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rb to stare at a mutual like this:

I got in from work and I'm so dead, the caffeine in my cold pills has worn off, my nose is running and I am coughing so much for no reason.

The illness is progressing.

And my coworker who I was on shift with for around and hour and a half (in close proximity with for like 90% of that time) had a chest infection (neither of us should have been in work) so girlies I'm so fucked. It's all downhill from here.

And I have to be at uni for 9am tomorrow morning. I'm so fucked. Send help. The one shot is not coming tonight but it's half written so it will come eventually. It's a carmy one too :( ugh.

But for now, it's bedtime for me (shower and then bedtime)

you poor thing, sweet mourning lamb (18+)

summary: you trust Lip to never compel you. This being said, he wants to try something new in the bedroom

title from: "Ptolemaea" by Ethel Cain

word count: 1.3k

content warnings: could this be considered blood play?? is all vampire sex blood play? MDNI!!! afab reader genitalia, vaginal oral sex, edging/orgasm denial, vaginal fingering, TVD style compulsion (consensually), biting (surprise??)

side note: welcome back TVD-Shameless au, everyone say hi to heretic Lip Gallagher we love him

divider by @strangergraphics

"Please, baby.." Lip bites softly at your jaw. The attention to your jaw and his begging has you pressing your heel against your core to alleviate some of the pressure building.

"Lip- I don't know- I don't think that-" You're cut off with a moan as Lip nips softly at your carotid.

Lip removes himself from your neck, looking at you with wide eyes. The look he gives you is pleading, and you can feel your fight slipping.

"Please, baby... 'S the only way to be sure.. Promise you'll feel so, so good.. If you don't, we'll stop, and I won't do it again.. Even get you some vervain, make sure it doesn't happen again.." Lip's asking you so nicely, rubbing his thumb over the soft skin of your inner thigh.

He brings his other hand to cradle the side of your face softly as you mess with the fabric of his shirt. Lip knew you trusted him to not compel you, so there was never a need for you to hold onto vervain. He discouraged your relaxed mindset, often telling you about the dangers of other vampires who would want to compel you.

However, what he was offering tonight wasn't the usual compulsion you were worried about. The only thing Lip was suggesting was testing to see if he could prolong your own release.

The idea intrigued you, to say the least. You don't give it too much more thought before you're nodding, "Yeah... Okay, okay.."

Lip's eyes light up, gaze dancing across your face to make sure there's no signs of discomfort.

"Oh, baby... Thank you, thank you, thank you..." Lip starts to pepper your face with kisses, biting softly when he kisses over your cheek and jaw. "Gonna feel so good, I promise.."

Lip pulls away from you and brings both hands to hold your face, rubbing softly against your cheekbones. His eyes are intense as he looks into yours.

"You're not gonna come until I say so," Lip's voice is firm and authoritative, further stoking the fire in your belly. You watch the way his pupils dilate as he speaks. "Gonna tell me if it becomes too much or you don't like it."

All you can do is nod, not entirely sure if you're meant to feel different because of his words. He gives you a soft smile before he kisses you gently.

Lip guides you to lay back against the bed, his body moving fluidly with yours as you fall back. He's quick to trail kisses over your shirt and down your body, tugging your shorts and underwear down your legs as he kneels on the floor in front of you.

He starts with soft kisses along the inside of your knee, slowly trailing up your thigh to where you need him the most. You whine softly when he stops in the middle of your thigh, sucking hard against the skin before soothing the spot with his tongue.

The feeling of Lip's teeth sinking into your thigh makes you groan loudly. You can't help how you buck your hips off the bed, grabbing fistfuls of the sheets to keep yourself grounded. His tongue traces softly around the punctures in your skin, hand squishing your thigh to coax out more blood. Lip's other hand lays flat against your stomach, applying a soft pressure as he pushes your hips back onto the mattress.

When you look down, your gaze meets his, pupils blown wide as he laps softly at the source of blood coating his lips. The view makes you dizzy and whine softly. He abandons the bite to kiss farther up your thigh. Placing a kiss right above your clit, moving his mouth lower.

