Dammit I Broke The Streak

Dammit I broke the streak

Of not hating myself. I promised myself I would stop hating myself awhile back, and it was going so well (from the start of the year till now) despite all the struggles I was facing and I almost believed I was beyond that already and then now......this. Goddamit. And I can't even hate myself for breaking the streak because, well, that would just be counterproductive, wouldn't it? Goddamit.

Probs gonna be taking a short break from Tumblr

Because exams. And for anyone who knows me and is thinking, "Exams again?!" just know that my finals were two weeks after my mocks. Finals are gonna last 14 days counting today, so see yall later!

so @tayegi and i were just talking about how jimin has changed and we came up with some interesting points.

firstly, he’s matured. he used to clown around a lot during their debut days. but now hes more quiet. he’s still soft and laughs at everything but he is more control with his emotions. like before he would get angry really easily and it would show on his face. 

secondly, he’s always been really seductive but his method of seduction seems to have changed, he used to exaggerate sexual gestures e.g. the excessive running his fingers through his hair, the excessive tongue, the abs. the muscle shirts, now, he uses just the right amount to make everyone swerve. he just has to look someone in the eyes and smile and they’re gone. his sexiness has become more subtle now with side glances instead of the abs in your face. also his voice.. according to lu, “the man learned how to growl!”

thirdly, his physical appearance has changed a lot. his baby features have matured, his make-up has become more modest (he used to go crazy for eyeliner lol remember guys good times), his foundation matches his skin tone, they dont use concealer on his lips anymore. remember when he considered himself the ugliest of bts, i feel like now he’s comfortable in his skin. he knows that he’s attractive, not to everyone but to a lot of people, and tbh, confidence is very sexy.

this being said, as a jimin stan, i love both sides of jimin. the man that he was and the man that he is becoming.

the boys were already so satisfied with the minor success of inu that yoongi became anxious and was scared that they had hit their peak with it and were going to fade away like a one-hit wonder. when taehyung tried to comfort him by saying that it was okay because all they needed to do was release another awesome title track, yoongi asked “what if it isn’t good enough?”… no wonder he and namjoon cried together when wings was first released…if you told inu era bts, who was just proud of the fact that they managed to sell out a 5000 seat venue, that they would sell out their whole entire wings tour, win two daesangs, win nearly every music show that they were nominated on, get invited to the bbma and be the first kpop act to win an award at the event, have one of the best selling korean albums of 2017, be the one artist to earn bighit enough money to not only build a new practice room but also move office buildings-all in two years- do you think that they would believe it?

This is more accurate than accurate

A summary of Bangtan MVs

No More Dream: The rebellious Jin drives a school bus into a stack of empty cardboard boxes. Jimin has nice abs

N.O: BTS doesn’t want to go to school

Boy in Luv: Jimin sneaks a peek at Jungkook’s dick and neither of them wash their hands

Just One Day: Taehyung’s deep ass voice

Danger: Jungkook destroys a perfectly good piano for no apparent reason. Taehyung cuts his actual hair

War of Hormones: Bangtan lowkey creeping on some chick

Dope: An unlikely group of friends with seemingly random professions bond over their shitty girlfriends

I Need U: Some significant stuff happens but no one really knows what. We’re pretty sure it’s sad though

Run: LITERALLY WHO IS DEAD

Young Forever: Bighit compiles clips of previous MVs in an attempt to answer all our questions. Groundbreaking

Fire: Suga sets a man on fire with pure swag. Taehyung irons Jin. Nobody stops him

Save Me: The long awaited MV that would finally answer all our questions and wrap up the entire HYYH series: BTS dances in a field

Blood Sweat and Tears: Jungkook licks candle wax like he doesn’t think he’s still a fetus. We have a mid-song intermission so Namjoon can speak English for a solid minute and a half. Suddenly the entire fandom is Jimin-biased

Spring Day: BTS sing on the world’s biggest pile of dirty laundry

Not Today: BTS run away from their problems. Taehyung looks damn good in a headband

Someone come hit me

Really. Someone come hit some sense into me. Some sense of urgency. I’m way behind on my revision, but somehow I’m hitting an absolute plateau in terms of feeling and this is not helped by my recent lack of self-hate. At least back when I hated myself with more intensity, I could actually guilt myself into doing something. Now it's just dumb and annoying. Like, I wanna feel urgent, I want to feel scared and panicked, but I feel absolutely nothing. It wouldn't have been a problem if only I wasn't such a freaking procrastinator on top of being behind schedule. Gah. I. Am. (Probably.) Doomed. Can I please be allowed to spam random notes here? It might get me into the mood to study.