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all I ask — z.k

We knew we were meant to be with each other, it was just no the right time.

College ain’t an easy phase, whatever you see on movies isn’t true, it is all just a pain in the ass but I guess it is worth it, that’s what they say.

We’ve been dating for 2 years, almost 3, we met in a starbucks three years ago, him, being all flirty as usual, came to my table and talked to me.

We became friends, then lovers, then the perfect cute funny couple, it was perfect while it lasted.

He was always busy with his band, making music, touring, promos and I was minding my own thing which is college, and I had to find a job to help my parents pay my rent.

We didn’t see each other as much, and it was breaking us apart. I spend the whole week away while he is always in Los Angeles, neither of us had enough time to visit the other, it just had to end, or at least, we needed to take a break.

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I received a text while I was in the shower, it was him notifying me that he would arrive in, approximately, 30 minutes. I was nervous, last night we were on the phone for hours, I knew I had to tell him about what was killing me inside, and because of the tone of his voice, I knew he wanted to tell me something too. Although I don't know if I'm ready to hear it.

After a while I was all ready and waiting for him, I heard the door being opened and then being closed, heard footsteps getting closer to the living room and I felt like I was about to throw up, why am I acting like this? It’s just him.

“Babe, I’m here...” his voice sounded confused and I laughed because I knew he was looking for me in the kitchen. As soon as he heard my voice he came to the living room where I almost jumped into his body, we were holding each other so close and so tight, I really missed him, and I know he missed me too.

We separated a bit to look into our eyes, he was crying, it’s been almost two months no see, he made me cry too, he got closer to my face and kissed me, God, how I missed his lips.

He had a free weekend so he decided to spend it at my place. After being all emotional we spent the rest of the evening talking about how everything was going in the PM house, the new music that all of the boys were really excited about, then I talked about how I got the job at the same starbucks that we met (which is the closest one to my university) and how I was doing in school.

“All of the boys say that they miss you and that they can’t wait for you to visit them” his breathtaking smile was killing me, he knew what he did to me so he smiled even more.

“Ugh, I miss them too, the semester just started so I don’t think it will be anytime soon” I said sadly, he changed his posture too, knowing damn well it would be even harder for us to see each other.

“Guess who misses you even more than the boys?” he was smiling again and I noticed that he said that to brush away the sad moments. “Simba, he thinks his mommy abandoned him, how rude from you.” I brusted a laugh, I missed out little baby Simba so much, his angelic eyes were so comforting.

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We spent the whole weekend together, we didn’t waste any minute. Sunday was already here, he was supposed to leave before 8pm, it was 5pm and we just got back from target, the way back home was a little uncomfortable if I say so, he was tense and I felt like I would cry in any minute.

The days passed so fast with him around and I just wasn’t ready to call things off, I guess we both saw it coming since we weren’t talking. After putting everything where they belong he stands in front of me and by the look on his face I could see sadness on him.

“Whatever you have to say, please, say it now, you’re killing me with all this silence.” besides from sadness, there was another emotion that I couldn’t really describe.

“Zion... I” how am I supposed to do this if he’s looking at me like that? My lower lip started to tremble a little, he looked at me impatiently knowing that I was about to cry.

“You wanna break up, is that it?” he seemed frustrated, his face was red and his eyes watery “babe, whatever it is we can solve it, okay? let’s talk” so we did. I told him how I felt. How mentally exhausting it is to have to worry about a relationship that you love but don’t really get to spend time with, how it made me cry till three in the morning not giving me the chance to have a good sleep after a rough day at college and after that at my job, it was killing me inside.

He sat there in front of me, tears running down his face holding my face with nothing to say, he pulled me closer and gave me the saddest hug we’ve ever shared.

“I totally understand mamas, I really do. It’s just... I love you, you know that right?” I nodded, of course I know. He always makes sure I do, there hasn’t been one time in all of these years together that I didn’t feel loved by him. “so I guess it is time for me to go, I had a really great weekend baby.””

“Are you nuts? you can’t leave Zi, the sky is crying” we both laughed at that, with still tears running down or faces. it was a joke between us that I’ll get to tell you another day. “it’s too dangerous, please stay” i begged and he pleased.

So I guess we weren’t together as a couple now, it didn’t feel like that, nobody would even notice if it weren’t for the tears that seemed not to stop coming out. I grabbed his face and kissed him, I wanted to spend our last night together.

He immediately kissed me back grabbing me by the waist, he made me jump and put my legs around his hips and made his way to the bedroom, he placed me on the bed carefully, kissing my whole face, neck and part of my chest. I started crying again, he really is the love of my life and I really hope life brings us back together at some point.

We undressed each other, there wasn’t a time that he didn’t kiss my skin and murmured how much he loved me, I didn’t really needed his honesty, his eyes already speak for him. And I’m sure mine speak for me. He kissed me on my favorite spots, the ones only he knew, no one knows me like he does and that was a fact.

The moment he got inside of me he kissed all of my tear marks, my cheeks, my nose, my eyes, my forehead “Mamas, look at me, please” then he kissed my lips and make me look at him,

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