But At The Same Time It Makes Me Wish I Can Die - Tumblr Posts
8 years ago
Dammit I broke the streak
Of not hating myself. I promised myself I would stop hating myself awhile back, and it was going so well (from the start of the year till now) despite all the struggles I was facing and I almost believed I was beyond that already and then now......this. Goddamit. And I can't even hate myself for breaking the streak because, well, that would just be counterproductive, wouldn't it? Goddamit.
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ugh
why am I like this
dancing is gonna be both the reason I want to live and the reason I want to die
I love dancing
But at the same time it makes me wish I can die
mostly because I'm more awkward than hell when I dance
and it actually wasn't a problem the whole of last week
But today......
sigh
god I messed up
fking anxiety
Why is this even an issue
get over yourself
It ALWAYS has to come just as I thought I got the hang of it
I was doing SO WELL
Who cares if I can't dance well as long as I'm happy right?
but noooo
fking hell
Now I can't even enjoy this
and performance is in 3 days
i hate myself
why
the wolf howls
BYE