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"Oh, so you want me to ignore your texts, is what I hear. Noted. I will make sure to wait until the sun is up to return your message from now on." She said with a laugh in her tone, knowing all too well that they both kept odd hours anyway. The nickname that he had come up for her with never failed to make her smile for some reason. The fact that it wasn't overused or that it was some alias lent to it. Though she was no longer tipsy, she still felt her cheeks warm as a slight tint, small blush came to her cheeks that she tried to hide by pulling her head back into the top of the hoodie. "If I admit that I do, will this be the last time you bring it up?"
Sometimes she regretted not staying on that boat but she knew that it wasn't for her. Her usual habits had called her back to land. A life she could never leave behind. "Thanks," she said in a low voice, unsure why he would say that nothing she said would sound stupid to him. The words though seemed to give her brain permission to just be honest around him. "You ever felt that way somewhere? Just a place that made everything inside of you calm down so much that you feel like someone else. Someone new? Someone you were supposed to be?" The mention of horses made her chuckle. “l respect animals and how majestic they are but I do that from afar. So no, I’ve never ridden one. Situations in which I can’t talk or fight my way out of are not in my comfort zone.” She’d watch people, mostly tourist, get thrown off horses during her time in Mexico. Seen people, again mostly tourists, get trampled by elephants in India. Crocodiles snap their jaws on limbs of people, again mostly tourists, in Florida. She respected their agency and would not like to find herself in any of those situation, glad to watch them from afar.
The way his fingers ran through her hair made her feel at ease. A simple gesture that made her spine shiver in a way that said it wanted more. That it wanted the tips of his fingers to continue to tangle in her hair and glide across the sensitive skin on the back of her neck. A thought that she hastily had to shove away. “Your listening skills need work,” she chuckled. “I said I trust you not to. Honestly if you did I’d pull you over with me, there’s no way I’m going it alone.” Tilting her head up at him, eyebrow quirked up high. “Nice cave? That’s an oxymoron. I can’t believe that I opened up and told you I’m scared of small spaces and here you are trying to get me to go to one.” When her phone chirped, she rolled her eyes. “I’m not looking at that right now.” Settling her head back down on his shoulder muttering sarcastically to herself. “A nice cave.”
Her hand had began to feel cold as it dug its nails in her palm trying to keep her out of her head when a sudden warmth washed over it. His hand. It was his hand over hers. A small part of her wanted to pull her hand back, to apologize. The louder part of her said not to, they had already held hands, and in all honestly it felt so nice. So she found her fingers uncurling slowly under the warmth of his hand. “Of course she has a list. In your wildest dreams, agent,” Elizabeth laughed sitting up, there was no way anyone good like Wally would ever need up with a terrible mess of a person like her. He deserved better. “What’s on this list? I can help you find someone she’ll approve of before I go. I’m sure there’s someone on these islands somewhere that can meet both your standards.” Smiling at him, she quipped. “Listen to you, you sound like you know a lot more about lobsters than you let on. And if I somehow signed up for this, where do I unsign up?” It was a tease as her hazel eyes took in his features right now. Unsure how she had got to this point. To this place. With this man. Talking about things she never had with anyone before so freely.
Listening to him, she simply hummed in acknowledgment that she was listening. Taking in what he was saying. "Our meeting was fate? And here I thought we met because of someone who made the worst choices in life. No, its not weird, just because you believe in something doesn't mean you believe all that it encompasses. You're a leader not a follower, you make up your mind about what you do or don't believe in, I think that's the beauty of belief, its a choice." The idea of good deeds being repaid was something that felt weird but that was a more complicated matter for another day. "Psychics freak you out?" Rolling her eyes at his supposedly future card, she couldn't help the smile on her face.
“When I fall in trying to cast, we'll see how easy it is.” That was a skill she was never able to learn or honestly cared to learn. Content with pulling out the lobster traps and sorting them. If anything, she'd bring a book for this excursion, read to pass some time. “Lame?! You’re just as married to work as I am. So if I’m lame so are you by default. And it's because I just went. I go every year on my birthday and then every once in a while when I can. So, you missed your chance sir.” It was an excuse, but a good excuse. Taking someone back to the place she wanted to be home was something that she had never done. Something she didn't plan on doing.
