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Coming to Terms - Chapter 1

Fandom: Star Wars KOTOR

Characters: Female Revan/Carth Onasi, Female Revan & Bastila Shan

Rating: T

Summary: With the Star Forge destroyed, the crew of the Ebon Hawk are hailed as the saviours of the Republic. As the sudden scrutiny threatens to bring dangerous truths of the mission to light, they must confront the past and the future.

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The Republic’s losses had been harsh in the battle, but they were still standing. Rank had its perks, and Carth had never been more grateful for it as he weaselled into the Ast Yanthar’s medbay. Deep into second shift, the bay was relatively quiet, and he made his way along the familiar route he’d traced for the past two days. Through the general ward to the array of kolto tanks, third on the left. As he approached, he discovered a slender silhouette in front of Velire’s tank.

Bastila. A jolt of surprise ran through him. He hadn’t seen her since she’d surrendered herself to Master Vandar, and even now she looked like she’d toured all nine hells. The pale blue glow of the tanks stripped any returning colour from her face, emphasising the rings under her eyes. Her right arm was still in a sling, her hair loose around her shoulders.

It was hard to reconcile with either the prim and proper Jedi or the Sith apprentice he’d glimpsed on the Star Forge. But all he could see was the casualty lists he’d been staring at for the past few days—two thousand three hundred personnel and counting. Three dreadnoughts, eighteen cruisers and hundreds of fighters.

Somehow she was so caught up in monitoring Velire that she didn’t notice Carth until he was almost beside her.

Bastila startled. Her eyes, wide and white-ringed, fixed on him as if he were a nexu that had sprung out of the bushes. “Carth! I didn’t…”

“It’s all right. We’re all tired.” It wasn’t all right at all, but she didn’t disagree. After almost eight months of living with Jedi, he knew he shouldn’t have been able to take her by surprise. “I just wanted to check on Lire.”

There was no change from any of the other times he’d visited. Velire floated in the tank, sedated, her willowy limbs half-curled around her. The thin medical jumpsuit she wore barely covered the necessities and certainly didn’t cover any of the damage, while a breather mask obscured most of her face.

The sight never failed to make his bruised heart squeeze. He whispered, “Hey, beautiful.”

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Mass Effect 2:

Shepard: please I need your help

Liara: Sorry, I'm busy.

Ashley/Kaidan: Sorry, I'm busy.

Wrex: Sorry, I'm busy.

Tali: ...okay but ONLY AFTER I finish what I'm doing.

Garrus:

Actually I think that we should pay more attention to what the "hand over the apostates" banter means for Sebastians character, not just Fenris's.

Because. Yes. It shows Fenris is unwilling to hand over Hawke but more importantly Anders/Merrill who he has an antagonist relationship with.

But also...hey, Seb? You could just do that. Alone. You do not need Fenris and Aveline. Your favourite person in the city is the grand Cleric and if you even slightly hinted at it to her I bet they'd be in chains in the gallows before anyone could blink. Technically, you could argue that maybe there's some rule about the chantry needing/wanting more than one person to inform them of apostates but do we really think that the KIRKWALL templars follow that rule? No fucking way.

So...why does Sebastian go to Fenris and Aveline? We as the audience enjoy the fact that Fenris says no as highlighting something about his character, but Seb has been to Fenris's gambling nights where Anders is a key player. He's watched Fenris and Aveline drink with these people. I don't...think he expects a yes.

He's also...not friendly with Anders. But he and Merrill have genuinely theological debates that I reckon Seb actually sorta enjoys.

He's doing a very Sebastian thing here that digs into the core of his character. He is paroting chantry retoric and pretending it's The Most Important Thing when really his heart isn't in it. He's pretending to be the good little chantry boy, but what he really likes is running around fighting thugs and taking on the evils of the city with these mages. If anyone (from the chantry) asks he can say "I wanted to hand them in, I tried, but they wouldn't let me".

It's SUCH a Seb thing. He doesn't hand them in either! He just thinks he should because the chantry said so. He doesn't want to. He just wants to want to. Just like he wants to want to be a chantry brother with no power or wealth. Just like he wants to want to be merciful when he is really just full of venegnce.

Sebastian never manages to distangle his faith from the chantry. He doesn't even really work out what he likes and what he doesn't, like Cass, Viv or Leliana do. He just. Thinks he should like it all without any higher thought. Which means that he reacts like this when the chantry seem to be telling him one thing and he wants something else.

Sebastian and his cognitive dissonance about what he wants and what he wants to want and the hoops he will jump through to appear "good" while still basically getting what he wants is so fascinating to me. I wish it had been explored more and Seb had managed to work it out for himself and explore what parts of his faith were important to him and what parts were just something he felt cohersed into doing.

tl;dr, Sebastian didn't want to hand in Anders or Merrill either, which is why he asked instead of doing it. He just wanted to say he had tried to appease the invisible ghost of chantry propaganda sitting on his shoulder.