IGLAP.

IGLAP.

“Wag ka nalang umasa pa, tapos na itong pelikula!”

Last month, I’m part of a creative prod for a music video and this one’s really fun and exciting because it’s Tanya Markova! Local musikero clowns in a band making songs with sad lyrics sound happy. They’re pretty catchy. You gotta look them up if you’re feeling a bit down, the songs have that uplifting spirit. It’s gonna make you feel all blue by understanding it word-by-word but eventually find yourself rocking your head unconsciously because of the beats, dancing your way outta shit sadness. Lol, true story.

How did the project go?

Funny because the director of the mv is also the head of the band who we used to collaborate with for an ost of a Cinemalaya 2016 film before, contacted me to work and paint for the visuals that Janus del Prado will use in the mv setup. I immediately said “g!”

Don’t want to spoil the whole concept but whatever Janus is illustrating, it becomes real. Magical that way! Exciting! Roxanne Barcelo is one of the leads also. I have not seen the music video itself, they had a launch last week in a gig, I couldn't go. Although, this one will be aired in MYX this month! Wait for it! :)

Also plot twist!!!!

Included in my life checklist is to become a part of a music video and it was granted here, they dragged me to come along. So, yup, you’ll see me there with a minor part rolling my eyes at Janus. Looooool, fun.

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Support lokal, humans!

"Ang intimidating mo kasi."

I got that a lot this week from different people. Took that as a validation that yeaaah it's true. I guess my softness isn't meant to be discovered by anyone that easily, a few would know. I think that's okay.

Ilang beses ko man sabihin na baka hindi ito para sakin. Babalik pa rin ako, sa musika at sining. Ilang beses ko man di aminin, may hilang di ko kaya pigilin. Darag ng buhay kong dun lagi patungo, Sigaw na kailangan ulit ang konting alay ng puso Ilang beses ko man iwasan ang lahat ay nagbibigay linaw, pati ang akalang pag-lisan ay mga panandaliang liban lamang. Yayakapin kita muli. Dadalhin sa mga lugar na di natin pinili. Bubuhayin ang mga natulog na salita, Isasaboy muli ang mga kulay na nawala.

Thankfully, I am writing again. Journals, songs and thoughts. I realize how much this habit give me a lot of peace, direction and self-honesty.

Hospital bills, horrendous trauma and the possibility of losing a loved one’s life is the worst. More than anything, invest on good health + keep an emergency fund.

I lost a lot of weight. I don’t know how I did, it started out bad at first but then I’m beginning to eat greens more now, less of the fast food and unhealthy choices. Let’s thank the pros of sad phases I guess? Hopefully I could do scheduled food preps soon, too. Plus, it would help me save more.

Take me to gigs, museums and places again please.

I am using contact lenses now. It does not give me any immunity, poking my eyes from time to time is not something I could ever get used to. I am quite over the specs era..... this is me trying to avoid obsession of impracticality by collecting all of it. Huhu

They gave me one permanent weekend off at work (Thank you!!!!!) and I’m spending the days by committing to my spiritual needs in CCF Alabang. It feels nice to make time again for something I personally avoided/disregarded for so long. It matters, it matters.

Minimalistic lifestyle appeals so much to me I think I could live it.

Planning to get a new tattoo.

I want to throw/donate all my old clothes; To only own few pieces I really wear.

Wall climbing/boxing please.

Looking forward for this project I am not going to jinx it. :)

Ate, are you back on Twitter? Or any plans yet?

Hello! I’m not sure if I’ll ever go back. I already deleted my old account but saved the same username just incase I change my mind. Haha! Right now, I have no interest in it. It’s liberating to give it up, I had that account since 2009. Imagine! But life’s kinda good without it :)

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I felt you, in my short walks. Like a ghost. Idle, but far away. No voice or caress. But, I felt you there. Presence of no longer, tiny aches and bother. I felt you. I feel you; I'm okay.