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Life update...
I stumbled my feet a lot more than I expected. I failed my final test which caused me to suffer on a level that I never imagined. I know it's common to fail one or two tests, and I don't want to make it a big deal. But to fail on a test that you put all your efforts, energy, and heart into it was just another level of heartbreak. It feels like being late for a train you have been waiting for so long.
The failure did break me, but it also brought me into a lot of meditating on how the failure affected my life so far. I got another chance to be free, to enjoy little things while slowing down a bit, and perhaps being more of an adult than I was. For the most part, I can say that life has been treating me well.
I am thankful, or at least I learn to be thankful for the lesson learned for the last 6 months. Now I am praying and looking forward to what the future holds.
15/02/2023
If I ask God to put some of His wisdom in me. Will God give me what my heart desire? Or will He judge me for wanting more?
I desire for wisdom and knowledge, so I pursue my study, but I always feel like what I am capable of is so little comparing to the ambitions I have or achievement I have always desired.
Sometimes I wish I had more wisdom from God, to understand everything clearly, to achieve more than what I have already done. I have always been scared of not getting enough insight or knowledge.
Most of all deep down I am scared of being unable to understand what God wants me to do, or what He wants me to become in this world. If I had more of His wisdom, will I still be scared of being clueless?
One thing that I hope for now, may God always gives my heart the right desire.
old screenshot but did I lie ?
Improving your mental health is a journey. It can't be accomplished in a day or two. But if you put in the work by eating better, exercising, meditating, sleeping, and just taking care of yourself overall, you may see a huge difference in your mental and overall health.
Imagine if someone made a meditation video that was like 8 hours long so people would fall asleep to it, but then a few hours in Rick Astley's Never Gonna Give You Up started playing so you'd wake up in the middle of the night just to be rickrolled.
Ashoka Tano meditating with lightsaber crystals on a rocky jungle planet. Takes place between the Ashoka novel and Rebels.