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2 years ago

Title: In The Palm of Your Hand

Synopsis: Kaeya tells you one of his deepest secrets that he’s kept hidden for a some time, and he watches you walk out of his life. All before burning Mondstadt to the ground.

Disclaimer(s): I wrote the traveler as a self insert so you as the reader can simply imagine yourself as the traveler in this story. There are references like “Honorary Knight” and “Traveler” but there are rare references regarding the appearance of y/n, and hopefully this allows you to be more immersed into the story! I also tried my best to use they/them pronouns to keep it as gender neutral as possible.

Warnings: angst and hurt. Somewhat tipsy Kaeya. Betrayal from the Calvary captain. All that jazz.

~

“The moon is beautiful, isn’t it?”

“Huh?” You turned to face the Cavalry captain who stood beside you, his head tipped upwards, his gaze fixed at the glowing planet in the night sky. “The moon?”

“Yes, it’s beauty never fails to captivate me whenever nighttime falls upon the city. The planet is very mysterious.”

“How so…?” You asked, although you weren’t quite interested in what he had to say about the glowing planet. You just wanted to hear him talk.

Kaeya turned his head to glance at you, gazing over the clueless expression you wore with a blank stare. Soon, the corner of his lip curved upward. “I’m sure the planet has its own secrets. Sure, humans may have discovered the planet, but what really lies within those rocks and craters?” He shrugged his shoulders. “It may be hiding something. It’s not that different to how humans function.”

“How could a planet be related to humans?”

He laughed. “Everyone has their own secrets, Traveler. The moon is no different.” He began to walk towards the front doors of Mondstadt, swinging his sword from side to side before throwing it against his back. You watched the bright sword disappear into dust, your eyes soon latching themselves onto the back of his head. “It may be hiding treasure for all we know.”

“You and your unhealthy treasure obsession…” you rolled your eyes with a small smile while following him through the large gates of Mondstadt. Huffman and Lawrence saluted to their captain and greeted you with, “Welcome back, Honorary Knight.”

You just finished your commissions for the day, and although it would’ve taken you a shorter amount of time to complete it, they took much longer today; the reason being that Kaeya suddenly wanted to tag along with you and “assist” you during your commissions. You found it suspicious, knowing very well that Kaeya usually doesn’t go out of Mondstadt that often (since Jean is always bugging him to stop running off during duty), but you decided to accept his so-called-assistance for the day.

Little did you know that you’d be doing the exact opposite of what you were supposed to be doing.

Kaeya was a distraction. Or, to put more precisely, he wanted to distract you. During your commissions, the eyepatched man followed you around like a lost puppy and did whatever he could to drag your commissions out for longer than they should’ve been: he annoyed some pyro slimes which resulted in you two having to fight them off, he forced you to let him lead you to your next commission site but ended up “getting lost” in Wolvendom, and he accidentally walked right into a hillichurl campsite.

Your commissioners were a bit upset with how unusually slow you were today, but when they saw Kaeya accompanying you, they were immediately swooned by his twinkling eye and honey-like words that they had forgotten why they were upset with you in the first place. His power to switch up a person’s mood was a bit scary, in your opinion. Regardless, you were glad to finally get some rest after your long day.

Or so you thought.

“Traveler, I hope you’re not planning on heading in already.” Kaeya’s laugh rang through the mellow city roads. You felt his hand push your lower back. “Come have a drink with me at Angel’s Share. This day is worth celebrating, no?”

“What’s there to celebrate? Almost getting burnt by those Abyss Mages?” You sighed when Kaeya made you turn towards the road on the right, heading straight towards Angel’s Share. “I’m tired, Kaeya. I want to get some rest.”

“Come on, you can’t be tired already! The night has just begun, dear.”

“But Kaeya—“

“Please,” his breath fanned your face as he gazed down at you, his diamond-like pupil glowing under the moonlight. “Just one drink, have one drink with me… and then I’ll let you go.”

Well, how could you deny him when he was looking at you with such a desperate expression? As exhausted as you were, the Captain was pulling out each of your heartstrings, one by one. “Fine,” you sighed. “But you owe me three Fruity Skewers.”

He smiled, “Looks like you know how to bargain, Honorary Knight.”

~

After five drinks, you were watching Kaeya draw circles upon the palm of your right hand. You had a cup of your usual apple juice while Kaeya drank his favorite wine, indulging one glass after another. Five glasses in, Kaeya’s face was slightly flushed but he still seemed to be in his right mind… somewhat. “Kaeya,” you watched as he drew a star on your palm with his finger. “I should really go home now.”

