Random Fact About Me That Does Actually Have Something To Do With The Sun:

Random fact about me that does actually have something to do with the Sun:

I have visual snow, as much as I enjoy the suns rays on my skin, I can't look at a clear bright sky for very long. My whole vision fills with a blanket of white after a few seconds. I tend to look up at the sky with the sun behind me, if I have to look at something in the sun's general direction and there isn't enough things to block it's light, I'll take a quick look and tell you what I *can* see (if anything) or turn away and ask for a picture. (9/10 times I just move the conversation along or the other person just tells me after I say I can't see it, which is annoying cause with "better" lighting I can see pretty far actually.)

Now I know some might be like "pretty sure you're not supposed to look at the sun silly!" That's not what I mean. I mean the literal entire landscape, is washed out. I actually spent a significant amount of time as a kid just looking at the floor tbh lol. (Fluorescent lighting in public places can go fuck themselves.)

I'd say my joy for nature came from when I explored the woods around where I lived as a kid. The trees would shade me, but not too much as to not feel the sun beams pearing through. It was lovely.

I don't think I would of gotten the same joy I do out of nature if it wasn't for this particular experience. I enjoy learning about all types of magick but I chose Solar as a focus because of how it's shaped and affected me, for the good and the bad.

I love it for the melanin in my skin, it reminds me to be happy and free. I love it for my soul, I used to stay hidden for so long in hopes of solitude and peace, but I remembered that with the sun comes the shade, the trees which shielded me, grow from its warmth too.

I am grateful to all elements,

But y'all the suns pretty cool, it's a star just like me ;)

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I've been hearing a lot of "gen alpha can't read cause they're iPad kids."

But like are we asking them what they *can* do?

Or how *they're* feeling even?

I distinctly remember adults when I was a kid saying we'd all be "brain dead" because of tv or texting or the Internet or some shit. And we couldn't defend ourselves cause we were literally children.

It's like this every time.

And every time each generation has to prove they're worthy of adulthood.

And this gen isn't even all in middle school yet and y'all are calling them failures right in front of their faces. It's not ganna help. If anything it'll make this much much worse.

I'm a Gen Z (well I'm in the transitional area between millennial and Z but most millennials tell me I'm gen z so fine.) I have gen alpha kids. And a lot of them (classmates and the like) are anxious asf about the world.

I wonder if they're putting up a tough front to keep the only control they have in the world as children.

Or living free before they have to become the overworked adults they see in their lives.

Or ya know death by school shootings if they're in America.

Or idk die from a once in a century plague cause their parents won't let them get vaccinated.

Or maybe it's something we could never describe or understand since we're not in that position.

Honestly every commentator I've seen on this topic hasn't asked a child how they literally feel. Like you don't have to put them on camera obviously (maybe don't actually for their safety) but like just ask? Or find ways to ask, kids can be shy about their true feelings sometimes. Especially if we keep pretending like we know them.

Teachers are over worked, parents are over worked. But haven't they always been? (Maybe we should actually do something about that? Like a lot have already been saying, but like actually do it? Maybe baby sit your friend's kid or go to the grocery store with them to help chaperone them? And try and do it for them for free, I get it if you can't but those who can should. I'm also not saying your should steal baby supplies, I'd never say that, I'd also never say to just steal food and hand them out, or to steal teaching and school supplies and just give em away or anything of course not! And I wish I could put the proper tone marks on this but for legal purposes I am being sarcastic.)

And doesn't each generation come with more problems or perceived problems because that's life? We're always going to find something wrong with the younger generation, we're constantly evolving and we're constantly looking for ways how.

Last thing.

What is intelligence?

Is it *really* being able to read?

Is it *really* scoring high on tests for studies?

Didn't we *just* talk about how standardised tests are wild and are often not very good at displaying what kids can actually do? Or are often hard to grade because of lack of staffing? Something something Pearson? Something something my history text book was older than me something something "Bill Clinton the president everyone is looking forward to!" Written on the back page Something something coming home to see late night TV making jokes about his shitty behaviour but making it more about the person who was literally harmed by this and making fun of her well into the 2000s..... (Oh has our education system and environment for kids always been kinda shitty? No way almost like it's a never ending battle.)

Have we truly figured out if the kids are alright?

Have they ever been?

Do we even know what that fucking means????

Hello sunny babes it's another shining day (for some, weather and all) and today I'm not sure what I'll find, I think it's best if I don't share much of what I'm reading until I'm sure it's accurate, it's the internet and I've been burned before lol I'm ganna take my time and truly soak it in.

What I will share here are probably poems art and probably pictures of the tools I use and how I made there or where I got them (although for privacy reasons anything local I might not be able to share, I will however show how I searched for these places and where they are typically located.)

I'm a bit of a perfectionist and I'm really really really trying not to be, it's taking quite a toll but learning about Chaos Magick has made me feel a little better about myself already. Not 100% obviously but at least I'm getting positive aspects out of it.

The only negative I'd say is explaining myself to others on why I do this? It's difficult cause the only way to describe it is in ways they already make fun of. I have been able to explain it to some, it was difficult only because my own past hangups kept interrupting the present. I kept seeing myself and how I would talk about this subject. I wasn't a hater so to speak, I was mostly like "not my thing" ya know? But still in a bit of an obnoxious kinda way tbh, in a way that wasn't very fair to anyone who practiced or even to myself.

I spent a lot of time suppressing my own sense of wonder. I began writing to put it somewhere but even that consumed me. I was so expressive no one could stop me. I would draw and decorate everything I owned. I was depressed, disoriented and hate no idea what I wanted to do or how to say how I feel. Everything I wrote began to be about how I perceived my environment. Sure it was childish and a little silly at times, but when I look back and read it I can see myself really trying to express something. Some of which I was beginning to understand.

When I had my first kid I noticed they would regularly hum and sing to themselves, they made up stories about their OCs. I would listen to them and talk to them about them and ask questions, I wanted to understand their expressions, their joys, sadness, indifference, and playfulness.

I don't know what to call it other than Magick, after reading it over and over again through a lot of systems of Magick, it almost always comes back to the belief and validation of your feelings and expressions. Rituals help tap into that, in many many many different ways. That's what I like to look for at least. I am open to finding literally anything I could never imagine, I suppose that's part of the enjoyment I get out of this process, I'll always be wrong about something which means there will always be something new!

Anyway I hope you all have a bright sunny day! (if you're supposed it lol) 🧡☀️🧡☀️

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