I Think Of Telephone Conversations With People I Used To Admire And Yearn To Speak To, Only To Discover

I think of telephone conversations with people I used to admire and yearn to speak to, only to discover they bring me nothing but pain as they only know how to love everyone else, except for me.

Sequoia Red - – taken from I’ve Tried. It Hurts

‎’Slut’ is attacking women for their right to say yes. ‘Friend Zone’ is attacking women for their right to say no.

And “bitch” is attacking women for their right to call you on it.  (via czano)

I ask myself questions pretending I’m someone else so it feels like someone cares enough to wonder why I write what I write. I’d say things like ‘I wrote such characters with trust worthiness because everyone I have ever trusted betrayed me and it hurt so badly I was sure I’d die sooner than I should. …’

- Sequoia Red - taken from [I’ve Tried. It Hurts.]

You're not...

Everyone believes that I'll be here forever. Living with them. Never leaving their side, as a weight for them to forever carry. When I moan in pain stating my frustrations my parents say nothing to comfort me. They just tell me what they need from me..fill this out for me, check this, get this.

My sister says they don't treat me like i"m sick because I don't act sick I don't complain. So I tried complaining out loud whenever I felt terrible discomfort, which is difficult.  For my survival I need that brave face. But I tried.

Yet the truth is, they don't hear it. I complained whenever I feel pain so they know it and they still don't comfort me, even when I ask them to. And I don't know why I stayed in a place where I am not even sure if they have eyes that can see me. Part of me wonders if I'd be sick at all if I had just left the moment i knew I was invisible...

- Sequoia R.

I had to tell someone I love more than anything...that I can't stay.

- Sequoia Red