“Mm,” he hummed as a response but you knew he wasn’t actually listening to you.

“I need you to let go of my hand.”

And again, he continued to draw little shapes that tickled your palm. He had been doing this activity for the past ten minutes and you were starting to wonder if he was sober or if he was drunk. You’ve hung out with Kaeya while he drank wine before but you’ve never seen him other than when he’s on the verge of being tipsy, so you weren’t quite sure where he sat on his drunk scale. Suddenly, he says, “I have to tell you something.”

You peered at his blank expression, seeing how his exposed eye gazed at his finger dancing upon the surface of your palm. “Tell me.”

“But I’m too scared to tell you.” His finger left your palm and his two large hands held yours, engulfing it into his palms. “It’s pathetic of me, the Cavalry Captain, to be scared of something so trivial as this…” he chuckled, letting out a heartfelt laugh. “If I told you now, I’d probably forget about it in the morning… but I know I won’t be able to forget this feeling, no matter how much I drink.”

You weren’t sure what he meant by that but you nodded your head anyway. Although he was spitting out nonsense, you said, “You can tell me whenever you’re ready.”

He chuckled, flipping your hand over so that your palm now faced the ground. “I’m… not sure how to say it.” His thumbs caress your knuckles before turning your palm to face upwards again. “Being with you is so… intoxicating. I want to choose my words carefully.”

“Are you sure that it’s not the wine?”

Kaeya let out a breathy laugh, his shoulders shaking up and down. “Who knows? The wine is definitely doing its job, but it cannot compare to how you make me feel.”

You rolled your eyes at his flirtatious remark, chuckling. Kaeya was known for his flirty comments so you weren’t quite bothered by them as much as you used to be. It was somewhat refreshing whenever he’d talk to you in such a way. As much as you hated to admit it, you knew you liked it when he spoke to you that way. It gave you butterflies, it made your heart skip a beat… on the inside, you were a complete mess when it came to him.

He was the intoxicating one to you.

“Traveler, there you are!” You turned your head and saw Huffman making his way to you and Kaeya. “I was looking all over for you.”

“Oh? And what do you need my dear Honorary Knight for?” Kaeya slightly slurred as he continued to play with your fingers. You watched Huffman’s eyes widen as he saluted his captain, not expecting to meet him this late into the night. “You’ve interrupted our drinking session.”

“M-My apologies, Captain…” Huffman nervously glanced to the side before taking out an enveloped letter from his pocket and handing it to you. “This is for you. A messenger bird from Liyue dropped it off and the envelope said to give it to you immediately.”

“Liyue?” With your free hand, you grabbed the letter from Huffman.

Please give this to (Y/N) as soon as it arrives in Mondstadt.

You wiggled your other hand out from Kaeya’s grasp to open up the envelope and take out the letter. Scanning over the words, you read that Xingqiu needed some assistance with gathering information from the Teyvat travel guide for his new book. He wanted you to travel to Liyue as soon as possible. “Hm?” Kaeya propped his chin on his hand and peered over your shoulder to look over the invitation. “The Teyvat Travel Guide? Who would need such a useless thing?” His eye scanned over the name of the person who sent you the invitation, “Who is this… Xingqiu person? A friend of yours?”

“Yes, one of the few that I’ve made during my time there,” you slid the invitation back into the envelope. “I’ll have to leave tomorrow.”

“Do you want company on your way there?”

“You know that you can’t come with me, Kaeya.”

The blue haired man shrugged his shoulders and blew some hair away from his face. He took this as a signal that you’d have to leave him now, which caused him to pout. He huffed, slightly annoyed at how fast you declined him, but smiled nevertheless. “It was worth a shot,” he nodded. “Well, I should let you go now. I’ll come meet you before you leave. Shall we meet in front of Angel’s Share for a toast on behalf of your journey?”

“Why drink wine when you said being with me is just as intoxicating?” You stepped out from your seat and held in your laugh at how baffled Kaeya’s expressed appeared due to your response. “I’ll see you tomorrow. We can meet at the front gates.” You turned around to thank Huffman, who stood there awkwardly the whole time, and saluted you before leaving back to his post. Turning to Kaeya, you pointed your finger at him. “Don’t stay out too late, alright? I don’t want to see you hungover tomorrow morning.”

“I can’t make any promises,” he shifted in his seat. “But I’ll be sure to sober up soon.”

“You better.” You gathered your belongings and headed towards the door but turned to look at the Knight once more, seeing him staring at you with his head tilted to the side. He raised his eyebrow, wanting to know what you stopped for. The simple action was enough to make you want to stay with him even longer, but you knew you couldn’t. “Goodnight, Kaeya.”

