by the PBS for depression, it's only covered for smoking cessation, which makes no fucking sense bc its apparently quite an effective antidepressant, which means that it costs ONE HUNDRED AND EIGHT SIX DOLLARS (186 AUD or 125USD) which means that I'll probably only try this one only until the box runs out bc I do NOT have the money to spend on a medication that, with my luck, wont even fucking work and I'll feel waaay too guilty if my dad pays for it, even though he can afford it and it is his legal obligation... so my options for treating my depression, not including therapy bc that is also too expensive and I'm too self aware for it to work, are:

spend over 1,200 dollars per year and take the Bupropion/Zyban, if it does work.

try MAOIs, which means I'll have to go through MORE withdrawals and most likely have to stop taking my ADHD meds.

try and see if Ketamine therapy is legal where I live for minors and just in general, then try and get a job to pay for it bc holy shit it is expensive.

try even MORE SSRI's even though I've already tried six different ones since I was eight years old and I'm almost seventeen.

try electroconvulsive therapy, which will most likely not be covered by either my insurance OR Medicare and will one hundred percent cost a LOT of money to have done regularly.

and my final option, which is to follow in the footsteps of my paternal half siblings and all my paternal first cousins, which would be succumbing to drug addiction as a way to numb myself and pretend that everything is fine.

Basically, I'll either spend a ton of money which I do not have, and also need to save for top surgery, which may or may not end up actually treating me, or I follow in the footsteps of pretty much everyone on my dads side of the family and repeat the cycle of generational trauma.

So, either way, I am absolutely fucked.

I dunno man. I found out today that a subway sandwich is $14 now. A shitty subway footlong sandwich that isn't actually 12 inches long and is occasionally made with expired ingredients and was never a great option to start with. I ate those in high school because I was broke and at the mall a lot.

There are poke bowls in my city from a local place for $16. Super fresh fish and veg, warm rice, more than I can eat in one sitting, for the price of a sandwich and a drink at america's most mid-tier sandwich shop.

Someone in another post said (paraphrased) you used to be able to get something mediocre for cheap, but now the mediocre things cost as much as the nice things so why would you?

I NEED people to know that I want to look like Hugh Laurie as House when I’m *older*. Not right now, now I’m channeling my teenage angst vibes but when I get older I desperately need to look exactly like that.

scruffy keeps bringing her baby up onto the bed when im not in the room and i want to see her doing it so bad. i just keep coming in and baby is on the bed. i've seen her move baby dozens of other times to dozens of other places but i've never witnessed it on the bed

My coasters finally got here

tricky words I always see misspelled in fics: a guide

Viscous/vicious – Viscous is generally used to describe the consistency of blood or other thick liquids. Vicious is used to describe something or someone who is violent. 

Piqued/Peaked/Peeked – To pique someone’s interest is to catch or tease their attention. When something peaks, it reaches its total height or intensity. To peek (at) something is to look briefly, or glance. 

Discrete/Discreet – this is a tough one. Discrete means to be separate, or distinct, i.e., two discrete theories. Conversely, when someone is discreet, they are being secretive or cautious to avoid attention. 

Segue/Segway – one is a transition between things, the other is a thing you can ride at the park and definitely fall off of.

Conscious/Conscience/Conscientious – to be conscious is to be awake, i.e., not unconscious, or to be aware of something. Your conscience is the little voice in your head telling you not to eat the entire pint of ice cream. Finally, to be conscientious is to be good, to do things thoroughly, to be ruled by an inner moral code. 

