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And while I love the Lord I still fall.

I still struggle to pick up my bible.

I still forget to pray.

And while I love the Lord sometimes I doubt him.

I wonder why and how he has let the world become a place of destruction and dissonance.

I allow my mind to convince my subconscious that I am not loved.

That I am not favored.

And while I love the Lord I sometimes wonder if I'll ever be able to love him the way he loves me.

If I'll ever be able to feel as completed and whole within the spaces of my heart for one and only person.

If one day I'll end in the mourning of the evening with no one and nothing and still be able to say, "I love you Jesus".

Will I ever be able to love the Lord the way he deserves?

While I love him, I may never know the answer.