The man smiled, his expression softening. “Goodnight, (y/n). Sweet dreams.”

And with a wave, you left Angel’s Share to head back to your home.

~

The word that you were going back to Liyue went around Mondstadt pretty quickly. While you were only expecting Kaeya to be waiting at the front gate, you saw multiple other figures standing around him. From far away, you could already distinguish who those figures were: Barbara, Amber, and the little one being Klee, who was the first to spot you walking towards them. “(Y/N)! Over here!” She yelled, jumping up and down with dodoco at her side.

When you finally stood in front of them, Klee was quick to grab your hand and tug on it. “(Y/N), are you really leaving Mondstadt again? Can Klee come with you? Pretty please?”

“I’m sorry, Klee. Maybe next time, okay?” You pat the hat that rested on top of her head. “I’ll make sure to bring you back a souvenir.” She pouted but nodded her head, liking the sound of getting a present for when you get back.

“Do you promise?” She looked up at you with big, hopeful eyes.

“I promise.”

“Yay!” She cheered and jumped around, celebrating in her spot. “We heard that you were leaving back to Liyue so we came to send you off,” Barbara said as she gestured to her and Amber. “The Acting GrandMaster would’ve came along but she’s head deep in all of her paper work again, so Klee came on her behalf.”

“Yep! She said to stay safe and have lots of fun in Liyue!” Klee swayed side to side with her little dodoco plushie in her hands. “Thank you,” you smiled at them all. “Please tell Jean that I give her my thanks. I’ll be sure to get you all souvenirs as well.”

“Awh, there’s no need to do that! You’re probably going to have to give everyone in Mondstadt a souvenir at this point.” Amber shakes her head while resting her hands on her hips, her long brown hair swaying.

“Now, now, don’t be a party pooper, Amber. I want a souvenir as well.” Kaeya stepped up and crossed his arms over his chest. By the looks of it, he didn’t seem hungover. But then again, Kaeya was extremely good at concealing his weaknesses. “You will get me one, won’t you (y/n)?”

“I’ll try to find something for everyone,” you decided while adjusting your backpack. “Thank you all for seeing me off. I’ll be back in a few days after I help Xingqiu with his book.”

“Have fun, Honorary Knight! And bring back lots of goodies!” Klee waved and gave you a big hug before leaving with Barbara and Amber to go back to the Knight headquarters. However, Kaeya remained beside you at the gate. You looked up at him and he looked down at you, his smirk only growing. “Are you hung over right now?”

“You have a sharp eye, don’t you?” He massaged his temple with one hand. “I drank a few more glasses after you left last night. It was quite the celebration, even though I was lonesome at the bar.”

“Will you be alright?” You asked, which seemed to have caught him off guard.

He stared at you, wide eyed, and soon began to laugh while holding a hand over his stomach. His whole body shook and you were confused as to what he thought was so funny. “Ah, pardon me for my abrupt laughter, but shouldn’t it be me that asks you such a question?” Kaeya let out a deep breath while wiping away a single tear from the corner of his eye. “I’ll be just as I always am, my dear. Is it because of my hangover that you worry for me? Or is it because you simply despise the thought of being away from me?”

Both, you thought. “You need to take better care of yourself, Kaeya. You’re young but you drink as if you’re in your 50’s with no life to live. Please drink carefully and cautiously.”

“Oh, I’m hurt that you view me in such a distasteful way. I like to drink wine, mainly because I like the taste, but also because I like how it makes me feel.” He took a step closer to you, his right hand reaching over to graze his fingers over your hairpin. “Without you, I’ll only have wine to rely on.” He stares into your eyes, so intense that you swore you could see his diamond-like pupil twinkle like a star. “Besides, I like to live my life to the fullest. Everyday is like a treasure hunt.”

“Just promise me that you won’t do anything stupid.”

Kaeya laughs and rests his hand upon your shoulder, rubbing it gently. “I’m not one to make promises, my dear. But for you…” he poked your forehead with his finger. “I’ll try my best.”

You weren’t sure if you should keep his word on that but you chose to believe him anyway. You knew that he would be okay, he was one of the captains of the Knights of Favious after all, but you couldn’t help but want to stay with him. You didn’t want to leave him alone. “Well, I shouldn’t keep you any longer. Your friends from Liyue must be waiting upon your arrival,” Kaeya gestured his hand towards the front gates of the city, his smile unwavering. “Stay safe.”

“You too.” Giving him a small smile, you finally made your way towards the front gates to depart for Liyue.