The feeling of Lip's canine tickling against your clit makes you gasp. His breath is warm against your core. He's quick to replace his fang with his tongue, licking a stripe up from your slit to your clit.

Lip laps softly at your hole, bringing his hand lower to rub tight circles against your clit with his thumb. When he pulls his mouth away from you, your hips attempt to chase him. He huffs softly against your skin, the sound muffled slightly. His tongue is quickly replaced with the tips of his wet fingers, his thumb is replaced with his mouth softly sucking against your nub as he slowly inserts his two fingers.

His now free hand slips away from your body and you can only assume what he's doing based on the groans he's releasing against your clit. The vibrations of his voice and feeling of his fingers starting to thrust in and out of you his intoxicating. When he removes his mouth from you with a kiss, you feel his tongue prod at the puncture wounds on your thigh, tracing the drops that slipped down your skin.

You can feel the knot in your stomach tightening and feel the way your walls clench around Lip's fingers. However, the feeling of your release washing over you never comes. You can't help but whine at the feeling, bucking your hips into Lip's hand in an attempt to find a way to loosen the knot in your stomach. He holds his hand still, letting you fuck yourself on his fingers, letting you get increasingly frustrated as you chase a release you can't find.

"Lip.." You whine softly, lifting your hips off the bed, his arm following the motion of your body easily.

"What's wrong, baby?" He asks you, feigning innocence, tilting his head to the side.

"Please- Need to-" You're cut off by your own moan when Lip leans forward to suck gently on your clit. He's gone as quick as he was there, slipping his fingers out of you gently.

Lip pulls away from your core to tug off his shirt, tossing it somewhere towards the end of your bed. He brings one of his hands from your hip to hold your jaw, keeping you from looking away from him as his rolls his hips against your own. Your eyes roll back, not containing the way your hips rut into his own. Lip takes advantage of your open mouth, bringing you into a sloppy kiss.

The kiss is tangy with blood and your slick, coating his lips and tongue as he explores your mouth. He can't help the way he groans into your mouth, rutting his hips against yours. The kiss is quickly broken as you moan into his mouth, both of you panting against the others' lips.

Your brain is dizzy, your body jittery, and on edge as it holds back your release.

"Lip.." You whine, tugging at his shirt and trying to bring him impossibly closer.

"Feel good, baby?" He asks you, breathing heavily above you.

"Mhm.." All you can do is nod, moving your hands down to tug at the waistband of his boxers.

"Look at you.." Lip chuckles softly. "Got y'all turned around, don't I?"

You nod again, not really taking in any of the words he's saying. You can't help but whine when he moves back from you, mourning the loss of his warmth against your skin.

Lip tugs off his boxers, kicking them to the floor and pushing up your shirt to expose your chest. He's quick to kiss along your chest, placing a sharp nip over your heart. Lip pulls back when you gasp softly, watching droplets of blood slowly roll down your chest. The feeling of his tongue has you arching your chest into his face, breathing heavily.

Lip places a soft kiss to the broken skin, kissing along your collarbone and up to your jaw. The open mouth kisses he places along your skin make you whine, turning your face to capture his lips with yours.

"Gonna feel so good, I promise... Just gotta hold out a little longer, baby.." Lip kisses you shortly before lining himself with your entrance.

"Promise you're going to feel so, so good.." He tells you gently as he starts to slowly push in.

It's going to be a long night.

I'm at work and the colleague I had (PAST TENSE) a crush on has blown this whole situation with him way out of proportion and is making working so frustrating. He's not on shift tonight but will be tomorrow but I am 80% sure he's gonna call off sick again (like he did on Saturday) to avoid me since he refused to help with cover tonight despite the fact we have been SEVERLY understaffed. I have no real basis for these assumptions but I'm 99% sure he didnt help out bc I was on shift. And I know for a goddamn fact that part of the reason he didn't come in on Saturday was bc of me because HE WAS ON SHIFT ON SUNDAY AND DIDNT CALL IN despite being "really ill" on Saturday.

