Idk About You But My Coping Mechanism Is Watching Angsty Regulus Edits Until I Feel Numb. If I Think

idk about you but my coping mechanism is watching angsty regulus edits until I feel numb. if I think of his pain I'll forget mine

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regulus was scared.

scared of confronting his parents. scared of being left behind. scared of the world.

scared of opening up to people.

even though he had this though and mean facade he would open up really quick to someone until the point where he was overwhelming.

he just wanted someone to listen to him. and when he thought he found someone he would say all the things that he wanted.

but he was considered too much. he was too much for people to handle.

he was a storm. he was a hurricane of feelings, so when he lost control he knew it was going to end up bad. he knew he was going to bore people around him.

even knowing that, he would vomit all the random information he had. deeply hoping inside of him that people didn't leave him after seeing how he truly was.

how childish, pleaser and lonely he was. how he would keep all his feelings hidden from others. how raw these were.

but each time they would leave him, and each time he would try to avoid these situations again but he couldn't help it.

so yeah.

regulus was scared.

not from the dark, not from death.

regulus was scared

of lost childish dreams of a found family.

regulus was scared

of being completely unbearable and repulsive to others.

he wasn't scared of being alone.

not at all.

he was just scared.

he has been scared all his life.

he has always been scared since

the only thing he could have for sure

and be only his

was fear.

college student + boyfriend!suguru is more of an actions guy. he does say “i love you” after every kiss, wishes you good luck before your exam and texts you good morning and goodnight but—he was more of an actions guy.

more than often times you find yourself lying on his bed while he did his homework and it was just so quiet between you two with the occasional “look at what I sent you” from you as you scrolled through tiktok and sent him funny videos that you found. he would laugh or coo at them before placing his phone down and going back to doing his homework in silence while you faced away from him, curling into a comfortable ball on one of the mattress’ corners.

so when you get a notification that suguru sent you a tiktok and you open it—your lips part in shock and you’re quickly whipping your head back to stare at him while he rocks back and forth on his dark blue gamer chair, eyes glued to his screen. they flicker up your way and there’s a tiny smile on his face—flustered when you sit up with your hair everywhere and show him your phone as if to make sure he really sent you what he just sent you.

“us?” you read the caption out loud and he chuckles before throwing his head back as if to avoid your eyes. “and it’s an orange and black cat? babyyy,” the speed at which you get off the bed to give him a hug is anything but impressive and it makes your boyfriend chuckle as you struggle with the covers before finally landing near his foot.

you bring his face to your chest and squeeze him tightly before peppering kisses all over his face.

“baby, I’m ticklish—“ “well, you tickled my heart!” the way you hold your phone close to you with a big smile before rolling under the covers. the happiness, the giddiness and excitement.

suguru wishes to bring nothing but this much joy into your life.

note: another extremely self indulgent piece to bring myself some comfort. have a good day<3

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