I Absolutely Love How Im Minding My Business In My Room ,watching Up On Some YouTube To Relax. This Video

I absolutely love how I’m minding my business in my room ,watching up on some YouTube to relax. This video pops up on my feed that is titled “The Problem With Modern Love.” I click on it, expecting it to be about popular takes about love that I’ve heard over and over again by many different people. To tell y’all how genuinely surprised I was, is a complete understatement. I don’t know who this man is in the video, but he is so eloquent and explains his point of with so much passion and care that I was blown away. I will not lie, I think this video just completely solidified the fact that I 100000% find intelligence, passions and being themselves are 3 of the most attractive qualities that a person can have.

Oh and here’s the link to the video if you’re curious https://youtu.be/AnEtus9XNws?si=rtyUym_CGzuyTMMH

Lmao It’s Been A While

Dear college freshman and sophomore me,

Remember the guy you had a major crush on and never talked to him because you were so nervous every time you saw him? The guy you would see at the student union looking all fine and smart minding his own business and just couldn’t help but want to get to know him? Yeah? Well…. Gurl…. He’s not worth it and is a major disappointment because the man is dry asf and is not the standard… he may look cute but do not waste your time.

We finally had our first relationship after years of being single from the ex from high school that traumatized us!! (Btw your bisexual). Look, it may have hurt us deeply, but we learned from it. It gave a us a new perspective on our first relationship and we learned about what WE truly wanted in a relationship. We learned about what we want when it comes to dating and getting into a relationship. I’m proud to say that we are able to say when enough is enough and stand up for ourselves. It was a great relationship, with many beautiful memories and you learn a lot from it. I don’t regret it, but it doesn’t end up hurting you in the end.

You have the greatest friends!! They were there through everything. They helped you when you felt lost, they were there when you had a panic attack for the first time in months, they were there to lift you up when you were down. They were there to support you in absolutely everything and I couldn’t be more thankful that they are in my life. They give you courage and confidence in our decisions, wishes, and dreams!! Heck you even reconnected with your longest friend after a year of no talking because you thought that she would leave you is she found out you were bisexual!! You couldn’t have more more wrong because she supports you and she’s so happy to see how confident you are in yourself!! That’s right baby me!! We are confident now😎 plus you are in such a better place than you have ever been in your life!! Your happy and making memories with the people you love and cherish!! Heck I got high last night with all of our friends and went to the zoo and it was the best experience!!

Also remember the one guy your ex friend did a show with and how she told you all this shit about him and ended up hating him for it? Well… you ended up working on a musical with him and you hated him even more!! But that’s not the point. You both ended up being in the same class… and that my friend, is where it all began. So who would’ve ever thought you would have a fat crush on the guy that you hated? We have read by far too many fanfics. Btw nothing has come out of it, except moments that make me question whether or not he’s being flirty or just a good friend, but let me tell you… it’s worth it. Liking him as been one of the most fun experiences because he treats you differently than does with others in his life. He genuinely cares about us. He has defended you to professors, your fake wife (hi Daisy🥺🫶), your close friends, ect… he has given us advice, he has calmed us down when we are angry and stressed. He literally threatened us that he would come take care of us himself if we didn’t take better care of ourselves when we were sick. He is able to read us like a fucking book and that makes us so happy. We don’t have to say a single word because he will say “what happened? Talk to me,” and we do!! Man do we talk. We have talked about so many different things, and each one I cherish because he is just as grateful to have me in his life like how much I’m grateful that he’s in mine. Whether this ends up becoming romantic or friendly, it doesn’t matter because we have gained someone in our life that makes us happy.

And now on to the star of this saga. You, me and Us. I’m so proud of us. We made it to 22, and who would’ve thought that. We’ve had it hard, life coming at us and throwing curve balls left and right, hiking up mountains and valleys to get where we are and look at us!! We were able to write a full 10 minute script that our professor loved!! We even designed the program that presented our class and everyone loved it!! But the biggest accomplishment was the fact that we are officially an actor!! We preformed in our first main stage theatre production as the main lead for a show that has never been produced before!! On top of that we got nominated to compete for the Irene Ryan this upcoming KACTF!! lol at us go!! All those late nights memorizing lines that ended up being 96 pages was all worth it. We also have made so many new friendships and connections through this experience. We are finally growing up into the person we hoped we’d be! Look how far we’ve come and this is just the beginning because now you’re trying to write a book and man am I having fun with it!!

Everything you’ve gone through led us to where we are now!! I know it was hard in the beginning, but I’m so proud of you for holding on!! And I’m so proud of us for how far we’ve come. Goodbye for now little me. I’ll update you in a few years!!

Sincerely,

Me😘🥰💕🫶

It’s currently 12:35 am, but we all already know the drill… I can’t sleep🥰

So what am I gonna do to help this issue?

I’m gonna re-attempt to write a fanfic that I kinda gave up on even though I absolutely love the ideas that go along with it….

Wish me and give me all the luck cause my writing skills and my sanity are gonna need it🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️

Thank you for coming to my TedTalk🤩

Ron, nodding sagely: If it excites you and scares you at the same time, you should probably just do it.

Harry: Really?

Ron: Yeah!

Harry, taking a deep breath: Alright. I’ll do it. I’ll fuck Tom Riddle.

Ron: What.

Harry, waving goodbye: Thanks for the advice, Ron.

Ron: What.

it ends as it began

Another spurt of Inspiration:

Hi again.

I thought I would be done after the first letter to you, but I guess not. I miss you. More than ever. I don’t know who you are and that’s killing me more than ever right now. I know I’m my heart our time will come, but I can’t help but feel this way. I watched a drama recently, so maybe that’s why my soul is longing for you more than ever right now. The most beautiful sunrise peered right outside my window this morning and I couldn’t help but think of you. The way the beautiful golden gleams of the sun warmed my face felt as though your hand was there. I hope you feel the same when you see the sunrise this morning wherever you may be. The person I have yet to meet.

“Even if you forget the person in your mind, the soul will never forget the memories.” This was a quote from the drama I watched. I couldn’t help but think that this applies to us? Don’t you think? We made memories in a past life and our soul will remember each other in this one when we cross paths eventually. The day we finally meet can’t come soon enough. I used to think that life was monochrome. A life of blacks, whites and grays, but now life seems to be a little bit brighter. Maybe when we meet my life will become even brighter, colors that will be more vibrant than they are now. Someone asked me once if I ever wanted to go to the past to change anything, would I? My answer initially was no, and it still is. Yet, I can’t help but feel as though my Nader has changed some. Perhaps if you, my soulmate, we’re in my past and something happened to you, then I would. I would try desperately to change our fate…but I guess no one can do that. I hope your day today is a little bit brighter than yesterday, and that the beautiful sun shines down on your face, giving you the warmth I can’t right now. I hope the rain will cool you off when I can’t. I hope the beautiful bright moon will watch over you when you dream of me, and that your wishes come true with every star you wish upon. I’m always thinking of you wherever you may be, and I’ll be here waiting for your return. I just know the day we finally cross paths, will be the day we say “I’m finally home.” Just hold on and wait for me a little longer. I’ll see you when stars allow it. Until then, smile brightly like the sun and dream soundly so I can meet you there. I love you.

Sincerely,

Your soulmate