Men are such bullshitters.

But this whole situation means more carmy thoughts incoming when I'm free from this hell. I will also be uploading the one shot for todays promptober when I get home (actually need to finish it first tho 😭). But I really wanna get it uploaded because the horny thots are never ending and I need carmy to make me feel better 😭

I'm trying to be an academic weapon but im just thinking about carmy. Like his partner is in grad school and you are doing all this research and deadlines are looming and you're stressed and it's expensive and he comes back from The Bear one night to find you awake on the sofa, researching and writing.

He's pretty much convinced you haven't moved all day off the couch since you are in the same position you were in when he checked in over his lunch break. You have your glasses on, pushed onto your face and you have a half eaten pizza by your side. So he knows you've been eating but you don't even notice him come in. You're so engrossed and stressed, he can see how you're biting your lip and picking at your skin. He could feel how stressed you were.

And he's stressed and has had a long day and he just wants your attention so he sits down next to you. You're still distracted and he's thinking about all the times that you reminded him to not be a workaholic and how you'd distract him from it just to make him feel a little bit better. And so he lets his hands wonder along your body, startling you but you relax when you realise it's him.

You stay in comfortable silence as Carmy just feels the warmth of your skin beneath his hands and you're just melting at the feeling of him. It's been a really long day and you missed him and you are finding it harder and harder to concentrate and worry about your research when he's there. He somehow manages to get you to close your laptop.

Despite your protests, he coaxes you into a shower with him and he rewards you with his fingers between your legs. All the stress from trying to finish your research melts away as he holds you against him. Once he has you soft and compliant, you both wash off and he takes you to bed where he keeps you distracted and let's off a bit of his own stress, fucking you how he'd been desperate to and how you were begging him to.

And the two of you fall asleep, curled up against each other and you're not so worried about your research now, having been thoroughly fucked out. All you could think about was Carmy and how much you loved him as you drifted off with his hands in your hair and naked body pressed against your own.

one pumpkin (sydney adamu x reader)

prompt; day six, 'pumpkin carving'

content warning(s); none? just major fluff and an established relationship between reader and syd

summary; you and sydney are debating on how to carve your pumpkin

word count; 579

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a little fluffy piece with someone i have never written for... i am terrified about characterisation generally but THIS is more terrifying because i feel like it is so bad, but anyway, live laugh love, enjoy <3

“It’s so bad!” You whined as you shoved your hand into the pumpkin, pulling out the seeds and guts. Sydney had opened up the pumpkin and was on her laptop flicking through designs while you scooped out the inside into a bowl.

“Stop being so dramatic,” Sydney teased as she continued to scroll through pinterest. She glanced up at your scrunched up face and was smiling to herself.

“You do it then,” You retorted, narrowing your eyes. She shook her head and you went to flick some pumpkin guts at her face but she ducked to the side. You pouted and returned back to the pumpkins, scooping more and more out. It was horrible. You should have just got a scooper but you had committed yourself to it now.

“What about this?” Sydney asked, turning her laptop to a pinterest page. The pumpkin design she had pulled up was simple but cute. It was a cat face and they had used skewers to stick the excess pumpkin as cat ears. It was adorable. You couldn’t help but smile, temporarily being able to ignore the slimy feeling of pumpkin in your hand, “Or this?” Sydney added as she flicked to a different tab. This one had a pumpkin that was covered in stars. Some were carved bigger, some more were just holes that would let out light. You bit your lip, thinking it over as you scooped out the last of the guts.

“We should’ve got another pumpkin then we could do both. I think they’re both cute,” You muttered, the corners of your lips turning down a little. She then looked back down at the designs and flicked between them, tilting her head to the side slightly.

“Hey, you decided on one pumpkin,” Sydney argued. You shook your head, pulling your pumpkin guts hands out from the pumpkin before you got up and walked over to the sink.

“I said we should get two but you didn’t want to because you didn’t want to have to carry it. That’s not my fault,” You shrugged as you squirted some soap onto your hands and then began to wash them off.

