Izzy's Lovely Anon/s - Tumblr Posts

to the two anons who have sent me an ask! you just made my day 😍 i love doing tag games or just getting anything in my inbox! 🥰

i'm still thinking of the answers! dw! i won't forget about it 😁😚

I'm really thankful that there is a writer like you out there who is willing to share her stories. The fact that you're also not scared to tell people that its connected to you is impressive too. I would be scared to tell anyone

hi anon!!

first of all thank you so much for reading my stories 😭 this is implied but i'm thankful that you don't feel alone. the world can really be silent and lonely sometimes ❤️‍🩹

to be honest, i'm scared too 🥹 sometimes i struggle a lot because of it and there have been times when i just stop and think if this story should be out in the public's eyes because some of my stories are based solely on me and my experiences. it does get tough but! readers like you who send these kinds of asks makes me keep going! i appreciate you! thank you 🫂

Sorry to hear that you struggle to write sometimes. How do you get over it and what's the hardest story that you have wrote

oooo!! thankfully for me, i've been blessed to find really nice, supportive people in my life as i write. @heemingyu and @sohnric are def the two that deal with my freaking outs and ideas the most 😭

i was having a full on mental breakdown when i wrote cupid's mistake because it touches a part of my life that makes me literally cower and shudder in fear; very vulnerable (sana and bar helped me pull through).

i read it myself (almost every night...) just to remind myself that the world can be kind and that i can hold on to hope.

and even as i look at my works in progress and all of that, i don't think any of them will be harder to write than 'cupid's mistake' (okay, i may have lied a little bit, there is one where i'm stopping and going and stopping and going 😭😭)

but forever and always, 'cupid's mistake' will always be a story that is very dear and special to me 🥹❤️‍🩹💞

hey! i don’t know if you know this or not but could you tag any physical descriptions of the reader in your fic in the content warnings at the top of your fic? i love your writing but i find that it’s kind of not inclusive to darker skinned poc because of how much physical description you put in 😅 you mention a lot of things that allude to paler-skinned people like red cheeks and straight hair (which is fine! it’s your blog you can write whatever you want 😅) but a little warning would be nice! the same thing applies to any other physical descriptions like size comparison (e.g. the reader being smaller than the idol/the idol’s clothes being really baggy on the reader/height difference/etc) i know it doesn’t really seem like a big deal but as a bipoc reader when i find a reader fic i really like but the reader is described with features that are so clearly not a physical description of me without any warnings it pulls me out of the fic and feels almost intentionally exclusive 🥲

again, it’s fine that you write these things but notifying the reader at the beginning of the fic would be really appreciated! thank you for reading this 😭 i hope you have a good day!

hey anon! first of all, thank you so much for supporting my work, it means a ton to me. second of all, thank you for acknowledging that this is my space and letting me have the creative freedom. i really appreciate and am thankful for this thought.

in terms of your concerns, i am taking this and others ones on board 🫂 and i'm trying my best to put in the appropriate warnings/notes/genres that are needed for my stories.

i'm sorry that i haven't been quite great with the topic and putting it in. i'll most definitely be more careful about it from now on. i apologise that i made you feel excluded in my stories, that was never my intention.

once again, thank you and have a great day!

hi! putting on anon because i'm pretty sure you know me but we're not close so. i saw your recent post and i hope that you will continue to write what is best and comfortable for you first (just liek the two comments underneath that post of yours). and then after you write, just include the appropriate warnings. what else can you really do after that. if you put in warnings and they decide to skip over it then how is that your fault. its not. and its okay to make mistakes and slash or forget to put in warnings. we're all human. if people decide to be mean to you for that, then that their problem and not yours. keep writing! your stories are awesome and makes my day!

hi anon! 🥺 if you're ever comfy and decide to tell me who you are, i'll welcome you with again with open arms 😭 thank you so much for these words.

i think that for me, i simply have been pretty bad at writing the things that should be written in my warnings/genre section. that's why from now on, i'll be very extra careful and I'll try my hardest to write it in the sections.

