Hrt Journey - Tumblr Posts
[Begin image description: comic with 4 panels. Panel 1- Title: “Progress Report.” A transfeminine person named Riri undressing in a dressing rooms looks in the mirror in surprise, saying “I have boobs now!”
Caption: coming up on 6 months on HRT, I’ve already noticed some big changes.
Panel 2: 2 people are shown wearing backpacks. The first is a male presenting person looking worried, Riri pre-transition. Dark tentacles spill out of their small backpack, representing anxiety and depression. The second figure is Riri post-transition, femme- presenting and looking calm. They have a bigger backpack with the dark tentacles contained.
Caption: I cry a lot more, but I can handle my emotions so much better, instead of letting them crush me.
Panel 3: post-transition Riri, teary eyed, is in a pose implying they just stopped clutching the sides of their head. Stormclouds roll away in the background. Behind Riri is a line of test tubes, with a new sparkling pink chemical just added to the lineup. Riri says “Oh” in relief.
Caption: It feels like I finally got that one missing chemical my brain chemistry has always needed… my noisy, restless brain can finally calm down.
Panel 4: Riri smiles and hugs themself in blissful euphoria. A bandaid is on their tummy.
Caption: I was so nervous to start HRT, but I feel so much more connected to my body and my emotions now. I love the me I’m becoming. End image description]
my HRT (testosterone) screening appointment has been delayed by a month after being on a wait list for a year and a half
but prior to that, i was told by doctors over and over for around four years that i wasn't not allowed to apply for gender-affirming care because of my age. my doctor at the time was incredibly transphobic (she refused to use correct pronouns and name even after I legally changed it)… they refused everything, including puberty blockers, which would have significantly decreased the possibility of my disability developing.
safe to say i'm angry
all up, it's been about six years of begging.
tw suicide
.. i don't want to know what will happen if they push it back again. considering holding onto getting HRT is one of two threads stopping another suicide attempt.
HRT is SO IMPORTANT.
It is NEVER too late to live your truth. I’m 52 years old & never felt comfy in my own skin. (TBH I still don’t but am a work in progress!).
I have always enjoyed being a woman … I don’t want to not be a woman. I AM however MORE than that. I don’t feel like, for me, that’s non-binary as I see myself as “woman+” not “woman and” - I hope that makes sense.
I started testosterone approx 3 wks ago & am looking forward to seeing how this journey progresses.
It’s NEVER too late to live your truth & to define yourself however works best for YOU.