I Did Not Spend Long On Either Of These Things - Tumblr Posts

What a wonderful thing

To have loved at all.

My many years within the dark

Unwanted, feeling small..

But you had many colors

That flickered in the dark

And in a patter, hopeless patter

That lit aspark my heart.

It was a feeling, now familiar

It was a feeling, I was not ready

Just recovered: sent a spiral

Face a-flush and heart unsteady

Love, oh, love,

Do we ever mean to fall so deep

Within its pit?

To long to hold, and kiss, and cry

My heart was having none of it.

I will not love, not now, not yet

I will not love, unsure, unset.

I was not meant to fall in love!

Not here, my god, not now!

I was not meant to ever love,

Oh, can you show me how?

Happy Pride month, all!