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*Late thought*
I think about how you loved me way before I ever could. You saw so much more in me that it took 18-20 years of my life to finally figure out. I love you for always loving me before anyone else could, and wish I could see you again. I just want to thank you for caring about me and seeing all the potential that I had at such a young age. I love you and hope you have a great life.
SO. I remembered something. Or someone. Please read and see if you can relate!
It was pretty like a Cherub (though i don't think they were Abrahamic, but i'm not sure), but with four humanoid halfs placed on a huge creature's body, like a lion or a dragon. They were all connected, but not always physically.
The Left one was the Angel of Plague, Illness and Rebirth, bringing both destruction and blessings. They wore a mask and the hair was not visible. They had a slim body, pointy ears, gray-ish skin and their clothes were made of bandages. They always kept their hands (and wings, probably, since i saw none) behind their body.
The Top one was the Angel of Divine fury, Divine Protection and Divine Knowledge. They were a warrior, had medium-long curly hair (i think it was a dark tone of red), a pair of huge wings, a big (but not inhumanly big) nose, stoic expression and always carried a sword. Their wings were always extended, like they were waiting for a fight at any time.
The Bottom one was the Angel of Universal Balance and Justice and carried Divine Messages. They had long wavy hair, wings on the place of ears and a pair of downsided wings on their back, had a soft expression, wore a blindfold and a flowy white dress and carried a weight balance. They were really gentle and careful.
I can't recall the Right one, but i know they were there.
Lmao It’s Been A While
Dear college freshman and sophomore me,
Remember the guy you had a major crush on and never talked to him because you were so nervous every time you saw him? The guy you would see at the student union looking all fine and smart minding his own business and just couldn’t help but want to get to know him? Yeah? Well…. Gurl…. He’s not worth it and is a major disappointment because the man is dry asf and is not the standard… he may look cute but do not waste your time.
We finally had our first relationship after years of being single from the ex from high school that traumatized us!! (Btw your bisexual). Look, it may have hurt us deeply, but we learned from it. It gave a us a new perspective on our first relationship and we learned about what WE truly wanted in a relationship. We learned about what we want when it comes to dating and getting into a relationship. I’m proud to say that we are able to say when enough is enough and stand up for ourselves. It was a great relationship, with many beautiful memories and you learn a lot from it. I don’t regret it, but it doesn’t end up hurting you in the end.
You have the greatest friends!! They were there through everything. They helped you when you felt lost, they were there when you had a panic attack for the first time in months, they were there to lift you up when you were down. They were there to support you in absolutely everything and I couldn’t be more thankful that they are in my life. They give you courage and confidence in our decisions, wishes, and dreams!! Heck you even reconnected with your longest friend after a year of no talking because you thought that she would leave you is she found out you were bisexual!! You couldn’t have more more wrong because she supports you and she’s so happy to see how confident you are in yourself!! That’s right baby me!! We are confident now😎 plus you are in such a better place than you have ever been in your life!! Your happy and making memories with the people you love and cherish!! Heck I got high last night with all of our friends and went to the zoo and it was the best experience!!
Also remember the one guy your ex friend did a show with and how she told you all this shit about him and ended up hating him for it? Well… you ended up working on a musical with him and you hated him even more!! But that’s not the point. You both ended up being in the same class… and that my friend, is where it all began. So who would’ve ever thought you would have a fat crush on the guy that you hated? We have read by far too many fanfics. Btw nothing has come out of it, except moments that make me question whether or not he’s being flirty or just a good friend, but let me tell you… it’s worth it. Liking him as been one of the most fun experiences because he treats you differently than does with others in his life. He genuinely cares about us. He has defended you to professors, your fake wife (hi Daisy🥺🫶), your close friends, ect… he has given us advice, he has calmed us down when we are angry and stressed. He literally threatened us that he would come take care of us himself if we didn’t take better care of ourselves when we were sick. He is able to read us like a fucking book and that makes us so happy. We don’t have to say a single word because he will say “what happened? Talk to me,” and we do!! Man do we talk. We have talked about so many different things, and each one I cherish because he is just as grateful to have me in his life like how much I’m grateful that he’s in mine. Whether this ends up becoming romantic or friendly, it doesn’t matter because we have gained someone in our life that makes us happy.
And now on to the star of this saga. You, me and Us. I’m so proud of us. We made it to 22, and who would’ve thought that. We’ve had it hard, life coming at us and throwing curve balls left and right, hiking up mountains and valleys to get where we are and look at us!! We were able to write a full 10 minute script that our professor loved!! We even designed the program that presented our class and everyone loved it!! But the biggest accomplishment was the fact that we are officially an actor!! We preformed in our first main stage theatre production as the main lead for a show that has never been produced before!! On top of that we got nominated to compete for the Irene Ryan this upcoming KACTF!! lol at us go!! All those late nights memorizing lines that ended up being 96 pages was all worth it. We also have made so many new friendships and connections through this experience. We are finally growing up into the person we hoped we’d be! Look how far we’ve come and this is just the beginning because now you’re trying to write a book and man am I having fun with it!!
Everything you’ve gone through led us to where we are now!! I know it was hard in the beginning, but I’m so proud of you for holding on!! And I’m so proud of us for how far we’ve come. Goodbye for now little me. I’ll update you in a few years!!
Sincerely,
Me😘🥰💕🫶