“Wait.”

You turned around to face Kaeya, who’s smile was now turned upside down into a frown. “What is it?” You asked him.

Slowly walking towards you, Kaeya grabbed your right hand and faced your palm upwards. His finger made contact with the middle of your palm and began to draw what seemed like letters. His hands were quick and fast, making it hard for you to decipher what he wrote on your palm. “There,” he finally smiled. He let go of your hand but you still felt the ticklish feeling of his finger grazing your skin. “Now, hurry up and get going. You don’t want to show up late, do you?”

As if you weren’t the one who just stopped me, you thought. “I’m going, for real now, so don’t stop me.” You gave him a threatening stare. “I’ll see you when I get back.”

Kaeya’ s lips parted slightly but closed soon after. He took in a deep breath and nodded his head. You smiled before waving goodbye and walking out of the gates of Mondstadt. You didn’t look back at him but you could tell that Kaeya was still staring at you as you walked off; you knew that if you looked back at him, you wouldn’t want to leave. However, when you looked down at your right palm, you found yourself trying to remember each letter he wrote. You mentally smacked yourself for not paying close attention but assumed that it was probably one of his pranks again… but that didn’t stop you from trying your hardest to decipher his message.

Meanwhile, Kaeya stared at you as walked out of the city that would soon fall. His conscience felt guilty for deceiving you but it was for the best. He had to do what he needed to do; he needed to do his job. Before the chaos would unfold, the ivory haired man swore to himself that he would tell you what was weighing down on his heart. He planned to tell you last night but the coward deep in his heart forced it down his throat to silence him. Today would be his very last chance— his last chance to tell you he loved you.

He cowardly silenced himself again as he watched you walk through the gates but smiled at the tingling feeling in his finger. He could still remember how soft your hand felt and how his heart pounded ever so loudly within his chest as he wrote his message out on your palm.

I love you.

Kaeya displayed his heart in the palm of your hand while his misery was planted deep into the palm of his hand, the seed planting itself there before he was even born. He took a deep breath and closed his eye, imagining the sight of you laughing and being happy in Liyue with your other companions. He imagined a scenario where you were living your life to the fullest, even if he wasn’t there with you. The image made him happy, he could even express the feeling as euphoria, and that very feeling was what kept him from feeling guilty for deceiving your pure spirit. Now, with you gone, he could finally do what he was fated to do right when he was put into this very city.

“Did (y/n) just leave?”

Kaeya opened his eye and turned around to see his most favorite alchemist, Albedo, making his way towards him. Kaeya turned to face the ash blonde haired man, crossing his arms over his chest. “Yes,” he answered. “Things are going according to plan. I assume it was you who fabricated the letter from your companion in Liyue?”

“Indeed.” Albedo answered. After a moment, he asks, “Are you sure you want things to end this way?” Kaeya raised his eyebrow, not knowing what he meant by that question when the answer was inevitable. “(Y/n) will eventually find out once they get back. Are you alright with having that guilt upon your shoulders?”

Kaeya stared at his friend and laughed. His body shook uncontrollably and he threw his head back, his laugh turning manic. “Oh, Albedo…” he inhaled and exhaled a deep but cold breath. “I’ve dealt with this guilt ever since I was a young one. This time is no different. As long as they are safe and happy,” he turned around. “Then I have nothing else to wish for.” He began making his way out of the gates of Mondstadt, hearing how Albedo followed beside him. “Now, let's get moving. We’re not frozen in place, after all.”

After that, Kaeya and Albedo never returned to the city they once called “home”. They left without a single trace, disappearing within thin air, and burnt the city down with them. With Mondstadt’s fall, Kaeya’s only wish was that you’d be safe and live a life without knowing his existence as a traitor. He would be the bad guy to everyone else, but to you, he wanted to be your Knight in shining armor. As long as you were in Liyue, he wouldn’t have to deal with the shock and despair on your face when you see Mondstadt crumbled into ashes and gravel.

As long as he knew you were alive, it didn’t matter to Kaeya if he had to be the villain. You were the hero of Mondstadt, the hero of Liyue, and the hero who saved him from utter chaos and destruction within his stone cold heart. He was never one to believe in the power of the Archon Gods, but just this once, Kaeya hoped that Barbatos would protect you for the rest of your life.

Even if he had to die, knowing that he placed his heart into the palm of your hands was enough to leave this world. He loved you, so dangerously to the point where he would risk destroying the whole world if it meant for your safety. After all, Kaeya was a villain. If he had to destroy Mondstadt for you, he would. And he will.


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