Mars Speaks - Tumblr Posts

   why do i feel like life is slipping away from me. i have to have a career now. ive only just turned twenty and i feel the pressures of having what i want in my life. what is even possible for someone like me, can i obtain it. college is screaming on what do i purse do i go to a field to work for something that i dont even wish to want because i would love to be in the movies. or “lets be realistic,” but i am being realistic. i obsess over it and every other job i feel calls to be is not good enough wont provide for my lifestyle. i never said it was to live comfortably. 

 there is the pressures of being a woman, clearly someone with my looks should have someone around my arms. for god’s sake a man’s arm around my waist as he suffocates me into eating less and wearing more clothes to protect his agenda except when i would have to wear more makeup and less clothing to show off his friends?   why is it expected for forced to put my dreams aside because for some reason in this dynamic it’s expected i am to be nothing but the sideline cheerleader in his world. the big millionaire with the submissive wife that spends her time remaking the kitchen that hardly anyone but her will enjoy to the same amount.

and for the conversation of children. but that’s another thing.

for now, I will put myself in acting classes to start small. 

I deserve it.