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Love meant to be || Chris Redfield x Reader
Summary: Will Chris fight for his happy ending?
Warning: swearing and light angst
~Gif credit goes to its owner~
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It was a normal day, or I would like to say since I’m currently being called into Chris Redfields office. I’ve been a little distracted recently and it almost caused us to be compromised during our latest mission and now Chris is going to have my head once I reach his office.
“God why weren’t you more careful Y/N!?, now Chris is going to find everything out since I know he won’t let me leave until I explain everything to him, god damnit!”
I reached his office and knocked lightly
“You wanted to see me?” I ask him
“Yeah come in Y/N, there’s a lot to discuss” he replied
I went inside and sat down, and waited for him to continue.
“Now you want to tell me what the hells been happening with you?” He tells me with a stern voice not trying to sound mad but failing.
“Listen I’m sorry Chris, I really am but there’s just a lot on my mind right now and-“ I was cut off
“Yeah no shit Y/N!! Your distractions almost cause our whole unit to be killed!!” He replied now losing his cool
“Yes I know that, you don’t have to repeat it, I already said sorry and I know it won’t fix anything but I really am sorry Chris.” I replied trying to keep myself calm even though I was on the verge of crying for being yelled at.
“Are you going to keep me waiting or are you going to tell me what has been distracting you from your duty?” He asked
“Um well that’s kinda complicated to answer becau-“ I was caught off once again
“Oh you really thought you had a choice, no, you’re going to tell me and you’re not leaving this office until you tell me. You have been working with me since Raccoon City and I want to know what has one of my best soldiers distracted.” He replied getting more annoyed by the second
“I’m sorry Chris but it’s way too personal so be sharing with anybody, (especially you)” I said that last part quietly hoping he didn’t hear me, but with my amazing luck today he heard it.
“And why’s that? Why can’t you tell anyone, ‘especially me?.’
“Well because…yeah I got nothing, I just can’t tell you Chris.”
“I can’t be having you in the field distracted Y/N, you’ll put your whole team in danger if you keep on doing what you’re doing, so you tell me so we can fix this, please” he said, getting calmer.
“Fine, there’s someone on my mind and I can’t stop myself from thinking about them because I worry for their safety each time we go on a mission.” I finally tell him what’s been going on in my head but I’m scared that he’ll ask me to tell him who it is but I can’t answer that knowing that he’s been the one in my thoughts ever since I was recruited to the STARS unit back in Raccoon City. I just never said anything because he was always around Jill Valentine and by the look he had when he saw her I knew he was in love with her and I knew I could never be her. When she “died” while saving him from Wesker, I saw how lost he was without her but when we found out the truth and saved her, he went back to how he used to be, how happy he was with her, I could never get in between them, no matter how much I loved and cared for him, he would never love me how he loved her.
“/N!Y/N! Are you even listening to me!” I finally come back to my senses and I realize he was talking to me while I spaced out.
“Sorry, what were you saying?”
“You gotta be kidding me, I was asking you who this person is.” I could see and hear the anger in him
Fuck it, I can’t keep lying to him and if it goes wrong I can just live with it and pretend it never happened.
“It’s you, Chris”
The room was silent, it seemed that everything went still, like time had stopped and it was just me and him in the world. I waited for his response but his face was just in shock and it looked like he was trying to find the right thing to say.
“That’s why I didn’t want to tell you. Because I knew you’d react like-“
“Since when?” He questioned. “Since when have you felt like this?”
“Since the day I was recruited to the STARS unit.” Silence once again fell and I again waited for his response.
“And why didn’t you say anything?”
“Because I saw the way you looked at her.” I say quietly
He looked confused for a second and then he question again
“Looked at who?”
“Jill Valentine. I always noticed the way you looked at her when she entered a room. The way your eyes lingered on her each time she looked away. The way you always looked for her when you entered a room. The way your eyes looked each time she spoke to you, filled with love and admiration. I’m not blind, Chris. I always knew you loved her and I knew that no one else can compare to her. Hell man I can’t blame you for loving her, she’s beautiful, talented and she’ll always be in your heart no matter what. The day we thought she died, you died a little bit inside to. You changed a lot when that happened and when we found and helped her, you returned to your true self and that was the day I finally realized that you’ll never love me the way I love you.” I say, trying to hold back my tears but failing miserably.
“Y/N I’m sorry but-“ I cut him off
“No need to be sorry for anything, it’s my fault. I’m the one that fell in love and like I said, I came to the realization that you’ll never feel the same way so no need to be sorry. I can handle the rejection, hell, to be honest I was waiting for this day to come. I knew I couldn’t keep it a secret forever. Look, I know it’s sudden but I think it’s best if I left the BSAA. I know I shouldn’t leave because of this situation but it’s for the best and you know that. I’ll always be here when you need someone to help you out with fighting BOW’s. Thank you, for everything Chris.” I said, trying to collect myself before walking away.
“One more thing, don’t blame yourself for my decision to leave, it’s no one’s fault but mine and I wish you and Jill the best. Bye Chris.” I say while walking out the door.
