[When Is The Pain Train Going To Go Away???]

[When is the pain train going to go away???😭😭😭😭]

I released the biggest sigh once I got here. And by here, I mean both reading this part of RTB and typing out my feelings about it. It’s not like I didn’t expect all of this to blow up at some point, but I just didn’t think that the damage would be so catastrophic.

 The way that you built up everything though was really good. I loved that you didn’t hold back on this part. The way you filled in holes and logically explained the thoughts circulating throughout the main character’s mind and making us realize that thoughts aren't as linear as you may think. Especially when emotions and logic are at war. That just makes them more human, and that’s what you see here with her. She bottled everything up because she wanted to find a clear path to just letting everything out, but you don’t get that at all. Instead, you see her slowly drowning in her own head until she said fuck it and dealt with it on her own. 

The argument that happened really opened my eyes, mainly because you see that no one was in the right. Even Yoongi because he played a role in the main character’s feelings and mindset. You see both of their faults, so rawly too, and it was surprising at how well it was done. Anger is just a shield for sadness, and you can tell how hurt they are through their words. Though the lowest blow for me was when Finn said that she wouldn’t make it, because like you said, he must’ve thought that before and it hurts to know that not even the person you love (?) doesn’t support you. 

And what happened next shocked me even more. Cheating is unforgivable in my eyes, so seeing the main character and Jimin kiss was like a big blow to the gut. Because usually when you see the main characters kiss for the first time, it’s after the dust settles and everything is good. But everything was not good and it made the situation even worse. I feel disappointed in them both, Jimin and the main character, but a little more so toward Jimin, because he knew that she was in a relationship and was hurting, and he let it happen.  

I honestly don’t know what else to say. Even though this chapter was filled with so much angst, I really liked it. It made me think more about everything in general, so thank you, Shanna. I can’t wait to read what happens next in a few short hours. I hope that everything is well!

P.S.- Also, I keep forgetting to mention this, but I’ve been really loving your headers for RTB! I also saw your spreadsheet for keeping track of your progress and I think that it’s really neat. Okay, sending you lots of love!💕

Raise the Barre (Ch. 9)

Author: kpopfanfictrash

Pairing: Jimin / Reader

Rating: 18+ (Eventual Smut)

Genre: Enemies to Lovers / Dance Academy!AU

Warnings: ANGST

Word Count: 8,115

Summary: You and Park Jimin have been rivals for as long as you’ve known one another; ever since he tripped you in the front row of your first dance convention. When you graduate from high school and enter Russet Ballet Academy, you tell yourself you’re leaving all past quarrels behind. The main problem with this though, is that your past seems determined not to leave you alone.

Worse still, the obstacles you face while out in the real world might prove more challenging than anything your enemy has to offer.  

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It was a gradual process. Like water slipping underneath the door, your feelings snuck in quietly and devastatingly. And like a slow flood, there was no stopping their gradual rise.

First of all, how beautiful is that quote?!?!?!?! My jaw, quite literally, dropped when I was reading this passage, but I feel as though I do that at least twice whenever I read one of your works.

I decided to read this tonight, during a moment where the world seemed quiet, and I was at peace for a little bit, because this story deserved to have a chance where it could be read and felt during a period where you could just sink right into it. And I think that’s why everything felt so intense. So full, so colorful and bright, but also dark in the way that the carnality and sensualness of it swam up and took ahold of my mind. 

This story was, without a doubt, absolutely beautiful. Your words always have a way of reaching me one way or another, but this one felt different, and I can’t find where to point my finger for its reasoning. It’s just, everything that you said in this story meant something. Every word and every sentence was placed so beautifully, and you made me feel certain emotions exactly where you aimed them to be. From the beginning with Yoongi and Namjoon and the feeling of uncertainty yet yearning, to the kitchen scene where my emotions were boiling in my chest, and finally ending where everything felt safe and serene, every moment was picture-perfect and I couldn’t have imagined it any other way.

Consent, and telling your partner what you want, is one of the, if not the sexiest thing imaginable. I felt like I was blushing the entire time since the kitchen scene. No, scratch that. I think it was the scene where the main character and Yoongi were dancing that made me done for. But the constant wanting of forwardness, of asking for what you want without any fear or shame, and the steady climax of reaching to that boldness of telling each other what they wanted was shown so wonderfully throughout the story. You see how much they yearn to please each other even during the moments where it feels the hardest to do so, the moment where the main character said “as the words rise to your throat, they stop on your tongue. As if by uttering your own desire you will shatter into a thousand pieces”, and you mapped this out so damn well.

