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Not Over You
Julia…
Hearing that name was like touching a live wire.
Jet tried to convince him that it was a common woman’s name… true enough, but Spike felt in his gut that this was his Julia. A connection to the woman he’d fallen for hard and fast when he’d been nothing but a syndicate lackey, a beast valued for the damage it could inflict on the targets it was set upon. She had seen more to him than the destruction he could cause. She had seen a heart beating within his chest, something he’d denied possessing for years and years.
She had been the start of his undoing.
He’d been trying to convince himself since he left Tharsis that he was over her. What other choice did he have? She had left him hanging in the wind, forced to flee on his own. Her fate was entirely in question. Why hadn’t she met him? Why had she abandoned him?
It had hurt more than he thought possible.
And now suddenly a chance to find out what happened. A chance to rediscover a life with her.
The odds of her using her own name as a code seemed astronomically high. It was more than likely that this had nothing to do with her at all. But his heart was beating a mile a minute, his pulse racing, and he knew he couldn’t sit on his ass and do nothing while she slipped through his fingers here on this frigid moon.
Memories of their time together brought him a measure of warmth as he threw on the first jacket he could find in Faye’s shambles of a room. His own jacket had been missing and he couldn’t be bothered to look for it, there was no time to waste. Besides, if Faye was gone then she wouldn’t care about some coat she’d left in her own haste to leave.
There was nothing for it. He had to go and go now. Jet was putting up a fuss but Spike knew it was all bluster. The other man was angry about Faye being gone and about Spike bailing now too. Spike knew how much their presence mattered despite anything Jet might say otherwise. He was a man who formed attachments and cared about others even when he shouldn’t.
But Ed was still on board, and Ein too for that matter. Sure, Faye might never come back - and good luck finding her if she was trying to hide - and Spike himself didn’t know what the future held… but Jet wouldn’t be alone even so. That thought gave Spike all the assurance he needed that his own departure wouldn’t break the other man.
He had to follow up on this lead. Had to see where this led. He had no choice - frustrating as it was, he was just not over her.