I Kind Of Want To Do A Source Call, Purely Out Of Curiosity. I Do Hope If You Answer This Source Call

I kind of want to do a source call, purely out of curiosity. I do hope if you answer this source call you at least understand you are not the only version of your source.

I am Dazai Osamu, source calling for essentially anyone. Preferably anyone from my mafia days, given my life compared to canon diverged. I never met Oda-san, or Sakaguchi-san. For simplicity's sake, my name online is Sin. I use he/him pronouns. Nobody is banned, however I would prefer to not meet Mori-san. Another version of me would be interesting to meet.

Please message me, I will not take liking as an indicator of wanting to chat. Fictionkin and other alters are all fine to interact.

Bodily we are 19. As an alter, I am also 19. Please keep this in mind.

my biggest hot take is that 90% of people who say “let systems be crimge”/“let systems be happy” arent being genuine.

You guys cant handle systems with complex queer identities. You guys cant handle systems of color. You guys cant handle systems whos alters have non-white or “weird” names (namefluid, noun names, etc). You guys cant handle systems who dont call themselves plurals/systems/collectives and just call themselves disordered. You guys cant handle systems who have “ugly” disorder symptoms (screaming at little things, hitting walls, having a fear of being outside, etc). You guys cant handle systems who are religious and whos religion and plurality conflict a lot. You guys cant even handle systems where some are age regressors and some arent

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Sometimes I think I'm too open on the internet. And then sometimes I go "it could be worse".

I cant tell if it's worse or okay right now honestly?

Me coming across multiple nsfw things that I enjoy and I want to reblog but I realized this blog is not meant for that. So.

Making a minors dni sideblog if I catch minors following me there I will block <3

@xxmelonafterdark

Not gonna lie, as someone who had previously self diagnosed and now someone who is officially diagnosed, I agree, to an extent.

People should be doing in depth research to self diagnose (though I think most people don't sadly), and honestly even if you think you have it, and have self diagnosed, just.. treat the symptoms. I shout this from the rooftops all the time. I see people on the internet, especially TikTok, going "oh this is did" at one symptom of a disorder and it makes me cringe. I do think that self diagnosis is an actual problem and misinformation spreads like wildfire.

However.

People should not be shamed out of a community simply because they think they have a disorder. I welcome people who think they have DID, while also telling them to focus on symptoms and get in with therapy if possible. If you think you have DID but you aren't diagnosed, it's okay to hang around to get information or just have people to relate to. And regardless of diagnosis, nobody should be educating anyone without sources to back up their claims.

And I don't know if this is a hot take, but if you want to treat what you feel are separated parts of you as separated parts of you / people? Go for it. Just watch your symptoms. If they get worse, try stopping and see if they get better. Do what helps you the most, because that's what matters above all else, in my opinion.

extremely hot take, like something that's gotten me death threats before:

i don't think people should self-diagnose themselves with DID/OSDD. there's so many different disorders that have extremely similar symptoms (CPTSD can even have dissociative states similar to alters, so can BPD), which is exactly why it takes professionals YEARS to diagnose someone. people shouldn't be self-diagnosing something that can be indistinguishable from delusion or psychosis, especially when they're young and their mind is more suggestible. even if someone thinks they're being objective, they're always gonna have a confirmation bias once they THINK they know what's wrong with them.

if someone can't afford therapy or a diagnosis, they should just do self-therapy based on their symptoms and not spread their personal experiences as fact, when they can't even confirm they have the disorder in the first place. that's honestly why there's SO much misinformation out there about DID in the first place...

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This!! Work becomes easier when you suddenly switch in and your coworker is talking to you and you have someone there, whispering in your ear what to say so you just repeat it and it goes fine and then once that's over you get an update on what's going on. Without that I'd be screwed.

Like sure my alter didn't sleep well last night or our anxiety got horrific but that's okay, we're still here and we can work on things and handle things. Everyone can be helpful and annoying at the same time.

The problems are the amnesia. The problems are the trauma responses.

Other people have this idea that alters are the worst part of DID.

And yeah, some of our alters are scary. They hold bad memories, they have bad coping mechanisms, it wouldn’t be exactly safe for us to let them front unsupervised. But why do they act like that in the first place? Usually because they’re scared, stuck in flashbacks, panic attacks, dissociation, unable to get out of the moments that hurt them so badly.

And the rest of us? The alters that can be in front and are safe? They can only do it because we have other alters constantly providing positive feedback, encouraging us, reassuring us, grounding us. Just because we shut down instead of act out when we experience the other symptoms doesn’t make it any less terrifying.

Can you imagine eating dinner and suddenly you’re 6 years old again and your mum is yelling and it’s Christmas Eve and it’s all your fault that Christmas is about to be cancelled because you made a mistake. And she’s so loud and so serious and then you’re 9 and you shut the door because your parents are yelling at each other again and your mum marches over and throws the door open, and tells you to stop being so sensitive because ‘you do not live in a broken home and I won’t have you acting like it’.

And you switch and you’re confused and dazed because that was so sudden, and what was just happening, but no, that happened days ago, you’re in different clothes, it’s dark outside now, wasn’t it morning last time you were here? How long has it been? Hours? Days? Weeks? Years? And the voices in your head are muffled but loud and they’re all talking over each other trying to figure out how to look after the one who’s having the flashbacks and how to hell you, who’s just switched in, and you still have to keep up the conversation at the dinner table.

Basically, alters are the least of our worries. They’re actually, most of the time, pretty helpful to have around. Even if they get annoying.