Oh, and ending where they said:

“Will you stay?” you mumble into his chest.

“I’m staying,” he chuckled, pressing a kiss against your forehead. “For a while.”

I smiled so hard here, but I was also crying in my head and my throat felt a bit strained when I read this. 

It surprises me still that this is one of your first works/smuts that you've written because wow. You've always been such a strong and beautiful writer. But, it makes me a bit more emotional seeing you on this journey and watching as your voice and fingerprint become more and more prominent and shine through your stories. I feel like if you were to sit me in a room with a bunch of unnamed works, I would be able to easily tell yours apart. There's just something about it that makes me go, "Ah, this is Willow", and I think that feeling is very beautiful for me.

Thank you so much, Willow. Your writings always make my day, make me smile, and I'm always fascinated by the multitude of stories that you've conjured up so far. I can't wait to read more. My love is, and forever will be, yours.💕💕💕

tell me what you want | myg

pairings: Yoongi/Reader, (mentions of Yoongi/Namjoon and Namjoon/OC)

genre: 18+. nonidol!au. friends to lovers.

word count: 5.7k

warnings: alcohol use. pining. some minor angst. smut. pwp. penetrative sex. unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it!). creampie. fluff.

summary: Yoongi teaches you how to ask for what you want.

a/n: This is my very first attempt at writing fanfiction and smut! Thanks so much to my friends Carl and A for supporting me through the writing process and for encouraging me. If you enjoy this, leave a comment: I am so excited to hear what you think!

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The pounding in your head matches the pounding in your chest.

You thought you would be fine, surrounded by your friends. And you are, in a way. After a couple of drinks the tension in your chest has eased and it’s easier to fall into conversation with strangers and friends alike.

After years of hard work and careful saving, you’ve purchased your first apartment. Tonight, you’re hosting a housewarming party that has quickly turned into a full-on house party. There’s nothing like a little spilled beer to baptize a new home.

With the music blasting, and good friends at your side, you almost forget why you’re feeling uncomfortable in the first place: Yoongi.

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hiiiiiidbnd I just wanna say that every one of my fics you’ve reblogged and complimented me on make me sososoosoo happy and I don’t know why I haven’t responded sooner. YOURE JUST SO SWEET THO and I just wanted to thank you for taking the time out of ur day to write such nice things 😊 also your fic recs have been saving my life lately I’m on your page pretty much 99.9% of the time that I have the tumblr app opened

Okay so first of all, I would like to say that I'm honestly such a fan of yours. I've been reading your stories for years, and you were one of the first blogs that I followed and truly led into the world of fan fic so...hiiiii Bri!!! This is honestly such a pleasure and I'm lowkey freaking out tbh because of this. I'm so happy that I can make you happy because you've been making me happy for eons! But, I mean every single word when I say that you and your writings are truly amazing. They make me nostalgic every time I look back at them and I'm just so grateful for you. And I'm so glad that you've been enjoying my recommendations. It really means alot🥺 You're awesome! I really wish that I had more to say but it'll just be noise. ILY!!! Thank you Bri for everything. Truly.💕

[This was seriously long overdue. Hi Vi!!!!]

Hi Vi,

It’s been a while. I hope that you’ve been doing okay. I know that I’m a bit late to ‘The Alpha’ train, but hopefully, I can jump on board and catch up. I’ve been spoiling myself with all of the asks and a spark of fate (or maybe just procrastination that’s eating me up) finally led me back to you. To this. To this beautiful world that gripped me by my shoulders and sucked me in from the very start. 

It’s truly amazing how much has been packed within this first part. You see the first glimpses of the world surrounding them. You see some of the character dynamics shine through (especially in the way Jimin takes his place beside Namjoon unsurprisingly and with a hint of what could be called resentment that’s mixed in with his pessimistic tone. But you also see from the Luna’s side how she is is going through her own trials too. Growing up and having to mate with someone who she doesn’t have feelings for. Someone that makes her feel “empty” like you said. It struck hard though when you wrote:

“It won’t matter once you scent him. You’ll want him then.”

Your mother’s words echoed reassuringly in your head.

“I’ll want him then,” you whispered as the blindfold tightened around your eyes.

