Dear Namjoon | 15

Dear Namjoon | 15

✧ Pairing: kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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It was the same routine. Go to school, see everyone in the morning but go home alone. Talking about home, being alone with dad wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. but I did miss jimin being around.

I didn't see jimin nor the boys as often as I did but when I was able to see them, I watched them practice, and I sure as hell knew I could never do half of what they do. very little times were namjoon and me able to sneak away and be alone together.

I would like to say we talked and caught up with each other but if we weren't making out we were pulling a quickie.

we went weeks without seeing each other. and the little calls we'd have every other day when he was going to sleep weren't enough. I'd always end the call making it short since I knew he was tired. plus he'll wait till jimin would stop talking to me on the phone.

"you guys clean up" jimin got up from his seat pulling the towel that was wrapped around his neck up to his face to wipe the sweat. "are you gonna come watch?" his tired face looks over at you as he opened the door to leave the small cramped room.

"i'll go home, you guys seem busy" you smile getting up to give him a hug.

"i'm all sweaty"

"who cares, I rarely see you" after hugging him you tease him by saying he stinks only for him to whack you with the towel as he laughed.

"namjoon you're gonna be at the studio right?" he swings the door as to fan himself as he watches namjoon just nod.

once you both were in the clear and alone you turn to look at the man who was exposing his broad shoulders as the thin shirt would expose his muscular chest. you clean up quickly not wanting to waste any time alone with him.

"how have you been" he massages his neck, as he stretches.

"i've been fine. you?" it's been three weeks since the last time you both were together. and just like him you were eager for more than just talk.

he shrugs before chuckling "i'm great now that i got to see you" getting up from the floor he grabs onto your arm gently as you both discreetly walk down a wide hallway.

"they gave me my own studio" he was excited and you could tell. pressing in his code on the door he ushered you inside. shutting the door he gave you no time before you felt his lips collide with yours as he pushed your body against the wall with his.

he pushed our bodies together as his hands gently held your waist. reaching for his face your fingers gently brushed his cheeks as you deepened the kiss.

"fuck, i've missed you" kissing you made him feel better, but he wasn't planning on stopping there. he needed his fill for the past weeks he hasn't seen you.

gripping her thighs he picks her up as she wraps her legs around him without stopping the passionate kiss. walking to the couch he places her down as if she could break if he was harsh, hovering over her.

she felt goosebumps with every touch, wanting more.

the sound of a knock makes both their bodies jump as they both turn to look at the door.

"namjoon?" yoongi calls out as he knocks again

"fuck" namjoon mutters before sitting up, pushing his hair back. getting off the couch he presses a button on his computer before walking over to the door as you quickly sit up fixing your appearance

"i want to show you this" yoongi lets himself in as he passes namjoon giving no attention to anything else, not you, not the music playing.

"i've been working on this since yest-" looking up he sees you siting on the couch and he raises his brow in confusion while turning to look at namjoon

"uh? what's she doing in here?"

"she wanted to look around" he shrugs as he sits on his chair. you stand up awkwardly glancing at namjoon before looking at yoongi "uh i'll go you guys seem busy"

you say your goodbyes before walking to the exit.

"wait" yoongi stops you before you leave, turning around you wondered if he can see how your eye twitched from how nervous you had gotten.

"you forgot something"

looking over to what he was pointing at your bag that had been tossed to the ground at some point through out the whole make out session.

you give him a smile before grabbing your bag and dashing out of there.

yoongi looks at namjoon with a questioning look only to receive a grin along with a shrug.

"what do you mean you can't send letters no more?"

"they said we couldn't do it and they didn't explain it ma- UGH I DON'T FUCKING KNOW" Eunsook yells as she throws the basket of stamps onto the ground. I came to look for eunsook, ever since the guys been leaving early i've been hanging out with their fans.

ironic right

"i'll talk to jimin, i bet there was a mistake"

you try to comfort her, but that has never been one of your best talents. you made sure to call jimin that afternoon and ask what was going on.

