Another Sleepless Night

another sleepless night

🔪💜🌸✨Kinoko Koizumi✨🌸💜🔪

It was the first time I’ve participated in an art trade, it was really fun! 🥰💕 This art trade is for @killlavendr

I really enjoyed drawing her a lot, she’s so cute (*´꒳`*)♡ Thank you for the fun experience ☆彡

Snape makes a secret toast 🥂 -

A gift for my friend @foxyx !

uu its 4 am and j cant sleep... anyways let him cook 🔥🔥🔥

I'm closing this blog for the time being. Not going to delete it, but leave it as it is. When I feel better one day, I'll come back or start a new one (in which case a new link will be left for those interested).

My dear, how sweet you are, it touched me deeply to read your kind words and they made me emotional (in the best way possible of course). You wouldn't believe how honored and grateful I am. 🥺💕

You have also become a very precious and dear friend to me, whom I would not want to miss in my life. I am deeply grateful to have met you and to have had the opportunity to get to know you. ♡

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your time and also for your support and care, especially on difficult days. I am so glad to have met you and found a wonderful friend in you, thank you so so much for everything. ❤️

You are a wonderful soul and very special and dear person to me, I very much hope that you will get well again soon. Take all the time you need for a proper break to recharge enough energy for your upcoming creative projects, your health comes first. 🧸🤍

Life/Writing/Personal Update

Hello everyone ❤️

I just wanted to write you guys a bit of an update. It's been something I've wanted to do for a while now, but it's been challenging to write much of anything lately.

The last few months have been extremely difficult when my mental health took quite a significant nosedive. My 'lows' used to be very short-term, but this time my lows have remained, and have been for quite some time now. So I took a step back from social media, and even communicating with friends on all platforms. My brain fog has been so problematic, that holding any kind of conversation proved quite the task. Please do not take it personally - it's been an effort waking up, showering and going to work, and for the rest of my time, my brain just shuts off. My silence is just my way of healing.

On the subject of that, I know I have been so behind in Light of Mine, and posting updates. Trust me, I think about it every day, and each time I feel so guilty for my lack of writing in these last several months. I guess writers burnout contributed to that too, and have been writing non-stop since 2020 when I started Whatever It Takes. I need to keep reminding myself that I have written over 800K words to this AU, so I've been learning to give myself some grace and patience over that.

I tried to practice drawing instead when I haven't been able to write, but that has not been very successful either. My mind and any creative avenue have completely muted themselves, and formulating any coherent words has not been easy for me. I mean, this post is probably the longest thing I've written for a few months. Even still now, my mind is numb, foggy, and just not myself.

I really do miss writing Severus and Dawn, and Severus and Harry, and I have soooo much left to write, and so many exciting things upcoming that I one day hope to share. Light of Mine is not abandoned and never will be. This time has just ended up being an unplanned break. I figured trying to force myself to write something I won't be happy with will reflect and show my struggles with my readers, and I don't want my writing quality to lose what it has because of it. So right now, I am just going day by day, in hopes I feel well enough to start writing again.

I do however want to do a special shoutout to a beautiful friend @exlibrisseverus who has showed me such great kindness, patience, and friendship over this last month and half ❤️ You've been such a comfort to talk to when i've been feeling rough, and you help remind me that I am not alone. I adore our chats of all kinds, and getting to know you as a friend. You've definitely been a light for me this year, and words will never be enough to express my gratitude and for not giving up on me 😭✨

I hope to be back around soon, but not just yet. I just wanted to leave you a little update for whoever reads or follows me.

❤️