i promised this to myself once and i'll promise it to myself once more (and to you as well ❤️‍🩹 and those who support me) that i will keep writing what's best and comfortable for me first 🫂

your words really comforted me, thank you so much for sending this in 🫂

yes please promise that and don't change. if you like to write about a certain thing just warning it. i like the things you put in your fics. aybe bc we like the same things. that anon is just letting you know about it nd it is your blog so. we are all human and we make mistakes and admit them and learn. if people have a problem then they can just not read it. 👍👍

😭🫶

https://www.tumblr.com/from-izzy/741244952356519936/0321-tbz-kim-sunwoo?source=share

you wrote here how hard work didnt betry you. Do you mind telling me your side of the story. i love your stories btw! life has been pretty hard and not a lot of writers write smth thats reltable like yours!

hello hello!! thank you for telling me your thoughts about my stories, i appreciate this so much 🥰 ahhhh...i hope things will get better for you soon 🫂 keep pushing on!!

warnings: mentions of academic struggles, anxiety, panic (sorry this became a rant (and a self-reflection) more than anything tbh...)

so for my uni degree, the first three years is guaranteed in a way that there is no competition. anyone can do the first three years. however, fourth year is the hardest part. a lot of people say to get into fourth year, you basically need to score about 80% to even be considered for fourth year and even then, there's no guarantee. so, this bummed me out so bad. i remember going to uni thinking if this is right for me because if it isn't, then wouldn't i have just spent my first three years for nothing? i just didn't know how i would feel like if i reached the end of third year and then realised that i didn't get into fourth year. i also remember looking for other postgraduate courses i could apply to because my confidence was so low and in my head, i just had to prepare for everything.

i had a backup plan for my backup plan that was a backup plan for my first backup plan.

but the thing that changed me were: am i giving up when nothing has started? even when this has been my dream job for the past four years (at the time)? i even moved high schools so that my chances to get into university was higher, and now that i'm here, i'm going to give up now? after all the things i've been through, am i going to stop just because i'm scared of something that i can somewhat control?

i kept going then. then i heard about this degree that guarantees students to get into fourth year as long as i reach their minimum mark. i only knew about this degree mid year and i asked how i could move and they said i have to be invited 😭 the requirements was high. the lecturer said to aim for a 90-95% average in all my units. now, i want to dream big but at the time, i was sitting on an 86% and i knew i wouldn't get 90% (or at least not easily and i was not prepared to sacrifice my mental health for this) 😭 i remember accepting that i was just meant to compete for fourth year and i just kept going. kept studying as i did before.

and then at the end of first year, i got an offer to move. and i thought "...oh." AND I REMEMBER I WAS ABOUT TO REJECT IT 😭 BECAUSE THE 'TRADEOFF' WAS BIG (ie. compulsory units, study abroad (as mentioned in the fic!!) etc.) and like i mentioned before, i had backup plans and i think admist my panicking and anxiety, i fell in love with the jobs that the backup plans could offer me. but then my friends and family reminded the past me that would love this more than anything and with their support, even if maybe i don't want to go to this specific fourth year in this major, the title of my new bachelor degree is really good as it mixes theory, research and job experiences in the real world in an undergraduate degree.

so, i ended up accepting it and...i don't want this to seem like "yay! my life is great now! woohoo!!" because these compulsory units are hard 😭 and i honestly have moments when i just want to contact the office and be like "hey! respectfully and kindly, transfer me back please!!"

another thing about this is that, now that i'm accepted in this, i'm scared of failing even more now. i think it'll hurt me a lot and it'll take a big hit on me if i do considering that i feel like i sacrificed a lot.

but hey...if i do my best, what else can i do at that point? what regrets will i have if i tried my very hardest? i don't know what the future holds for me. i could fail. i could pass. but what i DO know is that i don't know. and because of that, i'll keep doing my best.

but this is my story 🫂 it seems kind of made up now that i read it and people can believe that if they want to 😅 but this is me and my story!! i hope you're doing well anon! you can do this!! 🥹

finished your hyunjae timestamp and i am missing my mother so much. my father talks about her rly nicely and i cried reading your story thinking of how much she probably sacrificed so much for me. i can't help but think you missed someone when you wrote it or is it just me maybe. thank you for a nice one

oh wow...this came at the right time...