"just leave it, don't get involved"

????

"i'm asking because eunsook is upset"

"what did she expect, we aren't the same as before now theres rules and its more professional now"

"what the fuck jimin at least they could've explained it better"

"seriously y/n why is this even bothering you. just fucking leave it"

"why are you being such a grouchy bitch" you snap at him, not liking his attitude

"i'm fucking tired, and this conversation is stupid. all they said was that they would take care of everything. they'll still be able to send letters just that they can't control it like before"

"well couldn't have they fucking told her that"

"they fucking did, look can we just drop this conversation"

"actually why don't we hang up. you're tired"

"y/n seriously" he sighs, frustrated with you.

you hang up not giving him another chance to talk. he dials back but you ignore his call. namjoon called right after and the conversation with him wasn't any good either. just like jimin he told you to just leave it alone.

and you felt like you should leave it alone, it's not that serious and it doesn't concern you. but it pissed you off that eunsook was ignored when she called to ask for the reason why they couldn't send things until they had their shit together.

eunsook started a war between jimin and you.

"i don't know why you're in such a bitchy mood. go see your boyfriend or something" jimin snaps at you through the other line.

"look you little shit, it's not my fault you can't get the steps right in your damn choreography" you yell back.

jimin and you were arguing during his break, he had called you and for some reason a argument broke out.

"dude it's been a week" taehyung rolls his eyes as he watches jimin who's standing in front of the mirror as he spoke..no, more like yelled into the phone.

"they've been fighting for the dumbest shit" jungkook rubs his temples, done with both your  childish behavior.

jimin hangs up the call and walks over to the guys sitting right next to taehyung as he takes the bowl of grapes he was eating on his own.

"she can be so fucking annoying at times"

"why are you guys fighting anyways" hoseok speaks up

"she started it, i didn't even do shit. not my fault she hasn't gotten laid" he shoves two grapes into his chubby cheeks

namjoon found the whole situation amusing, both siblings kept talking shit about each other to namjoon and of course he didn't take side but he wanted to laugh cause honesty he just wanted to tell them they were both stupid and wrong.

"it's been a week since she's been here" jin steals a grape from the very upset jimin. they were all surprised that the brother who once adored his sister and wanted to be with her at every second plus never cursed at her or anything has completely turned around.

"she's a fucking child"

"he's so fucking full of himself" y/n throws her hands up showing how angry she was, eunsook had came over to the house. the two had become best friends, close enough to go over to each others house.

of course you made sure to keep jimin's room locked and not let her take photos of any family photos that were around the house.

thankfully eunsook wasn't a weirdo.

"i didn't take jimin as that type of person" her eyes widen in shock as you talked shit about your brother. letting out a frustrated sigh you shake your head "he's just being an asshole, he's not usually like that"

"they opened a youtube account and twitter" eunsook speaks up, trying to talk about something else but unfortunately it was still related to them.

Not much time passed before we made up, but now they were busier than ever. months were passing and the calls were getting shorter and less often.

Namjoon and me were becoming complete strangers.

"today's the big day" your dad packs the bags into the trunk. the boys had moved somewhere farther. and today was the day the world found out who BTS is.

you hadn't seen them for over three months and you didn't even receive calls anymore.

at first you were understanding, but now you felt different.

for some reason you just kept thinking about what jungkook told you that day. it made you tense up and feel nauseous, the anxiety of seeing namjoon today.

you were planning to stay with them over the weekend since dad was going to have to leave earlier.

to even say the least, the moment we arrived there was no chance to meet them. everyone was running everywhere and we were escorted to our seats right away. the moment came when the lights dimmed down and all the new groups came out to perform, and i realized something the moment BTS stepped out and got into place

The people on stage, I didn't know them.

