Sometimes I Feel That Life Has Passed Me By Do You Ever Feel That Way, Charlie Brown?I Feel That It Has

“Sometimes I feel that life has passed me by… Do you ever feel that way, Charlie Brown?” “I feel that it has knocked me down and walked all over me!”

Charles M. Schulz (via perfect)

I had to tell someone I love more than anything...that I can't stay.

- Sequoia Red

You're not...

Everyone believes that I'll be here forever. Living with them. Never leaving their side, as a weight for them to forever carry. When I moan in pain stating my frustrations my parents say nothing to comfort me. They just tell me what they need from me..fill this out for me, check this, get this.

My sister says they don't treat me like i"m sick because I don't act sick I don't complain. So I tried complaining out loud whenever I felt terrible discomfort, which is difficult.  For my survival I need that brave face. But I tried.

Yet the truth is, they don't hear it. I complained whenever I feel pain so they know it and they still don't comfort me, even when I ask them to. And I don't know why I stayed in a place where I am not even sure if they have eyes that can see me. Part of me wonders if I'd be sick at all if I had just left the moment i knew I was invisible...

- Sequoia R.

Be Like Jesus

My mother tells me to be humble to stay it forward. But I’ve been humble for two decades and it’s done nothing but punish me. My mother tells me to be like Jesus. God says the same. And yes, I am God’s daughter, as I yearn great things. But if I keep this way, I’ll be dead inside. I’ll be nothing. I will end up like Jesus, palms forward and wrists pinned. - Sequoia Red

Far Out Of Reach

I hear music. I hear songs and I make up music, lacking access to any instrument or the ability to read music only feel it. I sing songs that touch me, like Temporal’s Fall Silently.

I see myself in my mind flowing through the movements, but I cannot duplicate the daydream.

I feel as though I am meant to dance in an empty studio and sing at the top of my lungs while standing in a field. Why do I have a yearning for things that are so far out of my reach?

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I've Tried. It Hurts

- Sequoia Red