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I’m not afraid of dying. I’ve come to terms with it and in some moments have grown quite fond to the idea of it. You told me you don’t want me to be more afraid of living than I am of dying. And I told you the truth. I said that I do not want to die, but I haven’t been scared of dying for a while. I’m terrified of living. But I figured I’d stick around and see what happens if I’m just going to pass away anyway! You might’ve expected a different answer but I could never lie to you. I’m here to stay because even if I end up a dead beat on the side of the road, at least I would’ve lived to see it! And the thing is, I feel like I’ve experienced a lot for my age. And if I were to die today I think I’d be pretty happy with what I’ve left behind. Although I do miss you like crazy! But who knows, maybe I can make more of an impact! Maybe not! But I wouldn’t get to find out if I’m not here.
I talk to the moon and stars about you.
I miss you. I miss our talks. I miss the way you smiled at me when I say something corny. I miss hearing about your day. I even miss the arguments we get in because us communicating through it showed how much we were willing to fight to be together. I know you need to make yourself happy, I know you want independence and time to be you by yourself. And I refuse to ever come in the way of you loving yourself! I just hope you know that I will be here when you’re ready. You haven’t lost me. You could never lose me.
“I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday.”
— Lemony Snicket
“I want you forever even when we’re not together.”