Satosugu Family Mornings!!

satosugu family mornings!!

gojo is a way too overqualified middle school science teacher and geto runs a piercing shop >:)

regulus felt stupid,

the stupidest man on the world,

everytime the exam season came.

it's not that he was a bad student. he wasn't. he always took notes, kept silent during lectures and studied more than he slept.

he would study for hours with little to no sleep everyday, trying, wanting eagerly, to get better marks than before.

he wouldn't eat, wouldn't talk and wouldn't be calm during those days.

and when it was time, he had only two things that could happen to him, whether he understood every question, or he failed to get half the exam, but would still try.

he would finish the exam and feel like shit. but it didn't just stop there.

he would be the whole day revising what he wrote down, how many mistakes he got and how bad he did.

and then the grades.

he would sit there apparently calm but with his world up site down inside.

a piece of parchet in front of him.

C-

C-

he would look at it at first, then look for mistakes in the professor's correction and then stare at it.

he stared so hard he thought his eyes would fall of.

he stared down at the paper, contained tears, a shaking on his lips and a serious face.

then, he would hear the students who he saw cheating getting praised for their high marks by their teacher.

regulus kept staring down at the paper.

he was so stupid,

even the word stupid was offended of being compared to him.

he wouldn't cry the first times but then the stress, lack of sleep and unreached expectations would drag him down until he felt like he was drowning,

he remembered that feeling again with inferies later.

he was well known in his first years of being the smart one on their year, 'a pleasure to teach' they said. well now he is burnout and nobody looks at him, sees him. and if they do look at him he feels their disappointed glances about his wasted potential.

those two words were always repeated.

how he could be better if he tried, if he put in the effort.

he tried, he has tried, he has tried for seventeen years but still nothing comes from it.

so yeah,

regulus was stupid,

the stupidest creature alive,

so stupid that he failed in everything he tried to accomplish,

from a grade to the lake.

The Wolves and the Flock of Sheep, 1867. From La Fontaine's Fables Illustrated by Gustave Doré (French, 1832-1883)

the fact that satoru saw kenjaku disguised as suguru and wanted to smile...

but it wasn't a pure, an innocent nor a sad one.

it was a raw smile, one that showed us how he would've dropped everything that second if suguru was really alive, though he knew he wasn't.

raw in a way that it showed how he wanted to join him, to be with him.

so raw, because those were are his feelings for suguru, raw, possessive, desperate,

as if he is his reason to breathe.

and, after all, he still is.

you know when you think about it coryo was just a pissy teenager like any of us some of his dialogues are funny as hell. for example is when mrs. plinth starts making a conversation about her first night in capitol and his inner monologue is just like girl i don’t fucking care. or when dr. gaul tended his wound and said that she used to be obstetrician back in the day and he’s like how fucking awful to have you be the first person in the world a baby sees. he’s just like me.

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