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Doe is the type of person who will infodump the lore of Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit, both the books and the films, and will even talk about trivia of the films BTS stuff

And you cannot do anything to stop this

My name is Aya, I'm 29 years old. I'm married to Jihad, who is 32, and we have three beautiful children: Abdelrahman (7 years old), Jori (5 years old), and Adam (2 years old). We live in the northern part of Gaza.

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Abdelrahman, Adam, and Jori are the heartbeat of my heart and the light of my life.

Abdelrahman: the lion of the house, the helpful and loving boy to his siblings and family.

Jori: my beloved girl, the one closest to my heart, and my little mini-me.

Adam: my little hero and my spoiled child.

Since the onset of the latest war in Gaza, our home has been completely destroyed, forcing us into displacement. We’ve had to move more than thirteen times in search of safety. During this harrowing journey, we faced severe hunger and malnutrition that nearly took my life and the lives of my children. Additionally, we were exposed to numerous contagious diseases and dangerous epidemics.

Before: This is our home, our dream, and our promising future.

My children have to travel long distances just to get water and stand in line for hours to get food. Their mental health has been shattered by the war, their education has come to a halt, and they have suffered from catastrophic hunger that almost claimed their lives.

After: This is our home, built with our sweat and effort, and it has been completely destroyed.

The Right to a Peaceful Life

My children deserve to live a peaceful life free from fear and anxiety. I dream of your help to support my family and escape this genocide. Your assistance means the world to me and my children.

Your donations can be a beacon of hope for us. Every dollar can help save my children's lives and give them a chance to live in peace. Your prayers for us to overcome this ordeal and lift the siege are greatly needed.

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OC Aesthetic Board

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🦌 Zoey “Doe” Kilduff

⚕️ Valentina “Cleric” Solovyova

I’ve been meaning to do this for a couple weeks but I love doing aesthetic boards

Blank below if anyone wants to do this, too!

Okay, now I’m actually considering opening commissions

My 10+ year old laptop that I haven’t been able to use the past few years due to it slowly dying functionally speaking is still doing so (and probably about to explode /j) plus it won’t let me back in even with the right password typed in and it’s why I moved to my iPad for drawing.

So I’m looking into maybe getting a gaming laptop so I can do my work again on some computer.

I’ll update y’all on when I fix my commission sheet back up and open them up.

UPDATE

These ruffles are gonna be the death of me

Ghost: I might be a nonbeliever, but I know a goddess when I see one

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(WIP Cause I needed to get it out my system before I went back in to work)

gratiela brancusi gif pack

public commission! 168 gifs of gratiela brancusi in 1883. all made by me, like / reblog if you’re using or found this pack useful!

If only I were she!

▬ Gratiela Brancusi

MYYYYYYY wanda!!!!!!!!!

Doe and Her Health (TW: Talk of Weight, EDs, Masking, Mental Health Problems)

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Physical Health

Doe overall maintains a relatively good health. However, she does have past health problems and current health conditions that do affect her mentally just as much as it does physically. For one, Doe devloped a higher metabolism rate, which makes it hard for her to gain weight, much less maintain a healthy weight range. Not to mention when her father further pushed her for her training, he made snide remarks about her body and weight (mind you she was a child still during this time), and given she grew up during the 90s-2000s, the whole push to be “skinny” was insanely high and detrimental for a child/teenage girl like her.

She would eat less food for a long period of time, until it became she ate nothing.

Doe would repeatedly collapse during training, even keel over from starvation to the point of tears. A part of her knew what she was doing was wrong, but the other part of her wanted her father to be proud of her no matter how many times he raised the bar for her. It had gotten so bad that Doe, before her father was finally arrested, weighed nearly 98 pounds at 5’10”. She even had to be forced medication and therapy in order to regain control of her weight and health. Initially, Doe was refusing the medication due to the trauma by her father and the people training her, but the therapy during her secondary school days eventually got her to take it and regain weight to a relatively healthy weight, albeit still somewhat underweight (but not dangerously so).

Now, at 32, she weighs a good 125 lbs, and is doing a lot better with her weight maintenance and taking her medications.

However, she does sometimes forget to eat and gets too close to relapsing with her ED. Thankfully, Ghost is there to notice this and when he calculated the calories from her day, he makes her a huge breakfast or dinner and even tells her he would lace her food with her medicine just so that she knows he cares so much about her, even goes as far as eating with her.