hi anon 🫂 i hope you're doing well and I'm sorry that you have lost a big figure in your life. my mum is the one family member that i have that i can just anything and everything to. i feel bad that sometimes she has to listen to that part of me and there's been times when she has let out a few tears here and there for me which hurts a lot. in a parent's perspective i can't imagine how much it hurts to see their child cry and have almost no control to stop it but my mum reminds me that i can always open up to her if i need to 💞

and i'm so so so very sure that your mum would've been the same to you.

honestly, i wasn't rly missing anyone when i wrote it. i wrote the timestamp with a thankful heart towards my mum ❤️‍🩹💞

but currently, i am missing a lot of people.

one is my friend that i lost contact with in 2020. she moved back to her hometown and i found out through the school. given that i know the backstory, i think about her every day and i always pray that's she doing well. she cut off all contact for a few days and i asked the school to update me if anything. the move was unexpected in a way that the school told me she's been unenrolled in the morning i came and when i visited her house after school, they already packed away. she was the reason why i stayed in that (new) high school and i remember thinking of moving back. but then i realised she made me feel included in her group and i stayed. i'm very thankful for that and for her.

other people that i've been missing are some people here. they're "mutuals"--but i honestly rather say friends--that i met here on this app.

i don't think i'm overreacting when i say friends instead of mutuals. at first, i thought i might be and they might've thought of me of just someone they met on the internet. but the green circle around their profile pic on instagram and/or their phone number on my phone tells me otherwise (...or so i hope...?) i think about them a lot and i hope they're doing fine at the moment as i try and sort out my messy life and feelings 🥹 when i come back, i want to be more honest with them and just be more transparent with my feelings about them instead of running away. i feel like at this point, it's safe for me to be honest with them and if for some reason they don't like me for the way i think then maybe it's just not meant to be. it's all currently a work in progress. i don't know if they'll read this post (a big part of me wishes they will) but i do miss you guys contrary to what you may believe and i don't know when i'll have the courage to text any of you back but just know that i'm always wishing happiness for you.

to you too anon 🫂 i hope that my story didn't hurt you and that you found some comfort in it. i hope that you're surrounded with people who'll always support and love you as you are because everyone deserves to be loved for who they are.

and if they say/act otherwise, throw them away!!

i promise you, unconditional love is the best type of love.

hey honey, how are you? i just saw your post and i can assure you that, one day, you'll find the peace, love and joy you've been waiting for. i know waiting is a difficult thing, but i'm convinced, deep in my heart, that you'll get there in the end. you're so brave izzy, you're a little ray of sunshine who never fails to brighten our days — and even if you doubt it, keep in mind that many people watch over you and appreciate you in the nicest of ways. time will eventually bring you what you want, and even if you're awfully impatient, i know you're capable of waiting bravely for that day. you're the best, and i believe in you. and i promise you, life will be the kindest to you, because you deserve it one hundred percent. so, while you're waiting for love to knock at your door the way you wish it does, know that i, from wherever i am, love you the same way the moon loves the sun.

hey anon 🫂 i'm doing slightly better. i took time last night for myself and i think that worked a bit.

thank you for writing this and letting me wake up to this message. you may be a mutual (a friend if you feel comfortable with that label), a reader or maybe just someone who found my post through the tags but i'm thankful and really appreciate how you took your time to send this message in. if i do know you, i hope we had great interactions (and hopefully more...?) and if i don't know you, thank you for being extending your kindness to someone you don't know well 💌 reach out to me if you need 🫂

it's interesting how the moon loves the sun. it's something i was thinking about during uni. i didn't search anything up and i have no idea what their story is but knowing how the sun is fire and the moon is cool, it's beautiful how opposites still manage to love the other.

will definitely search up their story 🌙 💗 ☀️

i hope you're doing well and thank you for sending this in ❤️‍🩹

Were you ever scared of releasing fanfics that are really personal to your life and explicitly saying it?

