Reading About Random Things. Educating Yourself On Cultures That Died Ages Ago. Excitement In Learning

reading about random things. educating yourself on cultures that died ages ago. excitement in learning new languages. having a cup of hot coffee/tea on a rainy sunday morning. staying up late to finish reading that one book. quoting shakespeare for no specific reason. listening to slow music while doing school work. singing your favorite song off key when no one is watching. smiling at animals. wearing clothes that makes you feel comfortable. laying on bed after a long tiring day. late night drives on empty roads. complimenting strangers. helping an elderly person to cross the road. hugging your best friend. smell of earth after rain. making others laugh. holding hands. 

Be the kind of person you want to meet. Make the kind of book you want to read. Just make the best you can with your life with the resourses you have, don't give up

I always feel like I'm struggeling to become someone else. Like I'm trying to find a new place, grab hold of a new life, a new personality. I guess it's part of growing up, yet it's also an attempt to reinvent myself. By becoming a different me, I could free myself of everything. I seriously believed I could escape myself — as long as I made the effort. But I always hit a dead end. No matter where I go, I still end up me. What's missing never changes. The scenery may change, but l'm still the same old incomplete person. The same missing elements torture me with a hunger that I can never satisfy. I guess that lack itself is as close as I'll come to defining myself.

— Haruki Murakami, South of the Border, West of the Sun

Sometimes I just think, am i the only one that is lost? Why does everyone else in the social media seems to perfectly know what they will do for the rest of their lifes at the age of 20?? Am I the problem or is everyone else just pretending???

I think we all need to really suffer in order to be happy and succed in the future. How would we know what is happiness if we didnt have sadness to compare it with? But omg, when does the happiness part begins??