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do you think andre ever felt betrayed by cal? do you think that in his last moments he realized cal didn’t care about the true meaning of zero day, just that he took as many people out with him? do you think he knew that he was being lied to? that he had been tricked into thinking someone was the same as him? that the cure to his loneliness was the reason he would end up six feet under, completely and utterly abandoned and forsaken?

andre loved cal. cal loved the idea of andre.

andre loved cal’s mind and heart and dedication to zero day. he loved the way cal’s hands held his face and the way cal’s lips felt against his own. andre loved sleeping next to cal, staying up until the early morning and waking up late in the day. andre loved cal enough to die with him.

cal loved that andre was his accomplice, his best friend, and that andre loved him. cal loved that andre didn’t have anyone else, that he would always be first in andre’s mind and heart. cal loved the way his family treated andre as their own and how andre took care of his siblings. cal loved the idea of andre so much that he didn’t want anyone else to have the older boy when he passed, so he took andre with him.

andre and cal both had love in their hearts. they just loved different things.