I think it's cool and I appreciate it but I could never be able to press that post button

YES!!! ALWAYS!!!

ahem...sorry about that i got a bit carried away 😭 but hi anon!! 🥰 simply to answer your question: yes. every. single. time.

and it's not a 'were' because i still am very scared. every time i write about something relating to something close to my heart, there are three main things:

mentions of anxiety and depression

am i going to be alright after this? as in! what will people think of me after? with every story i post under my 'especially to you' series, comes a real part of me that you will learn about. just because i post it on the internet, doesn't mean i'm invincible to the internet!!

will people understand? my series is centred around real-life struggles, mainly ones that i recognise are due to my anxiety and depression. my diagnosis has heavily changed my perspective on life especially when i'm aware of the before and after shift.

will people be interested and will they understand? will people be open-minded in how i approach my struggles written in my stories? will people be triggered? or will people be heard and healed? these are however factors i can't control but i always hope for the latter and will always try my best to avoid the former by using the genre/warnings/notes sections in my stories.

majority of readers (well, the ones i asked) prefer something that isn't close to their lives. most people (again, the ones i asked) read because they want to escape reality which is not what most of my writings are about. that being said, i genuinely respect all reasons for writing and reading.

i write because it has mentally benefited me and i choose to write about human struggles because i grew up in an environment where you should never think you're struggling and always be thankful for what you have.

but being thankful doesn't mean you're not allowed to struggle and a lot of people tend to overlook that

i write these topics because in my personal opinon, i don't think that's the right mindset to have. i don't think struggling means you're not thankful for what you have. it just means that you're facing a new challenge in life that you may not be prepared for 🫂

(also, i can never press the post button either!! most of my stories are scheduled!! even if it's a minute from when i post it, or an hour or days, most of it is scheduled!!)

...omg i need to stop writing essays for my ask answers

hii izzy! i just wanna let u know that ur soul is one of the purest things i've ever seen <33 🫂

and hi anon! 🫂 i just wanted to let you know that this made me melt a bit and you're so sweet for sending this in 😭💖

Hello! Just hopping in to say that I love your banners (and your stories). Have a good day!

hi anon!! 😁 thank you so much for reading and loving my editting 🥰 have a good day!! 💕

hi izzy!!! will u be doing a 100 followers event or the sort when you reach a milestone where people can request a trope with an idol or smth?

hey anon! thanks for sending this in 🥰 to be truly honest, i don't think i'll be holding those kinds of events anytime soon 🥹 and it's not because i don't like receiving requests or of the kind but because i have a lot of buzzing ideas that i do want to write about and would like to prioritise those first!

i did have a look at my wips a few weeks ago and found some that i could combine and 'save' some that i dropped but i think it'll become super overwhelming for me if i add any more 😭 plus, i don't want to potentially receive a request and take ages to write it 🫂 it would be in my head all day and would make me feel really guilty that in a way, i didn't keep my words of what i was planning to do 🥹

but thank you for asking this and i hope you understand! have a nice day/night!! 💞

(note. i'm so sorry i'm responding two months later 😭)

hi izzy,

I hope you don't mind me doing this on anon but I just wanted to say in response to the two anons who seemed to have a problem with your work that there is absolutely nothing wrong in the nature of the topics that you're choosing to write about. You're neither approaching it insensitively nor are you forcing your content upon anyone and that's actually quite important because anyone who chooses to engage with it is therefore doing so of their own free will like those anons seem to have done.

You've even addressed the issue of content warnings too to make sure that people know what they'll be getting into so honestly, there's not much more you can do beyond that if they choose to continue reading. But you, having taken those actions, would already know that.

I've not read through all of your works (which is a damn shame) but even I have to acknowledge the importance of the topics that you address in your personal series. Not all fiction (fan made or not) exists to perpetuate typical notions of romance. And actually, it's so important to have media (whether it be in the form of books or whatnot) that addresses mental health and other such topics in order to circulate and normalise those discussions. It's so easy for people to say they advocate for mental health, etc. but when someone does something that could positively impact the field, they're quick to reject it because it's uncomfortable for them. Life isn't always comfortable for everyone and THAT'S the reality of it.