the moment the music starte-

(A/N: OKAY I JUST LAUGHED AT THIS BECAUSE I REMEMBERED BTS FROM WHEN THEY DEBUTED AND I COULDN'T LMAOOO NAMJOONS HAIR. YALL REMEMBER WHEN THEY SANG NO MORE DREAM AGAIN IN 2017. YEAH THINK OF THAT..OK AND ALSO WTF AM I WRITING I REALLY DON'T LIKE THIS. I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST MY TOUCHDIFWJNSPIGNWPGOM)

The crowd chanted their names along with other lines and you looked around feeling out of place. you have been around these boys before they were signed and you were the only one in this room who felt distant.

as jungkook stepped up towards the front, both of you made eye contact and he smirks (2:36- 2:40 in the 2017 bts dna comeback video.....i'ma go throw myself out my window i hate this hahaha)

switching spots with jimin who then lifts his shirt making everyone in the room scream you couldn't help but laugh knowing damn well he was screaming in the inside, dying because of what he just did.

just how the performance started it ended just as quick, the crowd never stopped chanting their names as you made it through the crowd trying to get to backstage with your dad. "here, you give them to jimin" he hands you a bouquet of flowers.

once they allowed you guys to enter their dressing room you are welcomed by jimin screaming your name as he runs up to you "what did you think" he gives you a huge smile as he clutches onto the water bottle in his hands.

"i loved it, especially the shirt lifting. everyone went nuts" you tease him as you hand over the flowers.

"shut up" he thanks you both.

looking at all the other guys who were standing around the screen watching their performance some looked devastated as if they didn't like it.

"you guys did great, i loved it and for sure everyone out there loved it too" you assure them.

there were interviews after their performance so you waited for them in their dressing room.

"did you watch it?" you tell your mom who was on the other end of the call

"yes, i loved it. tell jimin i'm proud of him"

"i will, they've been gone for a while" you glance at your watch.

the door then suddenly opens but to your surprise it was a women with a BTS crew shirt on, she came to tell you the guys had left just now and that there was another car waiting for you since your dad had to leave.

even though you are jimin sister they didn't want anyone at least for now to see you guys leaving together.

leaving through the back door was new to you. as you entered the car, a call came in from jimin.

but your toxic ass felt bitter and decided not to answer.

You kept thinking about jungkook's words.

they kept repeating in your head, how you could ruin everything.

as you sat among them who were celebrating the fact that they finally debuted your insides were twisting with anxiety.

I wanted to first say that I really love love love "deep" it's been a while since a fanfic has caught my attention the way "deep" has.

but I wanted to ask,

Q1. what made you want to write deep, and why this type of story?

Q2. you have included jungkook as a love intrest, I was shocked when yoongi himself was telling oc that jk would've been a better choice.

Q3. you wrote that oc's dad told yoongi to watch over her, did oc's dad not expect for them to fall for each other or did he know that yoongi liked her and just thought he'd cherish her and take care of her

Q4. lets say oc ends up getting pregnant, what type of reaction would yoongi have? and would he be a good father?

Thank you for reading and supporting DEEP!

these are a lot/very good questions. although there are some i'm not comfortable at the moment to answer I hope these answers are good for you right now.

A1. honestly I was having a hard time writing my other works and it suddenly came to mind, originally I was planning to do something else with this idea but i'm glad I ended up writing deep.

A2. hahaha actually deep was suppose to have jungkook as the male lead and the story was going to be a bit different but I ended up going to see yoongi on tour two days and was like fuck it lets write a fanfic of him instead.

A3. no comment, I feel like I can talk about this after some events are written.

A4. no comment

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I was working on the next chapter and came into tumblr to see the inbox and I was really happy to see this, thank you for the questions! please ask more :))

I want to first say I love your writing! it's so good....also what inspired you to write deep? how do you come up with the stories?

thank you for liking my writing! about deep...I don't really know I just wanted to read a story as such and decided to write it. after much thought I published it....there were two different versions before this one. the stories just come to me...like ideas or anything and I write it down and thats how I start.

The Spy| mini chapter

A part of Dear Namjoon series

✧ Pairing:Kim Namjoon x reader ✧ Chapter 16 side story pt.2 ✧ warning(s): explicit language ✧ word count: a/n: each mini story will have to do with a chapter and usually of another characters point of view and these are sometimes if not all the times extremely short.