Like, that’s so sad and I really felt for her then. But now that the circumstances are definitely not what was perceived, I honestly so curious to see how this will all play out. Thank you so much Vi for this series. I can’t wait to catch up. Sending you lots of love.💕

Edit: Also, I forgot to add this in, but I really liked this part “The whispers and gasps were deafening. Reverent silence utterly shattered.” It just feels really dark and sharp like ice, and it took my breath away when I read it. Okay, that’s all. Thank you again!😂

The Alpha

◐ SERIES MASTERLIST ◐

Pairing: Alpha Werewolf Jimin x Omega Reader

Author’s Note: This will be a Drabble Series. The next one will probably come out very soon and I will get a masterlist together. I was so excited, I haven’t even made a proper banner yet… Thank you @xjoonchildx​ for listening while I freaked out about this idea. Thank you @ppersonna​ @taetaewonderland​ and @lemonjoonah​ for being your awesome selves at all times…

Genre: ABO/Werewolf • Fantasy

Rating: Mature (some later installments will likely be Explicit)

Warnings: mentions of mating, claiming, and scent marking, ABO/Werewolf sexual dynamics, I think that’s all for this installment…

Word Count: 1000

The whispers and gasps were deafening. Reverent silence utterly shattered.

“This cannot be right-”

“It can’t be him-”

It was supposed to be Namjoon. And in the incredibly off chance that it wasn’t - then it was definitely Jungkook.

Not Jimin.

Never Jimin.

Most people had trouble even believing the youngest Park was an alpha…

Let alone The Alpha.

Everything up to this moment had gone according to plan.

Twenty years ago a new Luna had come into the world; the latest in a line of powerful Omega women.

Silver hair. Silver eyes.

There was no mistaking the new moon princess. You were utterly exquisite from the day you were born.

And the ritual of a Luna’s ascension was intimately familiar after hundreds of years.

Every step planned and expected. Every outcome predicted.

On the midnight of her twentieth birthday, a Luna, the true born moon princess, came of age.

Her wolf would emerge and change her body, heightening her senses for the first time.

And for the first time, she would know the scent of her mate.

The Alpha.

The next king by right - by divine mandate.

And there was no question who it would be.

Kim Namjoon was the strongest, the smartest, the fastest, the largest - the most absurdly obvious alpha in the entire pack.

Everyone knew what would happen. It was so predictable that some people hadn’t even bothered to attend the ceremony.

First, the elders would bring you back to the sacred circle after your change.

You would be blindfolded to ensure that your eyes would not deceive your other senses.

Then, the unmated alphas would line the circle’s perimeter, watching with bated breath as you were guided toward the center by the chief elder.

Finally, you would breathe deeply and approach Kim Namjoon, following the ancient pull of a mating bond that bound you to the one true alpha of your pack.

…But that is not what happened.

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Isn’t it stupid, that some excessive part of you wants him to openly refute your lies even as you tell them? To undress your mind as hungrily he does your body until you have no choice but to be bared and free, released from the burden of your own thoughts?

To be honest, I’m not really sure how to start of with this. Partially because I’m in the middle of studying for finals, but mainly because this chapter took my breath away. Introduction scenes are a gateway to the remainder of the story, so you could only imagine how I felt watching the scene at the town unfold. To put it simply, I was sad. The main characters feelings of inadequacy and selfishness were understandable, but I wish that she wasn’t so hard on herself. I hope that later on, she gets a chance of helping the mother and her baby, or if not, then have the chance to do something great for others outside the realm she resides in. She has such a beautiful heart and soul, and I just don’t want her to feel down about herself.

Reading how the following events unfolded made my heart simultaneously stop and beat faster than ever. Yoongi put himself in a place of submission for her, stepping down from his place of usual control and instead wanting to pleasure her. Fully and wholly. It was intense coming to this section of the story, but it was all so beautiful and loving (It was a bit funny on my end though reading this and having my best friend swearing in the background at his studies/professor. it’s finals weeks so yeah…)

The last few paragraphs after Yoongi comforts her and creates a place for her to cry were so beautiful. The way you write is so eloquent and purposeful and filled with raw and intense emotion. It’s poetry unearthed, and I’d love to continue reading your work for as long as possible. 

Thank you so much Rain for making my day better. This was a fantastic read and I can’t wait to see what else is in store for them. Thank you!! I’m sending you all of my love.💕

june 1869.

you’ve never been able to hide from him.

pairing: joseon king!yoongi x reader genre: smut, angst, fluff? words: 2.3k contains: choices, consequences.

moonlit throne index. this is drabble 21. start from the beginning?

The moment you reach your private chambers, you collapse against the door. Your heart softly shudders with strain as you finally let the first tears fall, trickling steadily down your cheeks. The bundles you carried in fall to the floor as you cover your face with your cold hands, trying to stifle the quiet sobs that seem so determined to come.

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