And the notes about how writing isn't meant to reflect reality, etc. is absolute nonsense. The whole point of writing is that authors put to paper the words they wish to read or the stories they want to share. It's not an exclusive field. And you're doing just that. Sure, your work may not give everyone the escape they want but you never claimed it did. Plus, not everyone engages in reading to escape. Some people read to be comforted, to relax, or simply because they want to. And your work is so important for the former.

Most importantly, it helped you! Writing is your outlet and no one should be allowed to take that from you simply because it doesn't meet their standards of what writing should or shouldn't be. It would be a shame for anyone to lose literary integrity simply because people don't understand how impactful your words can be to the people that read it and those that need it (and that includes yourself).

I really hope they don't discourage you from writing not now and not ever because honestly, from what I have read so far, it's important for you but also for others that you're able to put the work you want out there.

Anyways, I wish you all the best for the future and sorry for my messy rant!

hi anon 🥹 i'm sorry i'm responding this encouragement of yours pretty late 😭 i wanted to make sure i wrote a really nice reply back with all the points you made here, making sure that i convey my gratefulness to you for this 💝

i remember reading this for the first time and my first reaction was to panic first because well...as you mentioned in your ask, i haven't had the best times with anon asks 🥹 in saying that! anons like you and others have come to my inbox to send my encouragements and i'm really glad for you all 🫂

thank you for supporting in the topic that i write about, i really appreciate this ❤️‍🩹 mental health is still such an interesting topic when being talked about in public. in a closed off space, for example, between friends or between a professional, it just stays there but open the door just a little bit, and somewhere in the crowd, you'll see someone glaring at you for talking about it. i grew up knowing nothing about it and so moving to a culture where it's heavily emphasised is something that i'll always be thankful for. being able to talk about it has helped me so much and that's why i choose to write these and i don't see myself stopping to write about these. but of course, content warnings!! thank you for acknowledging that i'm doing all i can for this 🫂

i see the way topics of mental health have developed in my life and for me, it's touching that most people are now able to talk about it without being judged and i genuinely think it should be like that going forward. i do understand how these topics can be uncomfortable but that's why i think setting boundaries are key. for writing, i do this through warnings, for friendships and conversations, i ask about how in-depth i can talk about each topic.

concealing it, ignoring it and/or stopping to talk about these topics will only make it worse. and this goes with anything that should be talked about more.

when i first started writing, i knew that i wanted to talk about these kinds of things but i was too scared to jump into it straight away. that's why it was really hard for me to release cupid's mistake because the main idea of that story is a part of me that not even everyone in real life knows about me. it has always been a goal for me to connect with my readers a bit further by explaining the background of the story and how it relates to me. i think this step further is important for telling people that they're not alone if they're facing similar issues; because that's how the people around me has helped me in my mental health journey.

i thought about why i was scared at first but i decided to go for it and i told myself: if people judge me because of this, then they don't have to read it!! it's similar in real life where if people judge me over this, then they don't have to be around me or be my friend. it's as simple as that to me. i can see why readers who don't write think that stories could lean towards being written not based on reality but you're correct anon, it's not an exclusive field and everyone reads for different reasons 🥹🫂 just the same as how writers will write for different reasons. for me, it has always been to talk about these topics and provide comfort. but yes, not all my writings are centred around that because i still love other genres too!!

writing has helped me in ways that i never thought of and for me, it's a healthy hobby that i hope will continue to be 💜 i'm even thinking of taking a unit on creative writing next semester but we shall see about that!! 🥰 if i do, hopefully i can make the quality of my writing better!! 🫶

thank you so much for supporting my work, anon 💝 genuinely, this gave me so much comfort and it's not messy at all by the way! i think this response is messier 😭🤣😭 i have no idea who you are, if we're mutuals, or if we have ever interacted before but if someday you're ever ready to reveal yourself, i just want to give you the biggest hug but for now, here you go: 🫂🫂🫂🫂 thank you for making me feel welcomed and loved in this community 💕

all the best to you too!! have an awesome rest of the day/night!! ☀️🌙

This might be sudden but

What would you feel like if a mutual of yours was lying about their age?

