But I Wanted To Put It Up Anyways - Tumblr Posts

Tried something new here. I wanted to do a piece on my body dysmorphia. I’ve always thought those little “ToonMe” style drawings that artists would do were super cool and I found it the perfect way to convey what I wanted.

I wanted to portray less how I see myself and more how I feel about myself. How does dysmorphia make me feel most days? Grotesque, deformed, ugly, monstrous, fat. All of those awful descriptors are how I feel about myself almost all day every day. My perception of myself and my body is warped.

It’s honestly a vile disorder. What it does to you and how you think about yourself. One day, with enough treatment and time, I want to know what I actually look like. To see myself as I am and not what my disorder tells me I am. I’ll get there. One day.