I Got A Weighted Blanket For My Birthday (!!) And I Used My Friends Whenever I Was At Her House So I

i got a weighted blanket for my birthday (!!) and i used my friends whenever i was at her house so i already knew they were great. but honestly. i can’t believe how good it feels to be having it on me whilst i’m on my very own bed ?!?! i am so comfy. and being crushed by the blanket feels like all my burdens hav been temporarily relieved ?! i sound so dramatic. but it’s so good. get a weighted blanket if you can. so so good

don’t you hate when you’re listening to a song and think about how someone from your life would really love it, but you can’t tell them because of how badly you screwed things up with them in the past? because you were both too young and too emotionally inept to clearly communicate and now your relationship is rocky at the best of times and you can’t share the song with them because they would think that its a sign that you want to go back to how things were. but you don’t. because every time she tries to take things back to how things were without fixing the damage that was done i get overwhelmed and shut her out and shut myself down completely and you can't keep doing that because it inconveniences all of your friends?

because omg same

A comprehensive list of my favourite movies

1. The Road to El Dorado

-nostalgia, homoerotic, gorgeous

2. The Emperors New Groove

-nostalgia again, hilarious, found family sorta deal

3. Fantastic Mr. Fox

-im gay

4. Mamma Mia

-im gay the sequel, but also a theatre kid who cant act or sing

5. Moana

-stunning visuals, stunning music, im from aotearoa and i grew up reading about maui so seeing that represented was really speacial

6. gnomeo and juliet

-i don’t even know. music = good, shakespeare retellings = great, cast = stellar

me: hey brain it’s like, 11 at night. and i’m pretty tired. do we think i could go to sleep ?

brain: nahhhhhhh better things to do !

me: okay. like what

brain: i’m not telling lol

okay so i -think- i might be autistic, right ? and i was reflecting on my past so i will now take you on a journey back to when i was in year 8

i was arguing with my friend (diagnosed autistic) in class, it was getting more and more heated, and then our teacher told us that “if we’re going to continue that, then you can take it outside” and now that i look back on it, i feel like he just meant for us to shut up and sit down. but both of us looked at him. looked at each other. went outside and kept arguing for like 2 minutes until he came out and told us to come back in ?! lol. anyways.

that makes me laugh

i know that i said i didn’t want to go to school tomorrow. but i didn’t want another fucking lockdown.

i know i know that it’s necessary and will be good in the long run. but i just want a normal life again