“We’re doing the cat,” Sydney decided and you grinned. You couldn’t help yourself. Secretly, it had been the design you preferred and Sydney seemed to know that. You washed the soap on your hands and wiped it off on a towel before you walked back over to her. She was sitting down still, grabbing a pencil so she could trace on the skin of the pumpkin.

You wrapped your arms around her neck from behind, leaning over to rest your cheek against her head. You then turned over and pressed a kiss to the top of her head before sighing and snuggling into her from where you were standing behind her.

“We putting it in the window?” You asked, curiously. She looked up, tilting her head back and placing the pencil down. You looked into her eyes, letting a smile spread across your face before you pecked her lips.

“Sure,” She responded. You grinned and pecked her lips and then moved down to peck her nose and then forehead before she tilted her head back forward. You loved the gentle affection with Sydney. It reminded you that it was all worth it and you had been waiting to carve these pumpkins all month.

You had been so excited and so you were excited to be doing it with Syd - finally.

Sydney one shot is incoming but I have freshers flu (for the uninitiated, it's the horrendous flu/illness you get during the first week of uni) and so I have been literally lying in bed and sleeping all day. I am so ill and classes start tomorrow. I regret going out out these past two weeks.

Clubbing is so fun but I'm SO ill 😭

hi! i just saw your masterlist and it said ‘retired characters’. does that means you’re not gonna write for them again orrr?? i love your writing btwww<33

Hi nonnie!!

My retired characters are characters I'm currently not writing for, but that doesn't mean I won't ever write for them again. They're just characters that I currently don't have much of an interest in!

my adhd(?)/autistic(!) brain goes through the typical hyperfixation, rinse, repeat, cycle. i don't wanna say I'll never write for those characters again because i do have a tendency to return to old fandoms but as of right now I'm just not really feeling them.

(apologies for taking so long to reply, i have had a hell of a week)

hypnotised (lip gallagher x reader)

prompt; day five, 'vampire'

content warning(s); mentions of alcohol, description of blood & feeding, biting kink (but like actually), kind of dubious consent (but also not?)

summary; when you found yourself at one of chicago's more elite clubs, you didn't expect the rumours about their specific clientele to be true.

word count; 1,552

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vampire!lip is an actual issue for me. the thoughts rot my brain at a near constant, it is painful but it is so so good, i need to make another part to this one-shot, i will eventually because AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i love him your honour

The club was loud, bass thumping and songs you - thankfully -   knew blasting over the speakers. You had gone out with your friends, your fakes getting you into one of the more exclusive clubs in Chicago. It was said to have a specific kind of clientele, the supernatural kind but neither you or your friends believed in that shit.

Rumours had been flying around for years but you’d never once given much thought to it which is how you found yourself at the club. You and your friend - Angelie - had just pushed yourselves to the front of the bar, ordering two shots each which you proceeded to down after paying.

Then Angelie dragged you back towards the dance floor, one of her favourite songs blasting. The two of you sang to each other, dancing as you moved further and further into the crowd. Angelie kept a tight hold of your hand as you weaved through people, finding the ideal spot right in the center.

Hot bodies pressed against each other as you sang and danced and moved to the beat, your head throwing back. Alcohol made you giggly and confident, all of the anxiety from the day swept away as you danced with Angelie.

But as you were dancing, you spotted him. There was a guy, probably a little shorter than most guys you’d go for but he had the prettiest eyes you’d ever seen. They were a piercing blue and you caught his gaze. A smirk spread across his face and he winked at you. You giggled, face heating up as you looked away to look at Angelie.

Her hands were in her hair, moving along without a care in the world. You grabbed her waist and pulled her towards you so you could shout in her ear.

“Hot guy over there,” You shouted before pointing towards the man you had just spotted. He was talking to someone, a girl and you felt your heart sink. Angelie noticed too and she saw your frown, poking you.

