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Changbin x reader ❄winter falls, now i'm running back to you❄
Changbin x reader
Warnings: maybe some typos, sorry!
category: Angst, no fluff
Authors note: with the Xmas season here I decided to make something for SKZ! I've been listening to 'Winter Falls' a lot this season, and Changbin's lines have me crying 😭😭😭 But don't worry! All of my Binnie lovers! I promise I will make it up to all of you!
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Changbin, he was your boyfriend for close to three years. But suddenly you both had a big fight one day. It had escalated quickly, so much so that you're sure the neighbors would be complaining to HOA in the morning about how their neighbors would not shut up. You weren’t even sure what the argument was about by the end. When there was a slight break in the screaming you had started to break down, but Changbin seemed to be unaffected by it. He used to always stop what he was doing and comfort you. Instead of going to comfort you, he scoffed and went into your shared bedroom. Not even ten minutes later he came back out with a bag of clothes. You jumped up and ran to block the door so he wouldn’t leave.
“Chang, please,” you pleaded with him. “Please don't leave me. I’ll change! I’ll get better! I swear, just please don't leave me Binnie. I don't know what I’ll do without you! I can barely function when you're on tour, I can live without you, please!!” But all of your cries and pleas fell upon deaf ears. Changbin simply moved you to the side, and without looking back left.
When the door closed you sobbed into your hands. You knew it was for the best, you both had been fighting for a while now, and it was over stupid things. But you loved him, you truly did. On the other side of the door, Changbin still stood there, tears streaming down his reddened cheeks. It was cold outside, winter was just around the corner. Winter… It was your favorite time of year. The snow, the cold, cuddling up with him under the blankets watching one of the dramas Hyunjin had recommended for you. Everything about it, you loved it all. Changbin was so close to opening the door and running back into your arms. But he held himself back, scared that you would not take him in again after what he did. He knew it was for the best that you both go your separate ways, the fighting had been getting out of hand for a while, and tonight was the last straw, for the both of you. That night Changbin went to the dorms to stay with the other members. When he arrived they were shocked to see him, but let him in none the less. He told them what happened and they consoled him, then Hyunjin went to console you. The members knew that you and Hyunjin were like brother and sister and he could always calm you down if Changbin couldn’t. You and Hyunjin ended up talking about what happened as well as watching more of his k-dramas.
*One year later*
You and Changbin still have not talked after a year. Even though a lot of time has passed, neither of you have healed completely. It has been exactly one year since Changbin walked out of your shared apartment. You knew that you would be most sensitive today, and most of winter. Winter reminded you too much of Changbin, the times you would cuddle by the tv under all of the blankets you both had, when he would build a snowman with you, the times you would have hot chocolate after you were done outside. Everything, from the cold bitter nights to the beautiful calm falling snow.
It was currently 12 O’clock in the morning, and you were curled up under Changbin’s favorite blanket to use during the winter times as he held onto you from behind. You grabbed the pig plush he had gifted you all those years ago, and grasped it tightly. You were watching a k-drama you and Hyunjin had started together, and you could tell that it was getting to a good part, the girl was going to finally confess to the boy. And hopefully he would return her feelings. You really wanted them to get together and had been rooting for them since the beginning of the show. Right as the boy was about to give his answer you heard a knock on your door.
You paused the tv, and got up, the blanket around you and the pig still in your arms. You unlocked the door and cracked it open and saw Changbin standing there, looking as nervous as the day he confessed to you. You both made eye contact for a split second before you slammed the door in his face, tears already gathering in your eyes. “y/n, please! I just want to talk to you! Please let me in… I-” he started but cut himself off. You heard him sigh and then start talking again. “I can’t function without you… I need you back in my life. I’m sorry for what I did, but… I thought that a break between us was needed. I see how wrong I really was. Y/n I can’t live without you, please let me in, I’ll make it better I swear!!” He pleaded but you ignored him, you wanted him to think you were doing so much better without him. “Please…” he whispered, you heard a thump, and you knew it was his head on the other side of your door. “y/n I… I really miss you, I can’t live with myself for what I did to you. I’m so so so sorry, I was wrong okay.” his voice was rising. You knew this was how it always went, first he would start off calm, then before you knew it, it would turn into a yelling competition between him and his echo. You held onto your plush and blanket tighter and you slowly started to cave around yourself. “I was wrong okay! Is that what you want to hear! Well there, y/n I was wrong to think we needed a break! Please let me in!” You shrunk in on yourself, holding the small pig close to your chest as you slid down the door. You go back to Changbin.
You couldn't be together anymore, you could see that, and you knew Changbin could too but he wanted to deny it, his mind wanted to move on, but his heart told him otherwise. It told him to go after you, to keep you from leaving his life for good. “Changbin we can’t be together.” you said quietly, but you knew he heard you. “Why?! Y/n I love you!! I’ve changed I swear!!” He pleaded again. But you shook your head, “no…no Changbin we can't, you know that! Sure you were right for me, but it just… it wasn’t the right time, for either of us.” and with that you locked your door again and went back to the couch where you're sure you would be crying for the rest of the night. Changbin had to accept it one way or another, and this was the best way for you. Both of you.
You looked out of your window a few minutes later, Changbin had left, and you saw that the snow was starting to fall onto the cold ground. It was beautiful, pure, untouched by the harshness of the ground. A glimmering white even in the darkest of night. Tears fell down your cheeks as memories flooded into your head of Changbin and you were out in the snow when it first started to fall. Changbin always used to say you were both like a movie, but it looks like this movie doesn’t have a happy ending. That's the thing though, it's not a movie, as much as you want it to be, it can’t. You wish it would have a happy ending where you ended up staying with Changbin, but life and fate had other plans. Maybe in another life or time, but not here, not now.
You made your way back to the couch and pressed play on the tv so you could finally finish the episode. Maybe this could make you feel better? You truly hoped it would.
‘The boy looked at the short girl in front of him, unsure of what to say. A minute passed before he finally spoke. “I… I don't like you that way Haneul. I’m sorry, but I can’t see us being together now, or any time in the future. I think it would be best to end our friendship here, I don't want you to get hurt or for people to start assuming things…” The girl nodded, tears already filling her eyes. She could have sworn that he liked her back. The moments they shared together, the amount of times he picked hanging out with her over his other friends. But no, it turned out she was wrong. Maybe he just wasn’t meant for her? She guesses she’ll never know. How could she when he walked out of her life forever? The boy smiled, but it looked more pity filled than anything. He turned and left the girl crying there all alone. She cried and cried, but he didn’t come back. Haneul wishes he would, but she knew he wouldn’t, so, she made her way home, in the cold winter snow.’
The screen went black and the song ‘Winter Falls’ by Stray Kids started to play. More tears fell from your eyes. Changbin used to sing this song along with ‘24 to 25’ to you all of the time when you cuddled on the couch when it snowed and you could not sleep. The memories hurt, but they were something you would continue to cherish for the rest of your life.
‘We are like movie, I feel out of breath / Talking about the old days makes me toss and turn again / While I know there's nothing I can do / I'm reminded once again as I hesitate after seeing pieces of you / Winter Falls, the snow falls / Purer than anything / Falls, I'll try to erase everything about you / That still remains with me / I loved you, loved you, loved you / As you did, loved you, loved you, loved you / Again it falls, the snow falls / We fall apart / Winter falls, oh / Winter falls, oh / Please fall before I fall / I loved you, loved you, loved you / As you did loved you, loved you, loved you / Again it falls, the snow falls / We fall apart.’