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Day 350: Christmas 2012

A year ago, I know we were on skype. We celebrated Christmas "together". I got to see your face. I got to hear your voice. I got to talk to you. We were both happy even thought we were a thousand miles away from each other. Tonight, I'll be spending Christmas without you for the very first time. I don't know how am I going to celebrate it without you. It feels like I am so incomplete without you. I'd rather be a thousand miles away from you knowing that we will be able to see and talk to each other again instead of you leaving me in this world. Umpe ko, i miss you so much. And on days like this, I tend to miss you more. I don't feel excited anymore. I always try to be happy but I always end up feelig bad. I feel guilty coz I never did anything good to make you happy. It feels like I do not deserve to be happy at all. Umpe ko, this will be my first Christmas without you. Ang sakit isipin na we won't be seeing each other for a long time. Ang sakit isipin na I have to live longer without you by my side. Umpe ko, masaya ba ang Christmas mo dyan? Umpe ko, namimiss ko din ba ako? Umpe ko, ano ba ang dapat kong gawin? Umpe ko, miss na miss na kita. Sana nandito ka pa din. Sana nakikita mo kung ano na ako ngayon. Sana nandito ka pa para makapag thank you pa ako sayo. Sana andito ka pa para makapag sorry din ako sa mga pagkukulang ko. Umpe ko, ang lungkot ng Pasko ko lalo na at di kita kasama. Pwede ba kahit ngayon lang ipaalala mo sa akin yung mga masasaya nating ginagawa tuwing Pasko. Ipaalala mo sa akin ang tunay na meaning ng Pasko. Ipaalala mo sa akin kung gaano mo ako kamahal. Umpe ko, miss na miss na kita. Sana kahit sa panaginip lang eh makasama kita ngayong gabi. Merry Christmas Umpe ko! I love you always and forever...