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I hope you get the help you need 💚
pls help
this is a last resort so I’ll try to keep it as short as possible
I’m struggling for money, a lot. I don’t have any, I’ve used all my savings, and ive only just got a job last week but they “aren’t taking payment details right now” so I have no idea when I’ll get paid.
I’m a lesbian w ptsd, ocd, depression and anxiety. I live at home with my parents, who dont have much money either. they’ve helped me literally as much as they can, but they have nothing to spare. while my parents still love me, they don’t support the idea of me being a lesbian and have attributed it to me being on tumblr and talking to my friends on here, so a lot of my internet access is limited and monitored and my phone is taken away when I go to bed.
as a very brief breakdown, my healthcare costs between £170 - £320 a month, due to medication and therapy, which I struggle very much without. currently I’m only having therapy for my ptsd as it’s the most presenting issue, but I’m unable to have any sessions right now because of the cost, which is £80 an hour. my parents are having to help pay for my prescriptions but the other day mum told me they’re overdrawn and they don’t know where they’re going to get the money to pay it off
my main concern however, is my dog. he’s an 8 month old labrador, and as of a few days ago he was diagnosed with hip dysplasia and elbow dysplasia, so he has an issue with all four of his legs. the bill just to get him checked out and get pain medication was £123, and he’s booked in for 2 weeks time to have an x-ray and potentially surgery depending on what they find, which will be a whole lot more expensive, and this is just for his elbows. they’ve said they want to wait to see what happens with his hips, but that he will end up with painful arthritis when he’s older, and there’s very little they can do to fix elbow dysplasia so it’s something he’ll need pain medication to manage for the rest of his life. he’s upset because he can’t go for long walks or run around, as after about 5 minutes he gets so lame that he can hardly walk at all and can’t eat his food unless I hand feed him while he lays down.
my parents are currently paying for his insurance but it’s expensive (and will go up if we claim for his surgery) and they would like me to take over paying it now that I have a job. that combined with the hypoallergenic food he needs will cost around £100 a month, and work only want me to work part time for the next few months. I’m on minimum wage so I can’t cover it. while my therapy and medication is important, I cannot live without my dog. he’s my best friend and is honestly the only thing keeping me alive
I could go on but this is long enough as it is so if you could please even just reblog this it would mean the world.
my PayPal link is here: paypal.me/garmacondrai
bonus - here’s my boy!
having a crush on a white man during black history month is so loser girl of me, like no this is embarrassing
just finished the todd in shadows vid after the hbomberguy one and oof.
i had never heard of somerton before but the harm he’s clearly done to the community can be seen in the way he said “the boring gays survived” the comment from a watched todd highlights made me cry when i paused to read it. just yuck, i hate plagiarism and i hate ppl pushing their own narratives.
can i also say another thing i disliked thats like no a big deal in regards to the other claims?
i hate how somerton delivers his lines with the energy of someone giving a presentation for the first time. some of the clips shown from his vids you can literally see him reading the script for the first time. how is that meant to be engaging? when you truly know something and are passionate about it your words flow naturally even when you stumble, and the inflections aren’t rehearsed because you mean the words you are saying. it just highlighted his anger when the only parts he seemed impassioned is when he would come for the “straight women” in his comment sections. like hello misogyny.
ugh this is why i’m always sceptical of video essayists on youtube because so many of them just sound like faux intellectuals. its really not hard to cite your sources and actually enriches the conversation because you give ppl the ability to research for themselves further. never trust someone who says they are the beginning and end of a discussion.
My hw (that's due tmrrw) is sitting right in front of me and what am I doing? Posting stuff on tumblr and looking up random cat videos on YouTube
; to describe my genderfluid experience:
girl in a boy way
boy in a girl way
no gender fuck it all
idrc yk ..
WELL WHAT'S YOUR GENDER
ALL OF THEM HAHAHAHAH
.. fangs .. + stuff that isn't gender in general ..
FEMININE BOY. GIRLY BOY. WOULD MAKE MY DAD CRY BOY.
tie
THE CUTEST FEMININE GIRLY GIRL EVER
uh. :[ ?
I’m begging you to write for yourself.
“But readers don’t like—“ who cares?
The only reader of your story that you should care about is yourself.
Do you like your story? Yes? Then it’s perfect.
idk if I count as an elder, i'm in my early 20s, but I've been reading fanfiction for over a decade
its always so funny seeing discord screenshots and seeing the whack names people give themselves so i propose a Game. what is your username (without the number tag) and nickname in your most active server
**Stimming violently* OH MY GODDDD ITS JRWI TIIIIIIIME
I don’t think people realize how overthinking slowly kills you, they don’t know how it can turn your mind into thoughts you wish weren’t yours
Do you ever daydream about stupid stuff so hard that you end up breaking your own heart???? Is that just me????