“Get him to come over,” She shouted. You shook your head, glancing over at him. He was still looking, half the time his gaze was on the black-haired woman he was standing beside and the rest it was on you. He couldn’t keep his eyes off you and it made you giddy. But the woman had to be his girlfriend, right?

“What if that’s his girlfriend?” You shouted into Angelie’s ear but she pretended that she couldn’t hear. You glared at her and she smirked, shrugging your shoulders. Your gaze moved back to the man and before you could do anything, he was moving towards you. Him and the woman he was with were moving through the crowd, right towards you. Angelie noticed your eyes widening and grinned as they approached. 

Before you could internally freak out and run, the pair had made it to you. He was smirking and the woman was checking out Angelie. You continued to dance along to the music, looking at him with a tentative smile. You didn’t have time to question anything before he had his hand on your waist and he was pulling you in so he could talk into your ear.

“My name’s Lip and she’s not my girlfriend,” He shouted into your ear. The words just about filtering into your brain enough for your eyes to widen and to nod along as he looked into your eyes. The blue was hypnotising, everything about him pulling you in and you could see the sharpness of his canines when he smirked. The brief joke that Angelie had made earlier came to your head, ‘maybe you’ll get lucky, maybe you’ll finally meet a vampire’. It had been said entirely in jest but now you were face-to-face with Lip, you were wondering if the rumours were true about this club.

“Gonna tell me your name or just stare?” He asked, lips next to your ear again. It sent a shiver down your spine, his hand rested against your hip. It wasn’t hard enough to be possessive, giving you some leeway so you could step back if you wanted but you really didn’t want to. You moved forward and pulled him down so your lips were by his ear, you told him your name. He repeated it back, though you couldn’t hear him over the music. He then nodded, “Want to dance?” He requested in your ear. You nodded and you turned around, letting the music take you away.

Lip’s hands didn’t move from your hips as you moved to the music. The shots began to hit you as he ran his fingers over your hips and across the fabric of your outfit. It was driving you insane and the alcohol was making you bold as you pressed back into him. Your hand came up to his hair, tilting your head back to kiss him. 

You usually weren’t one to kiss people in the club but there was something about him that drew you in. And his lips and the way he kissed so harshly and roughly yet sweetly was making you dizzy. Your fingers ran through his hair as you tilted your head, deepening the kiss. The gasp from him nibbling your bottom lip meaning he could slip his tongue into your mouth.

And you feel like you’re losing it, feeling his lips on yours was euphoric. You were so entranced by him that you don’t even notice Angelie and the woman that Lip was with making out next to you. You were so lost in him. You’re whining into his mouth, chest rising and falling heavily as you gripped his hair. 

Both of you are panting for breath when Lip slowly moves his kisses from your lips, down your jaw and across your neck. You tilt your head back into him, exposing your neck for him to kiss.

Your body is completely lost in the music and the pleasure of his lips on you. You can’t even think about this and how unlike you it is because it just felt so good.

His lips found your the sweet spot on your neck and his hand was wrapped around your stomach. He felt the way you arched into him.

He was letting out muffled praises into your ear every couple of moments between his kisses. His lips found the spot behind your ear that made you whimper. So lost in the haze, you don’t notice the way his teeth grazed across your skin and then you felt him bite into you.

Your instinct was to scream, push him away but then the euphoria rushed through your system. It was a feeling you had never experienced but your mind felt numb, thoughts only on Lip behind you and how fucking good it felt to have him feeding off you. You couldn’t believe this was happening, you didn’t believe it but it was making you dizzy.

Your hand in his hair gripped his roots tighter, pushing him into you. You felt him chuckle against his neck, groaning into your skin as you felt the sharp pain of his teeth in your neck retract.

“That feel good?” He asked, his lips brushing the shell of your ear. You let out a soft whine, nodding your head. He smirked and then used his tongue to slowly lick up the blood that was dribbling down your neck, “Don’t be scared, just drink,” He said, the boom of the music in the club making you feel fearless. You didn’t care what he did, you were pretty sure you’d do whatever he asked you. His wrist was then in your mouth, a metallic taste of blood exploding on your tongue and invading your tastebuds. You wanted to push him away, choking on the taste but he wasn’t letting you up so you forced yourself to gulp it down.

