Uninhabited Cluster.I Wonder If Jesus Ever Felt Like This?open. Vast. Loneliness.So Much Uninhabited

Uninhabited cluster. I wonder if Jesus ever felt like this? open. vast. loneliness. So much uninhabited space, empty and yet an incredible amount of clustered pain. frustration. confusion. uneasiness. anxiousness… I have a mother and a father, under the same roof. A sister and brother, who moved 386km away because that is how far their hearts and minds desire to live from mine... But I am...alone...abandoned...’ (via - Sequoia Red)

-- Sequoia Red

It seems I’ve stopped speaking with my voice. Part of me fell asleep and just watches.

Fernando Pessoa (via stxxz)

My biggest regret is having spent too much time trying to please other people. I spilled apologies left and right, carving them in my skin so everyone could witness my self-destruction. I apologized for occupying too much space. For breathing out sorrow. For existing. I gave others the knife and stood stoically as they did their worst.

absentions (via absentions)

Wow. It is hard not to choke on these words as I try not to breathe them in. The truth of how I am so aware....

“My family, they ‘love’ me But neglect me and consistently beat out my passion, inspiration, self-belief And are usually quite successful As I have grown tired. I have to learn to not need the love of people. To just accept that when it comes to ‘that…’I am alone. When I cry for hours, they can’t hear and when I am in unimaginable pain, it seeps through my pores They still cannot see it. They cannot feel it Unless it is their own And even if I beg them to try They choose not to It’s time for me to go, to be fearful To shudder, And ignore it.”

- Sequoia Red

brr...that icy cold pain you feel after being used.

- Sequoia Red.

I don’t like needing anyone for anything.

Jackie Robinson (via li-berum)