Mental Health

Now it’s pretty obvious that Doe has been through a lot throughout her life, and yes, therapy does work for her. Though that doesn’t exactly mean she isn’t safe from triggers of all kinds, whether that be PTSD or ADHD.

Doe for the longest time had been under serious scrutiny from her father, causing her to struggle horribly with stress, anxiety, and even depression, though she was never allowed to show weakness around him. She had to see things no child should even have to see, and that alone caused unnecessary distress on the girl to the point she eventually became desensitized by violence and horrors.

Doe habitually bottles up her problems and internal emotions, forcing herself to mask in order to fit in and keep up appearances. But she so longs to be open about herself and her emotions, she doesn’t want to deter people away from her.

ADHD makes things even harder on her as she even tends to be hard on herself when things go wrong in a mission, causing her to silently have a panic attack the moment she can get alone time. If or when someone walks in on her having one of her episodes, she quickly pulls herself together and tells them she’s fine (she isn’t).

After her father’s attempt on her life, his own, and her siblings, her uncle took the triplets in and he had them undergo some serious therapy sessions as teenagers, especially Doe. He felt awful that he couldn’t be there for his niblings, but it also would have gotten him killed if he ever got near the compound where they were living against their will.

Now an adult well into her 30s, Doe strives to live a better life even if she does have a more “childish” take on it. Sometimes she can be quite loud and cheery, boisterous and playful, but remember, that’s the side she never got to express growing up.

But even that side, added on to masking, can wear her down all over. She might not realize in the moment she has gone too far with her emotions and expressiveness, but when called out on it, she’ll start off as defensive, but soon enough, she’ll apologize; even if it makes her feel like shit she did that without knowing it.

Hi dear donors ! ❤️

I would like to extend my thank and gratitude for the support you have been offering over the last eleven months. ❤️☺️

My family and I have been suffering and going through the hardest days we have ever experienced in our life . Things are very hard to get and and sometimes unattainable.😭😓

Our sufferings and hardship started on the first days of the war when all our possessions were completely destroyed and burned. We have become displaced and homeless , finding ourselves in a small tent in streets with no means of life. We lack every single necessary thing of life; food, water, hygiene essentials, and other necessities have become scarce and rare.

A photo taken to show how incredibly harsh our life has become after the war. We are struggling and facing lots of barriers to obtain the simplest necessities for living. Everything single thing is a complete story.

You can't imagine what difficulties we have been going through all these days of war. No cooking gas , nor cooking tools exist . We struggle to prepare a small meal of food.

No bakeries are available. Everything seems a miracle and unbelievable.😭 The war has stolen our joy and smile, leaving us busy thinking only of staying safe and alive. Our future has gone with the wind and our kids lost their dreams and ambitions.

This is a part of burying the dead. We also face some problems in the process of buying our dead people as no place is there for the family. Tombs aren't enough for the number of people living on a small spot of land.

A photo taken for the morning queue of filling our gallons with drink water. We wait hours to get some water for drink. Our life is full of tragedy and sadness.

All what we need is to survive the war and be safe. We are trying to secure the daily basic living necessities and this can come true with your contribution and support. Please don't spare this moment of supporting the people in need in Gaza in this tough and dire time. You can help us by either donating however small it is or sharing my posts. Your support makes a big difference for families in need.

Yours

Ghost: I might be a nonbeliever, but I know a goddess when I see one

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(WIP Cause I needed to get it out my system before I went back in to work)

🧠: waiter! more König with his beefy hangs out for no explainable reason

I have no words…

Rest easy, James Earl Jones

And May the Force Be With You

Tom Hardy as Johnny The Bikeriders (2023) dir. Jeff Nichols

Bedtime Stories with Tom Hardy (2024)

Thanks Tom

I wanted to join in on this! (Many months later)

Feat. My own Ghost x OC ship, GhostDoe (or Phantom Stag)

I loved Sleepy’s idea of adding their individual petnames/nicknames for each other!

Tagging: Anyone who wants to do this!

[Saw @cloudofbutterflies92 post and wanted to try and do it, too! So this is inspired by her and @moosch who drew the characters inside the boxes of the template. Wanted to try that for a long time so I'm glad I could do it now! Thank you both tho for the idea and inspiration <3 !]

Blank Template + silly little brainrot:

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I love how I was able to give them a more domestic vibe somehow. By the way, I just realized...

This is them in a nutshell, your honor. I cackled fr.

