To Be Honest I Don't Really Like That Sometimes Representation Makes Autistic People Look Like Just Silly

to be honest i don't really like that sometimes representation makes autistic people look like just silly little dudes who all that colourful and happy

like okay sure autistic people have a right to be happy and enjoy things but i wanna see the not-so-happy part of life. yeah, people portray stuff like going nonverbal and sensory overload and all that. but what about those time when you have to shut up mid sentense because you don't wanna sound rude? when you choose to stay silent and exclude yourself from conversations? when you over think what you all the time? when you feel to much and people keep trying to talk to you and you need to shove your feelings down because otherwise you will snap at them? when you have to prepare yourself for hours to simply answer the text from a friend? when something out of your control happens and it changes all your routine and you just sitting there trying not to cry? when your family forget to tell you that you all going to visit relatives and you have 0 time to prepare yourself?

i'm gonna be honest with you: been neurodivergent sucks but lack of opportunity to see people struggling with the same shit sucks more

14 y.o. me, finding out that autism can be a reason to decline gender affirming surgeries and transition in general: well i guess it makes sense doctors probably know what they do

20 y.o. me, randomly remembering this not-so-fun fact: wait, that's fucked up

it's really funny for me when people claim that without romantic relationships you cannot possibly be happy. i have a story for this one.

so in my first year of uni i was really invested in my appearance like clothes hair a little bit of make-up all that stuff. and during that year a lot of people (and i mean A LOT) were trying to talk to me or ask for a walk or number. like i wasn't able to get home without talking to anyone. as a not really social person a wanna say that was a freaking nightmare.

you know when it changed and i could finally live peacefully? it happened when i stop putting myself together like i would die if i wasn't looking perfect and when a cut my hair.

all those people suddenly disappeared and i tell you this.

i was never happier in my life.

they will never make me disown you sparkly french boi 😔✊

wait a minute... did bones... did bones finally started to draw aN ASS FOR MIC!? god bless, i was waiting here for years

sorry i don't think i would ever recover from opening for season seven and my flashbacks of 2014 tokio ghoul