Just remember, I'm still a person with a very pressable block button~
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I just wanna preface that therapists* are thoughtful and very helpful, I have changed therapists from a youth therapist and a behavioral therapist, I saw my youth therapist for the last time a few days ago (my “Mental health day”) and today I saw a my new one, her name was Chloe (already off to a bad start because my babysitter 1/2 of my rapists was named Chloe, not the same person though) my youth babysitter was a dude though so I was already pretty nervous that I had to share the origins of my episodes with a new person much less a thirty something year old girl. When I told him about my father (2/2 of my rapists) she looked confused and said, “Not to offend you but, I feel like you’re father would have rather raped your sister rather than you.” (this is when I started getting suspicious) I said no and explained how my sister was less than five years old when I was thirteen (I was thirteen when my father started) and that he was a pervert but not perverted enough to fuck a toddler, she wrote something down (Fucked if I know what it was) and about a half hour later (I paid for a full day/3 hours) I was telling her about my babysitter and how she would tie me to the bed and force herself on me…and this bitch said “Well you know women cant rape men right?” And pulled out the “if it gets hard that means that you secretly wanted it” I wanted to cry, but I somehow didn’t and I ignored her and continued for another hour, I told her how my social skills and behavior had physically reverted back to an adolescent state (Adolescent as in 13-16 years not like a ten year old) and she decided that she was done and just simply said “I don’t deal with people diagnosed with “age regression” they’re all just pedos” I started to cry, a lot to the point that another therapist from the room over decided to come in, I ran to my car and sat there for a few minutes before deciding to drive home, not to my dorm, but to my mom’s house in New Mexico, my dorm is in Fort Collins in Colorado at CSU. and I just got back, no surprise I’m not going to another therapist any time soon. 💜
What a boy needs after a long day of work:
a warm bath
yummy foods
long, slow kisses
complete control taken away
took a mental health day yesterday! Uhm…lots of people messaging me about my blog, just to keep everything clear I will be starting a new semester of collage and work so…don’t expect fast replies 💜
EVERYONE EVERYONE look
THANK YOU THAT'S ALL :D
uhm I dunno wut to put here…heds up this is gunna b a long post (I think…I’m jus gunna write as I go along like word vomit ig) So I wus messagin a few ppl n…2 of them blocked me for bein a boy, another wus sayin that the way i explane my grammar n chronic sexual atententon need so here we go ig…I was raped by my daddy (yes, I will use that word cus he is still in my life n I canot physicaly use the term “father” or I start 2 cry) ever since I was 10…or 6…I can’t rember I know I wus young and looked like my mother…she never beleved me, he used 2 make me sit on his lap, wen I cride it felt like no one wus there…he stopped ever since I wus fifteen but, now it feels like no one wants me I relied on my body for pleasure for so long n now no one wants it…not even my daddy anymor…so I’m srry if I reply slow or if I’m into crazy things like rape or incest or if I’m too clingy, needy, a nympho or fag or sex addict but I need attention plz…can someone help me feel loved? I need a new daddy…
Reblog if you like being called a good girl
Ur child has an obsesson inc3st and rvpe k!nk cus u stood there while his daddy took advantage of him 4 hours on end
I don't want money or fame i wna be someones dog
Me whenever I see a person even remotely attractive or interested in me