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"Dad it was amazing" taehyung says with his boxy smile on display as he talks on the phone with his parents. once everyone came home he went to sleep and didn't have a chance to talk to his parents. He worked harder than the rest of the members during training, since his nerves would kick in and make him forget everything.

"yeah, I couldn't even think of anything else. it all just came naturally" his smile getting wider as he remembers the fans chanting his name. "it was better than I thought it would be, it felt more real than when we would practice at the club" he laughs.

taehyung had dragged his chair by the window as he hid behind the curtain trying to keep quiet and not wake anyone up.

"the rest of the members are doing great, dad you should've seen it in person"

"yeah next tim-" taehyung's body jolts as he hears the door to a room open abruptly and he peaks out from the curtain only to see y/n dash out of the room quickly heading to the opposite hall.

"i'll call you back" he says as he was about to get up to go check on y/n since she looked upset but he quickly sat back down when he sees namjoon come out of the same room shirtless and calling out her name.

what the fuck is going on? he wondered. looking at the time he sees how late it is and begins to connect the dots as to why they couldn't find namjoon before going to sleep. sitting patiently behind the curtain hoping to stay unseen he stays there waiting for something to happen or actually hoping nothing happened.

after waiting for a long time he finally sets his feet down, ready to sneak back to his room. pulling the curtain to the side he starts to slowly walk to his room that he was sharing with jimin. walking as quickly but slowly as possible keeping an eye out for a very upset girl. 

"bitch it's 5am, can't we just go to sleep. i'll take you once we wake up and that way you can say bye to everyone" taehyung hears jimin and y/n talk making him stop mid hall. in panic he looks around to see where he could hide, finding a near by closet he stumbles towards it as he hears the two siblings walking out the room as he barely made it to the spot.

I'm too tired for this, he sighs irritated.

why am I even hiding he shakes his head, watching the siblings leave the hall he speed walks to their shared room and closes the door behind him

"seriously when jimin comes back i'ma have to tell him all this dram-" stopping mid sentence he stands in the middle of the empty room "fuck, i can't tell jimin"

rubbing his forehead he lets his tired body fall on the bed as he drifts to sleep, hating the fact he wouldn't be able to tell anyone anything that happened.

"but then there is jungkook?" he says before his heavy eyelids win.

The Party| mini chapter

A part of Dear Namjoon series

✧ Pairing:Kim Namjoon x reader ✧ Chapter 14 side story pt.2 ✧ warning(s): explicit language ✧ word count: a/n: each mini story will have to do with a chapter and usually of another characters point of view and these are sometimes if not all the times extremely short.

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After calling y/n for the third time I walk back to the group of guys who were trying to calm jimin down from bursting out the door for y/n.

we were prohibited of going to parties, in fact we were told to avoid all social gatherings if possible. "i'll go get her" i tell jimin who was being held down on the chair by jungkook

"no, i'm going to go. she's my sister"

yeah but she's my girlfriend.

"i know" he sighs as he passes his fingers through his hair "but you might make a whole scene"

"i'll come too" hoseok stands "just incase"

we decided to just go while making sure to keep jimin in check, and not cause some scene that can get all of us in trouble.

but the moment we got there, and I saw y/n being held by someone else. I really wished I had been the one who had stayed in the car. Jimin rushed to y/n and was yelling nonsense, I couldn't bring myself to stop him as I stared at y/n and her way of dressing.

but who cares about how she dressed, what pissed me off was that he touched her when she said no.

thankfully y/n got in and separated jimin from him, i would've let him beat the guy to a pulp probably would've joined in myself.

"it's not what it looks like.." y/n whispered to me. Hearing her voice was enough to make him calm down.

When will we be getting more chapters of ANY fanfics :((

soon! Sorry I haven't been active at all, with the start of summer I thought I'd have more time in my hands but it wasn't the case.