Hope this helped! Please add more if you think of them!

next psychologist im seeing will have to help me explore the psychology behind my attraction to (hairy and muscular) fictional men covered in blood

“why do you still use tumblr?”

listen— i have to keep track of my hyper fixations somehow

when ao3 is down... I love you ao3, and thank you so much to the people who work so hard to make it such a lovely place!!

corn says support human artists! dl shirt (for all frames/ 2 swatches)

i CANNOT leave this to be unseen

i have to give hannibal some credit for his ability to remain stone faced solely because nobody in this series takes will's anger well at all, and hannibal has had it directed at him more than anyone. eldon stammets broke down immediately. alana was terrified. jack snapped back. chilton didn't even see his anger and was still scared. i do wonder what was going through hannibal's head emotionally every time he had to deal with will's anger

free my man he did all of it but i dont care

after watching both House to completion and Hannibal to almost completion, i FINALLY understand this comparison

this is the same scene to me

I don’t need to follow the amazing devil on any other socials because I know the second Joey or Madeleine breathe in our direction TAD tumblr will blow the fuck up we are all so desperate it’s hitting Reichenbach levels of waiting

My dad was put through this "therapy" in 70s Australia. Back then ASD wasn't diagnosed unless you were completely disabled by it AND with intellectual disability, so he was one of the first cases in our country where someone was diagnosed with both ADHD and ADD, instead of being diagnosed with ASD like he should've been.

(Back then it was believed that you couldn't have both hyperactivity and attention deficit at the same time, whereas he met the criteria for both diagnoses.)

He's 53 now and he only started to realise exactly how many of his behaviours were from his ASD after I read a book about it and excitedly told him ALLLL about it.

fuck ABA and fuck the teachers and therapists who beat my dad black and blue for not being "normal enough."

I was never put into aba therapy but the whole idea of putting a disabled/autistic child into therapy to correct their "bad behavior" which is actually behavior that are common autistic traits (no eye contact, stimming, overstimulation, socialization, etc) to fit into a box of normalcy is absolutely horrific. also given the fact that a majority of parents are often pressured into putting their children into the program, their children never truly being unable to consent to this as well is so sad.

one last thought, if you live as a disabled person person who relies on "good will", you have to always be kind and thankful and never show any irritation or criticise the help (even if it's not very helpful!), never be frustrated about your own disability, never ask for too many things in a row, because otherwise that good will can be revoked. be gracious and polite but not too needy! always have a positive outlook. never make people feel uncomfortable by struggling in front of them. definitely don't complain ever at all, even when the people showing you "good will" are complaining about you. et cetera. it's exhausting.

father is currently on bedrest for a hematoma, meaning that i am now forcing him to watch NBC's Hannibal :))

Useful Resources for CC creators & others who interested in art

I'm done gatekeeping so i thought i'd share my list of very cool websites (mostly flickr pages) with my fellow creators or just people who interested in arts. Almost all art from this sites have public domain copyrights, meaning you can use it however you want (in most cases even sell) without giving credits, but be sure to check copyrights under pictures on flickr. Links:

British Library - (flickr) thousands of scans from books and posters, has animals, nature, ornaments, paintings of people. Very useful for tattoos, prints and design in general.

Boston Public Library - (flickr) scans of posters, books and postcards, also has vintage photos but most of them copyrighted, so make sure to check for rights under every photo. My personal favorite is painted postcards, check them out.

The Library of Congress - (flickr) vintage photos and most of them doesn't have copyrights, very cool for graphic design.

Biodiversity Heritage Library - (flickr) paintings of animals, snakes, birds, bugs, fish, nature. My fav page from flickr.

Swallowtail Garden Seeds - (flickr) photos and painting of flowers. Good for reference.

Artvee - I LOVE this website. All paintings under public domain in high resolution. You can type in keyword to search for specific painting of something, you can save pics for later or follow artists, there's thousand of choices. I just love it and you should too.

(if u see spelling mistakes look away)

2010-07-25

fucking hate that Bill Shorten, one of the many reasons the NDIS exists, is now trying to push disability rights and support back to where it was before the NDIS was established :')

to anyone who wants more info, check out Greens Senator Jordon-Steele John on TikTok, he has multiple videos on the subject, and addressing how harmful this proposed NDIS "reform" Bill will be.