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BLACK HOLE — C.CH (TEASER)
— pairing: choi chanhee x gender neutral reader
— summary: when you left, you took a part of chanhee with you. now you’re the only person who can give it back
— genre: exes to ??, angst, some fluff maybe :D
— teaser wc: 689
— full fic wc: 10k ish
— warnings: profanities, chanhee smokes
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“drinking when you have an eight a.m. rehearsal seems like a bad idea.”
bad idea. bad idea. it seemed like coming outside was one of those, as well.
after all this time, and everything you had been through, the smoothness to chanhee’s voice still went straight through you.
where it used to feel warm and engulfing, it now felt like a stab to the chest. especially when he used the same tone for you that he used for strangers.
you supposed you were strangers now. “i’m full of bad ideas.”
there was no response for a moment, but then a hum. “you always have been.”
braving it, you spun on your heel so that your back was against the railing. no longer looking out at the garden, you were able to see chanhee in all his glory, leant casually against the wall as though this entire situation hadn’t felt straight out of a story book.
good was probably an understatement for how he looked. now, you got to see him in his entirety, no moving figures or conversation distracting you, and your breath hitched in your throat.
he stayed still for a moment, allowing you to scan his body, and you did an awful job at hiding your were doing just that. you dragged your gaze down the lines of his neck, scanning his chest and his face, before you attention was pulled when he moved once more to bring your least favourite thing between his lips.
boldly, chanhee looked you straight in the eye as he took a drag from the cigarette he held, shamelessly making a point as the two of you stood alone.
you remembered nights talking about it, how badly you hated smoking. perhaps it was rooted in your family’s own bad habits, or perhaps it was just because it was disgusting, but you had been very vocal in your relationship about disgust for the habit. seeing chanhee doing it in front of you was a bigger punch to the gut than any screaming match ever could have been.
it was a true reminder of what you had ruined.
“smoking is disgusting.” you couldn’t resist the comment, watching chanhee exhale another puff of smoke into the air.
“tough habit to break.” was chanhee’s only response, and the way it rattled your bones unnecessarily made you want to scoff.
it hurt, truthfully. and you couldn’t explain why. up until a week ago, you hadn’t thought about chanhee in months. you had moved on, thought you were finally getting over the thing that you ruined, only for him to show up at your university, in your cohort, and remind you of every ache you had ignored for so long.
you didn’t expect him to have any respect for you, not after the way you treated him in the end, but this was the biggest punch to the gut. you would rather him have slandered your name to everyone you knew than start smoking. not when that could damage him, too.
fitting, you supposed. the new image seemed complete with a cigarette in his hand. that only made you hate it even more, no matter how good he looked.
“why did you come here?” you asked bluntly, not even bothering to tiptoe around the topic.
chanhee looked less than surprised that you asked. “you’re not the only one with dreams, y/n.”
shaking your head, you watched as he stumped the butt of the cigarette out on the wall, neatly placing it in a container nearby. “not just here - not just seoul. why to my university? why to this party?”
a quick blink, then chanhee looked away, but there was a burdened smile toying on his lips. “honestly? to the university, because i didn’t think you’d still be here. you seemed so set on living your own life after all.” the poignant reference to your final words to him – the need to live your own life – stung. “here tonight? for the exact same reason you had your arms around juyeon earlier.” he laughed quietly, but it was cold and nothing like what you remembered. “to be petty.”
ೃ⁀➷ a/n: see you in a week or so ^-^
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