“Good girl,” He said into your ear before he moved his wrist from your mouth. His blood was smeared over your mouth, your mind dizzy on whatever had just happened and when you looked over to Angelie, she was in the same state. Her eyes glazed over, mouth coated in blood and the woman licking her fingers.

You didn’t know what to think, what to say and when you turned to look up at Lip, his mouth was covered in your blood. It was dripping down his chin and you somehow found yourself wanting to kiss it away, lick up every drip from him.

“Can we get out of here?” You asked, leaning up to shout it in his ear. He smirked, using his hands on your hips to turn you around. You briefly felt dizzy before relaxing and looking up at him through hazy eyes.

“Sure, princess,” He responded, nipping at the shell of your ear before he stepped back. You looked at Angelie who seemed drunk on the woman’s presence and she waved you goodbye, the woman drinking from her neck again. You had no idea what had just happened to the both of you but you weren’t going to let it end now.

This man, Lip, was making you feel things you had never felt and the alcohol was making you bold and desperate.

You needed this.

You needed him.

More than you had ever needed anyone.

blanching tomatoes is not for the weak, this is taking forever and its nearly 1am and i need to post my one-shot.

guys im trying to be a functioning adult and failing, what do?

Vampire!Lip one shot incoming once i get home from work, so in like... 3 or so hours...

yes & no are the only options, u have to take a STANCE. pls reblog so it escapes containment 😁

bearblrpromptober day two: choking warnings: unprotected sex, choking (m receiving)

A/n: I had this up by October 2nd my time but accidentally clicked private post </3

The sight of Carmy’s neck captivates you while you ride him. He throws his head back in pleasure, curls falling over the pillow. Your position on top of him gives you the perfect view of his neck. His adam’s apple bobs in his throat with every groan from his mouth. The veins along the sides of his neck bulge out, much like they do when he gets heated in the kitchen. 

It’s almost as if your hand moves on its own. Your fingertips move from resting on his abs, to trailing up his sternum. With your other hand, you press into his lower stomach, giving you leverage to continue rocking against his hips. You watch his face while you lay your palm on his throat. You haven’t applied any pressure yet, not wanting to spook him.

Instead, Carmy’s shoot right open at the feeling of your hand on his neck. He has choked you in bed plenty of times before, but it has never been the other way around. His mouth falls open. You’ve rendered him speechless from one simple movement.

You apply the slightest amount of pressure to his throat. A small gasp escapes his lips, and his cock twitches inside of you. 

“This okay, Carm? You don’t have to say yes—j’st wanna see if you like it,” you ask. You haven’t stopped grinding into him, chasing your own pleasure. 

“Y-yeah—yeah. Please—want you to.” Carmen’s eye’s are completely blown with lust. The vibrant blue of his eyes is only a thin ring around his pupil. He has both of his hands resting on your thighs, fingers digging into the skin in anticipation. You’ll have fingertip shaped bruises to look at in the morning. 

You lean down to give Carmy a soft kiss, which he sighs needily into. “Tap three times on my thigh if you wanna stop, okay?”

“Mhm—tap three times.” His voice is completely shot, coming out as a whimper. 

With Carmy’s permission, you squeeze his throat with a constant, stable pressure. His reaction is instantaneous. A broken groan leaves his lips, and his hips buck up into you. You pick up the pace of your grinding to keep up with the thrusting of his hips. 

“Good?” you ask through a moan. You’re already nearing your peak. The sight of Carmy underneath you like this makes a heat swell in your stomach. Carmen doesn’t respond, not with real words, anyway. All that’s coming from his mouth are broken whimpers, but his head nods eagerly in your grasp. 

A couple of minutes pass, and Carmy is practically losing his mind. His short fingernails dig into your thigh. He’s planted his feet on the mattress to give him leverage to thrust up into you.

