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I'm afraid of dreaming.

Well, it's more of the "concept of dreaming" than the dream itself. If I dream thriller, I don't care. If I dream horror, I wouldn't mind. If I dream of such a cliche romance, it wouldn't bother me. But it's the dreaming itself I'm afraid of. If I take a 1hr nap, I could dream a year-long dream. If I sleep for 8hrs I could live in that dream for months. Even if it's just a short, 30-minute sleep, I could be in that dream for a lifetime. And sometimes it takes a toll on me in that dream and in reality. There are times I didn't want to "experience" something but "I" endured it because it was "reality", only for me to wake up and realise that I could've avoided experiencing that experience if I just woke up. And sometimes I would wake up empty, trying to remember my dream that I know I spent a long time on. Only to do the laundry and remember what happened and apologise to the guy who saved me back in my dream because he died just to save "me", who wasn't even from that reality. All in all, whether the dream I ventured to was a different form of reality or not, I'd still continue to dream. I have no other choice anyway.