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(putting on my librarian hat…)

it’s the same buying any digital content - you’re not paying for the content, you’re paying for the right to access it, and this right can be revoked at the provider’s discretion.

and a digital asset is only as good as the technology you have to read it

man I wish people understood how much it sucks ass to be neurodivergent and trying to find the middle ground where people like/tolerate you. like, I'm either "boring" (trying to wait my turn in conversations, holding space for other people, taking a back seat to let others get some spotlight) or "too much" (too loud/talking too much, getting excited to share, trying to participate in group conversations/activities). No one really talks about how much of being neurodivergent is just sort of trying to make yourself palatable.

I feel like so much of my life has been spent trying to find this effortless sort of middle ground everyone else seems to automatically already know, and I'm always swinging too far one way or the other. I'm lucky to have neurodivergent friends who grok me, but goddamn I wish that I could just like, exist without the constant background script in my brain that's like "you're being too loud. You're not talking enough. you're being self-centered. you're being boring. you're wrong, you're wrong, you're wrong." I feel like I'm back in high school trying to make friends but stuck as the eternal "weird kid"

it's just... lonely and sucks bad.

💙🤍🖤

so I’m smoking outdoors and my phones camera sucks ofc but literally venus and the moon are having a lively, vital, engaging conversation and mars is just waiting for his gf to stop chitchatting and wants to go home

"Hunt the freak, right?"

#meet cute

growing up being autistic but not knowing is just *hiding in room while people are over* *getting tired and needing to recharge after the smallest chores* *getting called a gifted kid* *knowing that you’re “weird” because people are making fun of you but not knowing how to stop being weird* *having adults tell you how “mature” you are* *getting in trouble for not doing work* *convincing yourself that you’re just lazy and stupid because you can’t make yourself do work* *getting really invested in “weird” media*

GRACE VAN DIEN as CHRISSY CUNNINGHAM STRANGER THINGS 4

my first hellcheer commission can you believe it!! ✨ for the lovely Kez 💕

girls when they're addicted to loneliness and desperation it's the strongest emotion they have ever known so their subconscious tells them it's their destiny

Chrissy wouldn’t have it any other way.

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I haven't worked at Joann Fabrics for a year and a half and i still have an entire spare room full of all the Things i bought while working there

Craft stores are just like "can I interest you in some...objects? some items? would you like some things?" and every time I'm like Oooh I love objects and items and things!

"Let's make out, let's make out

Are we just too shy?

Are you too shy?"

A snippet of a very messy Hellcheer doodle that I did on the spot and might delete later 👀. Things got exciting for them while reading… but then they just ended up falling asleep.

"Despite the creaking wood boards, the fury of the waves and the never ending loudness of the Hellfire crew outside the Captain’s cabin...

In the arms of the most infamous pirate of the land, the princess has never felt more at peace."

some of my hellcheer pirate AU cuz i was missing them :')

me being generally bad at existing: why am i like this

me later reading about a disorder that i literally Have: aw fuck thats right i got symptoms syndrome

𝙵𝚎𝚋𝚛𝚞𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝟷, 𝟷𝟿𝟸𝟸 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟺-𝟷𝟿𝟸𝟹

[ID: February 1. Nothing, merely tired. END ID]

it hits me so hard sometimes that eddie was so deeply affected by chrissy and her death that he spent the following week of his life hiding away, so haunted and wracked with guilt he could barely talk about it and only once defended himself (and when he did it was more of a danger/fear response) and did everything he could to track down the creature responsible for her death with the others and very willingly sacrificed himself and died to give the others a chance at killing it like he is just truly iconic thats love baby

Eddie Munson as Text Posts 17/?

That smile 😭