“G-gonna cum—c-can I?” Carmen begs. His pulse is heavy in his throat; you can feel it from your palm. You press even harder around his throat at his request, and his eyes roll back into his skull. 

“Me, too—cum for me, Bear. Fill me up—” The mere second you finish speaking, Carmy’s cock pulses inside of you, spilling hot cum into you. The feeling inside of you brings you into your own orgasm. 

Finally, after you’ve both come down from the high, you remove your hand from Carmy’s neck, letting him get a full deep breath again. 

“Holy shit—I see why you like that so much.” He looks up at you in awe, like he can’t wait for this to happen again.

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i am nothing if not a yapper, whoops

Lip is so cute 😭 Debbie asked him for advice on what to wear and he instantly knew. No taking the piss. No joking. Just being a genuine cutie and wanting to help her :(

I love him

safe (carmy berzatto x reader)

prompt; day one, 'scary movies'

content warning(s); paranoid reader, anxious carmy (what's new)

summary; you don't like scary movies and watched one anyway so when carmy gets home, you're a little jumpy.

word count; 1,015

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i couldn't help but have a bit of carmy comfort in here... i had just watched the start of season 3 when i wrote this and so it skewers a little but i hope you enjoy nevertheless :))

You hadn’t meant to watch the whole movie. You hated horror and Scream was one you had avoided as much as you could. But it was gripping and as the late night came in, you couldn’t pull yourself away from it. It was addicting but it made you so paranoid.

As soon as the credits rolled, you regretted watching every second of the movie. You had jumped at every single scare and now you were living in a state of paranoia. The silence of the credits made it seem like every noise in the apartment building was ten times louder. Every creak made you jump and your head snapped back, looking at every shadow, terrified that something would be lingering.

Carmy still wasn’t back from the Bear. He had texted you saying he would be late a few hours ago. But you wanted him here, you wished he was home.

But he wasn’t so, you just had to face this alone. You took a deep breath. It would be fine. You needed to shake the paranoia before he got back or you knew he would be teasing you. Or he would scare you. Neither of which you particularly wanted.

So, you switched the TV off and slipped off the sofa. You flicked the lights on, not having had the chance to since you were so engrossed in the movie as the sun set over Chicago. You then headed into the bathroom. You were desperate to pee and you were quick to do your business, thinking over and over again about what you could do if someone came into the bathroom.

You had locked the door so nobody could get in. At least not easily, as long as they didn’t have an axe or some shit. You let out a ragged breath as you washed your hands, staring at yourself in the mirror.

“Don’t be an idiot,” You said to yourself, hoping it would somehow stop the way your brain ran away with itself. Every noise made you overthink and over analyse your entire evening.

You knew you were safe. 

You were in Carmy’s apartment.

You were safe.

You repeated “You’re safe, you’re okay” to yourself over and over again in your head, letting the words repeat like a mantra as you walked out of the bathroom.

For a moment, you thought you’d be fine but when you stepped out of the bathroom, you were met with an unfamiliar and unannounced figure. You yelped, hand coming up to your mouth as you jumped back. Your brain ran through every horrible scenario in one second flat before you realised it was Carmy. You would recognise those shoulders and curly mess of hair anywhere.

His eyes were wide as he looked back at you, looking equally as startled.

“Jesus fucking Christ, Bear,” You breathed out, heart thumping against your rib cage, “Scared the fuckin’ shit out of me.” He couldn’t help the soft laugh that escaped his lips as he walked over to you. He gently reached out for your hip, tugging you closer to him.

“Thought you’d be asleep,” He confessed. You shook your head, rubbing the side of your face with your hand.

“No, not got there yet. Was watching some Scream movie, scared the shit out of me,” You admitted, mumbling the last bit, embarrassed to admit it. Carmy couldn’t help the small laugh that escaped his lips. You smacked his chest playfully, pouting.

“That why all the lights are on?” He asked. You nodded and he couldn’t help the smile that spread across his face, replacing the exhaustion that usually sat heavy.