"You'd make me walk home, Wally?" Laughing, she shook her head. Deep down she knew that even if for some reason she said no, he would still take her home. He wasn't like the people she had known her entire life. Truth be told, she didn't want to say no, she was actually quite excited to do this adventure week of his. "Your listening skills need work because I'm pretty sure I had already agreed to it when you said I could take Dolly while you're gone. Just no caves, that's all I ask." Standing up, she took her heels off and began to make her way back down. "You are too much of a sweetheart, Wally. Don't lie, I am an ass. I work hard at it. I like my shell. Firework day? Am I safe to assume it's not the fourth of July? Don't they usually close down lighthouses for those kinds of nights?" The idea of an errant firework hitting someone on the deck seemed like a possibility. The chill just made her long to get out of the dress and bundle in her blankets again as she put her empty hand not carrying her heels back into hoodie, which was quickly becoming a comfort. "Thanks again for letting me use this, I know I said it before but its so comfortable." It felt lived in, cared for and just as warm as its owner. "You can crash at my place if you like." It wasn't like he hadn't before. "You can take the bed and I'll sleep on the pull out sofa since I'll be up early for the lawyers anyway. You can sleep in a bit." It was a small way of saying thank you, she guessed since he had stayed up late to take her to the lighthouse, the least she could do was keep him from driving some more and get some rest.
"Maybe you're just a light sleeper," he retorted. His quick wit on full display. "You could just ignore my texts but you send it back nearly a second after. So, maybe most likely, you're just waiting for it." Wally nodded his head. "Oh yeah, definitely. Keeping that one in my heart. It's special. You, lila paid me a compliment. Totally shouting that from the rooftops." In all honesty he loved giving her a hard time and this time was no different. "You pretending you don't like my voice doesn't bother me because I know you do." He didn't really but still fun to tease her.
The sea was beautiful and he knew it but even that gorgeous sight couldn't tear his own eyes from her. She encapsulated beauty like he never had seen before. Even as she talked he couldn't keep his eyes from behaving and not drinking her in like she was water and he was the desert in need of hydration. "It's not weird," he shook his head. "It makes sense. It doesn't sound stupid. Never when it comes to you. I like that you felt at peace. Sometimes places do that to you. Kind of sounds like how you also have to respect the horses when you first learn to ride them. Ever been horse back riding?"
His fingers glided to a soft stop as his index tangled in her hair for a moment. "I wouldn't throw you over of this thing. That's a deep dive down. What kind of monster do you take me for?" As for the cave he couldn't help but laugh. "It's a very nice super high cave. Looks like a ceiling." She didn't believe him he knew that so one handed he took out his phone and sent her the cave picture.
He took his hand and placed it over hers in an attempt to offer up comfort hearing her deep breath. Though he didn't look at her he kept his eyes on the sky. He thought there was something that was said to have her react the way she had. Her giggle made him laugh. "That's true. Annie is going to hate whoever ends up being swept up in the chaos. As it is she has a list of qualities she wants for me. Though, gotta say she does have a strong liking to you. Maybe you're the one I end up with." Though that was said non chalently there was a part of him, the side that truly did like her, could see himself with her.
He bumped her back as a smile overtook his features. "They may look alike but not all are the same. One may have a short claw than the others. Not good to generalize." Wally teased and sighed. "You kind of signed up for this. At least you won't be alone in every lifetime. You'll have someone you know and who knows exactly how you need to be annoyed." Keeping eye contact with her felt intimate. Something only lovers did when they wanted to convey words but they weren't necessary.
He hummed at the question which hadn't really been asked much. The only people that knew were family so this was a little funny. "I do," he stated before he explained. "I mean I believe in the gods not Jesus and all that the Christians believe in. But more so Greek Gods. The crystals and magic of it all." His eyes widened at that. "Fate. I didn't before but now, well, they gave me something to believe could be considered fate. Met you didn't I? Diana is a real believer and it kind of rubbed off on me. As for reincarnation? I don't know about that. Not because I don't believe it but I just don't know enough. Wild I know because you'd think believing in Greek gods would be a straight shot into reincarnation but I don't know."
"I do believe in good deeds gets repaid. Like find a penny then you'll have good luck all day long." That wasn't the same he knew it but it was where he was at. "No psychic. They freak me out. But I have gotten those future cards from the machines at the carnival. I got one that said you'll soon annoy a brunette who isn't what they seem."
Picturing them as fishermen was funny. He knew he couldn't do it. But for her, she would probably be good at it. "Watch, you'd be one to make it look easy." The quip about her voice made him nod. "I do love your voice. Why do you think I ask you so many things at one time." Wally tilted his head as he rolled his eyes. "You hype it up so much now you got me curious. I would like to go. And who better to go with than you. Are you gonna deny me that?" He wasn't above using puppy dog eyes. "Why not? You can't say because of work. Lame."
He looked at her yawn and smiled. Biting down on his lip. "I can take you home but only after you agree to adventure week with me. Not let work get in the way. Just give me one week. How about a week of adventure with me?" He shook his head and had none of that. "You're not an ass. I don't think that. You're a bit of a hard shell but it's not a bad thing. Maybe we will come up here again. Fireworks day is pretty epic."