"I Breathe You In With Smoke In The Backyard Lights We Used To Laugh Until We Choked Into The Wasted

"I breathe you in with smoke in the backyard lights We used to laugh until we choked into the wasted nights It was the best time of my life, but now I sleep alone So darling don't don't wake me up 'Cause my thrill is gone" ~PTV #ownpoetry #depression #depressed #anxiety #suicide #suicidal #lonely #alone #mentalhealth #hurting #cut #justcozyoucantseeitdoesntmeanitsnotthere #hiddenpain #italwayscomesback #hereigoagain #nobodycansavemenow #sorryifailed #failure #betteroffdead #guessishouldhaveseenitcoming #piercetheveil #ptv #songlyrics https://www.instagram.com/p/Bwo3Psqls6Zn3q6bfc5lOWBH3lupjpR_Y2vFj40/?igshid=17m6ueizrc5ii

Anxiety ~© #ownpoetry #depression #depressed #anxiety #suicide #suicidal #lonely #alone #mentalhealth #hurting #cut #justcozyoucantseeitdoesntmeanitsnotthere #hiddenpain #italwayscomesback #hereigoagain #nobodycansavemenow #sorryifailed #failure #betteroffdead #guessishouldhaveseenitcoming https://www.instagram.com/p/Bvr7pS0jPAzHUBscwKAhodw6dvB0FyMMObyCZE0/?igshid=5ogox37z4nyp

Some late-night thoughts I never posted. #ownpoetry #depression #depressed #anxiety #suicide #suicidal #lonely #alone #mentalhealth #hurting #cut #justcozyoucantseeitdoesntmeanitsnotthere #hiddenpain #italwayscomesback #hereigoagain #nobodycansavemenow #sorryifailed #failure #betteroffdead #guessishouldhaveseenitcoming https://www.instagram.com/p/BxkcS8_lqDcXuhcB0CAeg2KrwTEy_a8cds84h40/?igshid=1020xpsx5lxtd

"I'm tired of listening to the sound of my tears, Tired of constantly battling my fears, Tired of struggling with challenges that continuously reappear. I'm tired of wasting my days submersed in despair, Tired of words piercing my heart like sharp spears, Tired of living a life that is one big blear. I'm tired of pretending while deep inside I care, Tired of being stuck in toxic relationships and atmospheres, Tired of hypocrisy and lies in a world full of fakes and veneers. I'm tired of trying to believe, Tired of putting up a show, Tired of battling defeat, Just tired of feeling this way, Can I be spared?" ~Judy Einhorn • *S U I C I D E* • #mypoetry #borrowedpoetry #familyfriendpoems #judyeinhorn #suicide #depressed #lonely #alone #cut #emo #tired #hiddenmeaning #iveneverbeensotornup #whocaresright #whydoistilltry #suicidal #youdontknow https://www.instagram.com/p/BwoXRJeldp6G8BUb4vU3YVj6De0wkZ33dB0tPA0/?igshid=ga7zne3jgrpx

Anxiety ~© #ownpoetry #depression #depressed #anxiety #suicide #suicidal #lonely #alone #mentalhealth #hurting #cut #justcozyoucantseeitdoesntmeanitsnotthere #hiddenpain #italwayscomesback #hereigoagain #nobodycansavemenow #sorryifailed #failure #betteroffdead #guessishouldhaveseenitcoming https://www.instagram.com/p/Bvr7pS0jPAzHUBscwKAhodw6dvB0FyMMObyCZE0/?igshid=5ogox37z4nyp

This month I nearly lost two people in my life to suicide. Knowing I wasn't able to help or stop them from trying reminds me just how fucking useless I am. Now my sister lies in a hospital and I can't even go to see her. Support her. I should be the one in hospital now..and hopefully I won't survive. How badly I want to say goodbye... Anyway! Nobody reads captions or cares and neither do I care about me so bleh 😁 #ownpoetry #depression #depressed #anxiety #suicide #suicidal #lonely #alone #mentalhealth #hurting #cut #ishoulddie #justcozyoucantseeitdoesntmeanitsnotthere #hiddenpain #italwayscomesback #hereigoagain #nobodycansavemenow #sorryifailed #failure #betteroffdead #guessishouldhaveseenitcoming https://www.instagram.com/p/Bxkc5aAFfYAuO-AVIB9aGOGXtZYSOo_VN71hPg0/?igshid=1xrdalgrjap0i