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Taglist [opt in/out]: @alypink @graveyard-party666 @mutantthedark @onehornedbeast @artbygem

@chloekistune @voidika @inafieldofdaisies @socially-awkward-skeleton @kaitaiga

@itsastronxmy @deeptrashwitch @theelderhazelnut @islandtarochips @caelums-fate

@kikiharinezumi @hookhearted and anyone else who'd like to try!

Last Line Tag

Tagged by @cloudofbutterflies92

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Doe, unbothered by the middle aged woman’s remarks, collapsed her parasol before handing it to Ghost and making her way towards the other towering over her. “Listen, bhagini. I dun ask fer ‘nyone’s opinion tha’ much, but if I wanted tae hear your’s-” Doe lowered her sunglasses enough the other woman can see her stormy blue eyes. “-I know more ways then one tae get it outta ya.”

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Tagging: Anyone who wants to do this!

This would be the perfect song for Doe towards the end of MW3 (and possibly the climax of MW4 if there’s a chance for that game to happen) the moment she realizes the horrific actions she took to avenge Soap made her become the very thing she hated the most: her own father

And she’s struggling to decide on whether she should just end things or live with that for the rest of her life as she starts spiraling out of control and into a fit of anxiety, dread, and denial

Okay not to be overdramatic or anything (and knowing these can’t even happen in the game but let me dream)

But hear me out on this:

My farmer OC Zoey going into Skull Cavern and losing track of time (as we all do) before running into a hoarde of skeleton soldiers, fighting them all off as best as she can until she realizes she can’t even feel or move her right arm then sees is on the floor of the cave

After escaping the cave, clinging onto life and her now cut off arm, she uses her totem to get back to her farm and rides on her horse as fast as she can to the hospital, going in and out of consciousness in the pouring rain before getting there and banging on the door, calling out to Harvey or Maru. She’s begging for someone to open the door but is slowly getting tired from exhaustion, pain, and blood loss until she does actually pass out in front of the hospital before Harvey spots her in the dark

Several hours go by and people are in the Stardrop, Shane getting to his usual spot, and notices Zoey wasn’t dropping by to annoying (much to his disappointment). However he does wonder where she actually is and, internally, it’s freaking him out; but he doesn’t like other people to know he’s got a thing for her

He then overhears Pam, Gus, and Emily talking about Zoey, at first not knowing it is her they were talking about

Then he hears the dreaded phrases he didn’t think he would hear again after the passing of Jas’ parents:

“Zoey’s in the hospital in critical condition.”

“She’s in rough shape.”

“Wonder if she’ll make it through the night.”

Man completely drops everything and runs to the hospital, not caring that his body’s not used to the action after so long of not doing any kind of running.

‘No! No! No no no no no! Not again! Yoba, no, not again!’

He bursts into the hospital, there’s actually the rest of the town gathered by the door to the actual hospital rooms. Everyone is muttering to themselves, worried for Zoey’s condition, as they are for Maru and Harvey. Shane can feel his heat pounding in his chest, his throat tighten, and his eyes water as he yells out for Zoey and run through the crowd. He’s pushing and shoving everyone out of the way to get in the room, all while still calling out to Zoey

And then once in, much to everyone else’s dismay, he feels as though his heart and soul shattered into billions of pieces at the sight before him

Zoey lying in bed fighting for her life, Maru using a resuscitation bag, and Harvey doing everything he can to stop the bleeding from her arm that was cut off

He says nothing at first but once he took a step forward everything came crashing and he screamed out for her, running up to her bedside while poor Harvey had to push him away as he worked on her. Eventually, Gus and Clint had to pull Shane off of Zoey with him crying out to her again and again, begging for her to live, wanting her to live

Marine had to come in to try and calm him down as they moved to the hallway, but Shane was such a mess from the sight he was inconsolable, sitting on the ground, face in his hands, and nonstop tears falling into the floor

It was the moment he truly let the town know he really did love Zoey more than he ever expected

Shane then refused to leave the hospital until she was well enough to at least speak, battling the idea of heading back to the saloon for a drink despite his ongoing sobriety treatment. There’s even a night out two Harvey caught Shane sleeping in the bed with Zoey just holding her and occasionally crying into her hair

He wants her to wake up.

Please, Yoba, for once, let her live

For him

I was rewatching the 2024 Eurovision entries and if Bambie Thug’s semi-final performance of Doomsday Blue isn’t the most GhostDoe thing ever, I don’t know what is

Doe if she were in MW3 and beat the shit outta Makarov

Thinking of getting to a point of tweaking Doe’s bio