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okay but I want to talk about something... I can't really write proper pieces since my English sucks and I'm pretty cringe but I like. really need to discuss it.

✨a study on the "plus size" characters in mdzs✨

I'm a girl of a heavier build so I couldn't help but associate myself with bigger characters and... well. Mdzs is not the greatest thing for this. Because like... who do we have here? (Only talking about the donghua because everyone is slim in the CQL except some older men)

Mo Ziyuan.

Okay, I will tolerate this one, it kinda makes sence for him to be fat. He is described as looking "sickly" in the novel, so it may be interpreted as obese. Plus contrast with MXY being underweight.

Jin Zixun.

I don't get the decision behind his design. Just... Why? The donghua decided that every bully (except Wen Chao) needs to be fat? And no, he isn't described like that in the novel, he's actually just more broad-shouldered and stocky and conventionally "handsome". I would totally change his design.

Also we have this guy.

The unnamed Jiang disciple. And he is a positive character!! Oh, he was such a joy to me, so precious. Sadly he is just a background character who appears only in a few scenes so we don't really see him as a person, but he still makes the thing much much better

Overall, for me it's pretty frustrating that I look at myself and my subconscious is telling me that "should" associate myself with characters like Jin Zixun. And who wants to be him?... I don't want to. It really adds to the insecurity, unlike other fandoms which I've been in, I have a feeling that I shouldn't show my photos to my co-fandom ppl for example because of my bodytype. And the only positive plus size character is super backgrounds

So the thing is that I just really need more positive representation of weight in there. Some little but still heartwarming example is this scene in chibi donghua (MDZS Q) in ep 4 I guess where everyone has gained weight and it's treated not as a catastrophe but like a pretty normal thing? I have put on some weight in the past months and this scene saves me so much. It like tells that it's normal, even the cool characters like Jiang Cheng can gain weight and nothing is exceptionally wrong with me.

I have also seen a mention that wwx has gained some weight in postcanon (makes sence! mxy was malnourished I think) but only one person was saying this and I haven't seen it anywhere else

So... yeah. That's why I *might* seem too much on this theme but it's just me trying to deal with my insecurity and eating disorder. I just want to see some "cool" and admirable characters sharing my bodytype, because that makes me feel so much confidence. I headcanon Nie Huaisang as chubby for example, because that suits him (he doesn't really fight or do training like other cultivators do + it adds to the "cute and innocent" looks) and he is very cool!

Anyways that's all. I don't know how to name this post but like... does a tumblr post really have to be perfect?