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I wonder if I ever make it out of life with memoirs like Anais Nin. I wonder who is going to read my story, who is going to sit for hours just to read my thoughts and be content with what I said. Who's gonna make home out of my writings; who's going to send my children letters about how much my life is meant for them; who's going to write an essay about how my life inspires women across the world.
I wonder if I ever make it out of life as a person. Not just a bystander in everyone's story.
I am in pain. And I can't explain it the way I draw scars between my prose. The feeling is so deep, so frustrating. It is making me drown in my own thoughts. I can't stay like this forever. I wished to be saved.
“Our class is the weakest of all the classes in the state. We have no weapon with which is to enforce our will.” - Virginia Woolf on Three Guineas pg. 97
I hope that you will posses yourselves of money enough to travel and to idle, to contemplate the future or the past of the world, to dream over books and loiter at street corners and let the line of thought dip deep into the stream.
- A Room of One’s Own by Virginia Woolf
There is something about you I can't explain to other people. Sometimes I think to myself, perhaps this is just how you make a fool of me. But how come you make a fool to someone by showing your vulnerability? You're not scorpio. And you have too much pride to show your true colors.
“Understand me. I’m not like an ordinary world. I have my madness, I live in another dimension and I do not have time for things that have no soul.”
— Charles Bukowski
Deep rooted in me, lies my umasked idealism. A girl longing for structural change.
A girl who thrives for resistance; whose thinking silenced by male domination.
This city has changed me in a manner I don't feel like I am myself anymore.
All I need is someone who believes in me. Don't need company nor help. Just someone who trusts my guts and my impulses.
He sailed through the world guided only by the dim lights of impulse and habit, confident that his course would throw up no obstacles so large that they could not be plowed with sheer force of momentum. - Richard Papen describing Bunny Corcoran reckless behavior (pg. 237 on Donna Tartt’s The Secret History)
It's funny how the panel during my thesis presentation agreed with my research but now even myself finds it not agreeable at all. Like I was too fixated on presenting so many data, the main idea is scrambled all over the place.
And despite how many flaws I’ve witnessed, I would still want to build the future with him. He won my heart a lifetime.
Today I decided to learn SFL and CDA because my work climate is not fun 🤕
“I hate it here so I will go to secret gardens in my mind. People need a key to get to. The only one is mine.” - Taylor Swift
I’ve been masking myself for 7 days straight, I just need to recharge my energy for a few days before getting back on my work and research 😔
I guess when you’re 23, you meet with a lot of different paths in life.
You can’t take two ways in the same time. Each way has its own turns and intersections. And sometimes when you look across, you see your friend get further and closer to their goals.
But funny thing is they’re the reason you keep going, because they show you great example of success regardless the path that you choose.
When you’re 23, you encounter a lot with questions “why it isn’t working for me?”
History is, on the contrary, a continuous struggle of individuals and groups to change what exists in each given moment. But for the struggle to be effective, these individuals and groups must feel superior to what exists, capable of educating society, etc - Antonio Gramsci
Critical self-consciousness signifies historically and politically the creation of intellectual cadres. A human mass does not "distinguish" itself and does not become independent "by itself" without organizing itself (in a broad sense), and there is no organization without intellectuals … without organizers and leader
Antonio Gramsci on Il materialismo storico (pg. 12)