Once I heard the door close completely, I leaned on it and let my tears fall. I didn’t care if anyone saw me, I couldn’t handle this pain anymore, but I’m glad I let it out of my chest. I continued crying until I heard a voice beside me and a hand on my back.
“Hey, you okay?”
It was Jill. The last person I wanted to see right now.
“Uh yeah I’m alright. Just got done talking to Chris.” I say trying to calm down, keyword trying.
“Oh yeah, what happened?” She questioned, concern laced in her voice.
“Nothing much, just decided to leave the BSAA. It was a hard decision but it’s for the best.”
“What?! Why?! Y/N are thinking straight?! Why would you leave the BSAA. You’re one of the best soldiers we have?!” She asked, completely in shock.
“I’d rather not talk about it, either way now’s not a good time, I have to start packing up. I’m sorry Jill, but thank you for everything. I wish you the best.” I got up and rushed to my room to start putting my things together, while I did, tears never left my eyes.
Meanwhile with Chris
I was still in shock after she left. How could I be so blind? How did I not see the way she felt about me? None of this makes sense
I heard talking in front of the door and the next thing I know Jill is barging in asking me a whole bunch of questions.
“Why is she leaving?! What did you say to her?! What did you do Chris?!?!”
“I didn’t do anything Jill. She decided to leave on her own and I couldn’t stop her.”
“Like hell you couldn’t. Why did she decide to leave?” She asked again
“Because she’s in love with me” I finally got it out.
“She’s in love with me and she thinks that I’m in love with you, that’s why she decided to leave.”
For the third time this day, the room fell silent again. We were just looking at each other, almost like trying to figure out what was just said.
“But- but don’t you love her?” She finally broke the silence.
“Didn’t you tell me that you’ve been loving her ever since Raccoon City? That each time she would talk to you, you would freeze up? Or how when she walked into a room you’d just stare at her and when she caught you looking you’d look away. Or when another STARS member would talk to her, you’d feel jealous”? She questioned
All of those things were completely true. I’ve had feelings for her ever since the day she walked in the STARS office. The way her feelings showed on her face. The way she talked to the other members. The way she used to talk to me. All of her being made me fall completely in love with her. She made me feel safe, loved and cared for. She never left my side, even after I left to Europe. She was with me through all of it.
“She left before I could say something. I was shocked to hear that she felt the same way as I did. She had her mind so set with the fact that I was in love with you. She even brought up the time you came back to us when we had thought you died. She said that a little piece of me died when you “died” and when we found you and saved you that I returned to how I used to be.” I answered holding back some tears
“You can’t let her leave, Chris. You have to go after her. Fight for her.”
“What do I tell her? That I’ve been in love with her since Raccoon City and haven’t stopped loving her since then?” I ask
“Tell her that and more, Chris. Tell her everything you feel about her.” She responds
“What if she doesn’t believe me? What if she still thinks I love you and not her?” I say desperately
“Then you make her believe you.”
After she said that, I thanked her and ran out of the room, towards the dorms. When I got there I rushed to her room.
“God I hope she’s still here”
“Y/N!!?”
Readers POV
I heard Chris call my name, but I didn’t respond, I just continued packing my stuff, not wanting to talk to him.
I see him enter my room, out of breath.
“Y/N! Don’t go. You can’t leave, please just listen to me!” He pleads
“There’s nothing to talk about, Chris. I’ve made my decision and I don’t think about changing it.”
“Just please give me a chance to explain”
I don’t say anything, I just continued packing, waiting for him to continue.
“I love you, Y/N” he finally says
When heard those words, I stopped everything and turned to him. I just stood there looking at him, almost like telling him to continue.
“I’ve been in love with you since you walked in the STARS office! Each time you walked in with that beautiful smile, I grew weak in the knees. Each time you supposedly saw me staring at Jill, I was preciously looking at you and felt too embarrassed to get caught looking. Each time I walked in a room, my eyes always looked for you, not her. When a STARS member talked to you in a certain way, I grew jealous because I never had the courage to talk to you like that. I was always sacred that my feelings would be rejected so I rarely engaged in conversation with you, but I never meant for you to think that I was in love with Jill. And yes, when we thought she had died, a small piece of me died with her because she was always like a sister to me. But that didn’t mean that I fell for her. Y/N you gotta understand that the only person I’ve ever wanted was you, and will always be you. So please, don’t go!” He finished
I stood there, trying to process what he had just said. “He’s been in love with me for the same amount of time I’ve been in love with him, this just doesn’t feel real.”
“ I’m sorry that I misunderstood the situation. I had really thought you loved Jill. Im sorry, Chris. I love you with all my heart.” I say with tears in my eyes.
Next thing I know I’m wrapped in his arms, head close so close to his chest that I can hear how fast his heart is beating.
“I love you with my whole being.”
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Thank you all for the support on “True Love” I’m not that great at summaries or titles so sorry about that. But I’m just writing these for fun tbh so if y’all have any suggestions please tell me them. I’ll try to figure out how to use tumblr better.