“How was work?” You asked softly as you pulled yourself into him. Your face nuzzled into his chest and he tensed for a moment, still not used to your affection but then settling into it.

“Service was okay but they’re too slow, it’s too slow. Sydney wants this star and I can’t- I need to get it for her but-- but nobody is working with me- I-” You could feel the heave of his chest, his hands gripping you unusually tightly. You looked up at him, looking into his eyes. The anxiety had been weighing him down lately and you wanted to take it from him, wanted to take it all but you couldn’t. Just like he couldn’t do that for you. So you instead moved your hands into his hair.

“Look at me, Bear,” You coaxed, catching his gaze, “You can’t do everything at once,” You whispered softly as you pressed your forehead against his. He tried to resist, wanting to scream and shout and tell that he could but you calmed him down. His body melted into you, the thought of having an argument suddenly unappealing, “It’ll be okay. You just need to calm down, let’s go to bed, okay? Let me just help your brain switch off?” You asked. He nodded. He wanted to tell you that it never stopped, that you could do everything and it would only come back.

But he stopped before he said anything. He just nodded.

“Okay,” He murmured. You pressed a kiss to his lips and then slowly pulled back. A sudden creak from the apartment above made you jump out of your skin and a laugh fell from Carmy’s lips at the way you jumped. He couldn’t help himself, a grin spreading across his face as he looked at you, “You really are jumpy, huh?” He teased. You rolled your eyes but nodded, unable to deny it. He chuckled and pressed a kiss to your forehead.

“Let me check you locked the door and then we can get a shower, that okay Bear?” You asked. Carmy nodded and you let go of his hand to head over and check the door before you returned to his side, ready to take a nice long shower with him. It would take more than just a temporary distraction for Carmy to let go of the anxiety that had plagued him for as long as he could remember but you were a good temporary fix.

i want to gnaw on his arm, he's so hot. just a little nibble...

reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions

saying i need him is an understatement

Happy spöök

I’m OBSESSED with ur new theme

It’s so gorg

THANK YOU!!

i feel my profile needed a bit of an update sooo :))

i have been a little absent but i'm here to say i am participating in the lovely olive's ( @carmenberzattosgf ) bearblr promptober! i'm using her prompts with a couple - 'the bear' characters and then lip and fiona Gallagher (my beloveds) from shameless!

i've got only a couple written but i'm hoping to get more written! but depending on how well this month goes, we shall see! but get excited hehe :)

schedule

day 1 scary movie / carmy berzatto - here

day 2 choking / lip gallagher

day 3 apple picking

day 4 temperature play

day 5 vampire / vampire lip gallagher au

day 6 carving pumpkins / sydney adamu

day 7 orgasm control / carmy berzatto

day 8 autumn leaves / dad!carmy berzatto

day 9 impact play

day 10 rain soaked / carmy berzatto

day 11 corn maze / carmy + sydney + richie

day 12 blindfolds

day 13 hot cocoa + baking / carmy berzatto

day 14 somnophilia / lip gallagher

day 15 free space !

day 16 bonfire / fiona gallagher

day 17 dumbification / carmy berzatto

day 18 candelight / sydney adamu

day 19 only one bed / nyc!carmy berzatto

day 20 slow morning / carmy berzatto

day 21 spiked cider (drunk confession) / carmy berzatto

day 22 costumes / fiona gallagher

day 23 dacryphilia

day 24 haunted house

day 25 size kink / lip gallagher

day 26 coffee shop / carmy berzatto coffee shop au

day 27 nightmares / lip gallagher

day 28 sick day / carmy berzatto

day 29 corruption / lip gallagher

day 30 sweaters (sharing clothes) / lip gallagher

day 31 trick n treat / dad!carmy berzatto

all of my friends have moved into my uni house, i have drunk too much this week and i miss my boys :(

need to get back to the bear and shameless asap, also am in the middle of writing for bearblr promptober but have made very little progress. i'm trying but life is SO BUSY

I love finding new pics. Look how cute he is.

( from @/andrewcphan )