Pleeeaasse Make A Part Two!!! I Need It!

Pleeeaasse make a part two!!! I need it!

You were the weakling | Newt

Warnings : loads of angst , crying .

Summary : Y/N wants to become a runner and as expected , her boyfriend Newt disagrees . Y/N tries to convince Newt , thinking it was tough but not impossible until events take turn and hearts break .

Pairing : Newt x reader , Thomas x reader .. Minho x reader (platonic , small mention)

This is kinda reader!insert and kinda OC

English is not my first language

I waited for my boyfriend Newt as I sat in the Deadheads , our daily spot to meet . He's been a lot busy lately due to Alby and Thomas . I had to discuss something very important with him . I wanted to become a runner . I knew he wouldn't allow me but I had to convince him . Minho and Thomas told me that I was completely fit to be a runner so why not help them . I felt a strange fear and excitement at the same time . Convincing Newt was the toughest job but I had to do it . I kept pacing around the Deadheads when I saw Newt limping towards me . His face instantly bought a smile on my face and ran forward , engulfing him in a hug . He chuckled and wrapped his sweaty arms around me . I released him from the hug and took his hand in mine . Still , his touch made my heart go faster all the way .

I sat down with him , admiring the sky wen he spoke up "U look a bit distracted , love . What's wrong?" I loved his accent .

As much I tease him about it , I know that's one of the thing I loved the most.

"Nothing just that.. I had something important to tell you .." I trailed off at the last , suddenly fear took over me .

My heart beat violently and a pit formed in my stomach.

"Go on , y/n/n .." he spoke .

He used my nickname only when he had already half way figured out what i was going to say or when he was very stressed . I took a deep breath , turn to face him .

Go on y/n , it's now or never with this thought , I blurted it out "I want to become a runner , Newt " I spoke , fear laced in the voice.

His head snapped in my direction and his eyes showed mixed emotions of anger , irritation , panic , stress and loads of fear .

He spoke almost immediately " No!! . Never . No " he spoke.

I knew this was to happen , so I began my speech , that I had been preparing to convince Newt .

"Listen Newt , I know you're worried about me . But just hear me out . I want to become a runner since I am capable . And then when I don't become a runner and we don't get outta here , it would be because of me . Because I was shucking capable but not ready to give myself for a way out . I don't want that Newt . I am capable and I should come off as useful to you , the Glade , to everyone by finding a way out . All I have ever dreamt of is getting you out of this place Newt . I know how much you hate evey shucking second of it . I want to put an end to it . Or atleast try to. I don't want to sit here like a shank and wonder if there's a way out , when I can go into the maze and find it out . I want to die trying or escape .... " I finished .

All this time I was speaking , Newt kept looking at the ground as if it were the only thing to do . He didn't react , not a word . Firstly , I thought he is convinced but the looks on his face didn't say that . His face was so sad , almost depressed . It was the same face I had seen after his recovery from.... . I couldn't think anymore . I wanted to become a runner , so that I could take him away from his dark past . I knew I was determined about it and I also knew that unlike me , I was going to stubborn as a boulder about it. I knew it was a bit selfish to let him worry about me whole day and rather choose to run , but in the end , it was for the Glade . For him .

"Newt , are u listening?" I asked him after a few moments had passed .

I thought my speech was atleast worth a reaction from him , positive or negative . He just stood up and looked everywhere else but me . I got up and took his hand in mine . I used my other hand to cup his cheek , making him face me . But as soon as his eyes met mine , I saw wat he was trying to hide . Tears . They were pooling in his red eyes .

"Newt , honey-"

I was cut off by Newt speaking in a hoarse voice "No , just-just bloody listen to me . Why ? Why , y/n/n . Why do you wanna do this to me ? I know I am being selfish , but you can help the runners in mapmaking ? Or cooking bloody amazing food ? Or just being a Med-jack as u are ? Please love , please ." after this suddenly his tone changed , as if he was ordering me .

He knew how much I hated this tone , I hated when he controlled me , which he never did until maybe now .

"I know how pathetic that maze is .. I know how cruel it is .. it has killed many of my friends in there , I won't let it take u . U are not becoming a runner , that's the final decision of the second-in-command of the glade . " He finished it in the tone I hated .

But it was just the beginning for me , I got annoyed , mostly due to the advantage he had and the tone of his .. "Newt ! U can't do this . I'll always make it back for you , you know it. I am strong enough to be a runner , you know that . Please , let me become a runner , or else the guilt is gonna kill me " I pleaded .

"I'll help u with the guilt , y/n . But you are not becoming a runner , that's final ." He ordered . Again .

I countered back "Fine , see if I agree with u , I am challenging u that I won't . You know how much of a rebel I am . I'll go in the maze with Minho or Thomas or anyone . Or else I'll memorize the maze and go in . I don't know how , but I'll do it and I am promising u Newt , you won't find me in the glade tomorrow morning . " I finished and everyone in the Glade knew that if I was challenging someone then I would do it .

I was about to walk away when Newt's hand clasped my wrist gently and pulled me back into him . He directed my hands to his wet cheeks and spoke "Please love . Don't do this . Please ! Don't you see how cruel the maze is? Am I not a sheer proof of that? My limp? " He spoke .

This annoyed me to the hell . He was emotionally blackmailing me and I hated that he had the advantage . Being the one who gets easily annoyed , I decided to speak something to stop him . But I didn't know it would come out so harsh and blunt .

Before I could stop , the words flew out of my mouth "It was you , Newt , you were the weakling ."

He instantly dropped my wrists and my hand flew right on my mouth . Telling him this was the last thing I wanted to do . But now , the damage was done . The anger took over me again and this time , newt looked angry too . His eyes flared with anger but it had more of betrayal in it .

Before he cud speak , I spoke up again " We both know it Newt . S-So just , stop , stop controlling me . Please . I am sorry . " i spoke , shocked at my words and insensitivity . I blocked the urge to apologise for my behaviour . I blocked the guilt .

Newt walked away without another word and that's when the guilt washed over me . How could I speak that to him I thought . It felt so bad and now I knew , that I wasn't worth his forgiveness . Hot tears took the cue , rolling down .

Soon , Minho came running into the deadheads to inform me "You're a runner now , y/n !! I can't believe you convinced Newt !"

Should there be a part 2 ? Lol

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