Just a random thought

hi anon 👋

to be honest, i don't see a point in lying about age at all, under any circumstances for any reason. mutuals or non-mutuals. especially when it's about social media, or in this case i'm going to assume tumblr.

in this world (not just the online world but also the physical one), age is used as a 'benchmark' to make sure that everyone is well protected in what they do.

my first reaction to anyone who would lie their age to me is that i would be very uncomfortable. again, this is because i believe that there is absolutely no need to lie about your age for anything. i know of people who lie about their age and i have never understood it. even if it's just for something 'harmless' like getting a student discount (though people usually ask for your student id) or a kids discount because when it works once, you're rewarded with saving money and get away with it, you're going to do it next time.

for me lying about something about something that is almost like a protective factor in our world in my opinion and perspective is unnecessary under any circumstances.

and to you anon, i'm not sure whether you're my mutual or not, or if you're lying about your age to your other mutuals, or if you're just asking for a random opinion but this is my answer to you. if you are my mutual and you've lied about your age, i guess depending on what we've talked about and such, i would be very alarmed but all in all, very uncomfortable. i'm not sure if lying about your age was seen to be something fun or a joke at first but if you do think like that, and you haven't been able to say the truth (on the assumption that we are mutuals and you're lying), then i do think that even though being honest now would be very hard, i think it's best to give me some space because i do think our age can be a protective factor especially when on the internet.

Can I ask how you got your 'to reader' and 'from izzy' trademark? 😭 I'm trying to find unique ones like yours but my brain is saying no 😭

Hi anon! 🤭

Honestly I remember thinking about my username just like it only happened yesterday 🥰

I was stuck too and I actually searched for inspiration on the internet but nothing really stood out for me ☹️ but then I asked myself what kind of stories I wanted to write etc. and because my a lot of stories are very much my experiences in life (that's what I planned for from the very start!), the personal exchange of information felt like writing a letter to the world.

Kind of like a "Hi everyone, this is my story..." feeling and so thinking of letters and stories, that's how I came up with the 'to: reader' and 'from: izzy' idea 🥰

Are you a writer too? If so, good luck and I hope I can read your stories soon!! 💞

'show you the stars' was amazing. I will be rereading it over and over again.

Hi anon!! 🥰

Thanks so much for the feedback! I'm glad that you thought of it in that way 🤭 That fic is quite special to me to be honest and I'm glad that it's receiving a lot of love 🫶

Have a great rest of the day/night!!

Hey... :(

How do you deal with criticism online? Sorry you had to go through that...

hi anon 🫂 i'm so so sorry that i have only seen this now 😭 not very good at scrolling past new notifications 😭😭 i'm going to answer this ask whilst assuming that you mean criticism as mean/hate.

to be perfectly honest: i don't handle it well. I've gotten some here and there, yet it seems like i still haven't developed 'resistance' towards it. but i guess for me, i take a step back and think about whether it might be a 'valid' attack or not. so for example, are they attacking my work because they just don't like it (which in that case, don't read it), or are they attacking my work because i forgot to put certain warnings?

i guess the latter isn't really an attack (but i perceive it in that way because i panic at that fact that i probably hurt someone when i had every chance not to). if it's the latter case, i usually just tell myself over and over again to learn from it and make sure to take extra care for my future works and edit old ones. this is a long process.

if it's the former, i usually think about it for a while and then remind myself that i don't write for other people. plus, people can just click away and the fact that they haven't and decided to even send a mean comment tells me that they have quite spare time in their hands imo (and they just decided to spend it on me because well, they're reading my work and i'm the most available to them at that moment to receive such a mean ask)

another one is just making sure that i have supportive friends as well around me. after that, i turn off asks for a while (which seems like i'm running away but you just gotta do what you have to do), and slowly turn it back on with anon off, then back to 'normal' with anon on.

i'm assuming that you're sending this because you're going through something similar. if so, i'm so sorry that it's happening to you. don't let their words get to you (WAY easier said than done) because it's your page and your writing style, and you should keep that close to you. if you change it, it's no longer yours. and when it's no longer yours, there's a big chance that you no longer will find joy in your works either. don't do that to yourself as it's very unfair (and ofc, the person is also very unfair to you).

block the account/anon! no shame in that! you're just creating a safe space for yourself! that's what matters most!