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The day I lost you ||NCT

Pairing: Kim Jungwoo x Reader

Summary: You and Jungwoo have been together for a long time, before he was a trainee you were already friends so everything that happened between you was always natural, and so was the end.

Word Count: 929

Warnings: It's really angst

A/N: Here it's your request dear anon. I hope y’all enjoy it and also consider this as my formal application to be part of the fandom.

At times I thought that we were going through a difficult phase, as every couple goes through, and that we could solve it as always, by talking and expressing what we felt. This was always the agreement, we didn't have to shout or raise our voices for the other to hear and try to understand our point of view.

But at other times I was sure that there was much more going on, more than I knew and could control. The conversations went nowhere, I didn't have anything to say, but I always wanted to know if he did. If he had decided to tell me what was wrong, what had changed, but he always answered the same thing.

"If there was something wrong, I would have told you by now, I just have too much on my mind right now", the same words I was hoping for rang directly in my ears, at least I could close my eyes and pretend he was beside me now.

This was just one of several times that I heard this and I wanted to believe it more than anything, but I couldn't because all the signs were clear.

The man who was always sweet and caring to everyone around him, who always came to visit me for even 5 minutes just to hug me a few moments, who was always cheerful and carried a truckload of joy wherever he went, with everyone else he was still the same but not with me.

Not that he simply stopped caring about me, that was small consolation to me but I could see that the love we shared, I was giving alone.

"You know, we seem more like friends than boyfriend and girlfriend lately", that phrase had been running around in my head for days and I don't know if I wanted him to agree or disagree straight up. "We're friends first and foremost, I don't get why that's bad," he remarked nonchalantly and a relief settled, for a few minutes, in my heart.

Most of the time we weren't doing couples stuff because with so little time, NCT's fame increased by the day and plus the company didn't know about it, we couldn't go out but it didn't bother me, it never did. I preferred to enjoy my alone time with him, but even that changed within so little time.

I was used to the calls, for weeks it was all we had especially in the promotion months. We always found a measly 5 minutes to talk about the basics at the start of the day and text after training.

But this routine started to establish itself in the moments when we could be together, in the beginning there was some effort on my part for us to meet, but as time went by, I accepted his decision and his space.

I thought it was really hard for him, since the idol routine was no easier than that of a trainee, especially from dedicated people that the boys always were. All I could do was try to cheer him up even from a distance.

"He seems fine Y/N-ssi but if I notice anything wrong, I'll let you know", Jaehyun's message left me confused and a little disappointed as well.

I started to rethink our last few messages, which were few only because he didn't seem as excited as he normally was and I didn't want to be the inconvenient girlfriend, but if he was perfectly fine, then the problem could only be one.

The same day I asked him to talk to me in person, since he was at the dorm with no agenda scheduled for the day. Even 10 minutes after sending the message, I was still standing in the room with no clue of what to say, the words were choked in my throat and I knew that if it was up to him, nothing would really be solved.

"How do I make you love me again?", his face in stunned shock, lips open ready to say something but nothing came out of it, we continued communicating that way, just looking at each other.

I don't remember how long we stayed like this, many things about this day I chose to delete from my memory, it was better to forget than to face and I don't regret it.

But one thing I could never forget was the scene of him walking out of my door and out of my life for good, because he would rather be just a friend and I could not accept that possibility.

After a few months, I was better but not completely well and maybe I never would be, because I not only lost a boyfriend but also a great friend and I had no way to get either one back and sometimes I ask myself, how is he doing these days? Probably busy, it's strange how life is, one day this person was so important to me but now I don't even know where he is now.

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The day I lost you (A)

You and Jungwoo have been together for a long time, before he was a trainee you were already friends so everything that happened between you was always natural, and so was the end.

The day I lost you ||NCT

Pairing: Kim Jungwoo x Reader

Summary: You and Jungwoo have been together for a long time, before he was a trainee you were already friends so everything that happened between you was always natural, and so was the end.

Word Count: 929

Warnings: It's really angst

A/N: Here it's your request dear anon. I hope y’all enjoy it and also consider this as my formal application to be part of the fandom.

At times I thought that we were going through a difficult phase, as every couple goes through, and that we could solve it as always, by talking and expressing what we felt. This was always the agreement, we didn't have to shout or raise our voices for the other to hear and try to understand our point of view.

But at other times I was sure that there was much more going on, more than I knew and could control. The conversations went nowhere, I didn't have anything to say, but I always wanted to know if he did. If he had decided to tell me what was wrong, what had changed, but he always answered the same thing.

"If there was something wrong, I would have told you by now, I just have too much on my mind right now", the same words I was hoping for rang directly in my ears, at least I could close my eyes and pretend he was beside me now.

This was just one of several times that I heard this and I wanted to believe it more than anything, but I couldn't because all the signs were clear.

The man who was always sweet and caring to everyone around him, who always came to visit me for even 5 minutes just to hug me a few moments, who was always cheerful and carried a truckload of joy wherever he went, with everyone else he was still the same but not with me.

Not that he simply stopped caring about me, that was small consolation to me but I could see that the love we shared, I was giving alone.

"You know, we seem more like friends than boyfriend and girlfriend lately", that phrase had been running around in my head for days and I don't know if I wanted him to agree or disagree straight up. "We're friends first and foremost, I don't get why that's bad," he remarked nonchalantly and a relief settled, for a few minutes, in my heart.

Most of the time we weren't doing couples stuff because with so little time, NCT's fame increased by the day and plus the company didn't know about it, we couldn't go out but it didn't bother me, it never did. I preferred to enjoy my alone time with him, but even that changed within so little time.

I was used to the calls, for weeks it was all we had especially in the promotion months. We always found a measly 5 minutes to talk about the basics at the start of the day and text after training.

But this routine started to establish itself in the moments when we could be together, in the beginning there was some effort on my part for us to meet, but as time went by, I accepted his decision and his space.

I thought it was really hard for him, since the idol routine was no easier than that of a trainee, especially from dedicated people that the boys always were. All I could do was try to cheer him up even from a distance.

"He seems fine Y/N-ssi but if I notice anything wrong, I'll let you know", Jaehyun's message left me confused and a little disappointed as well.

I started to rethink our last few messages, which were few only because he didn't seem as excited as he normally was and I didn't want to be the inconvenient girlfriend, but if he was perfectly fine, then the problem could only be one.

The same day I asked him to talk to me in person, since he was at the dorm with no agenda scheduled for the day. Even 10 minutes after sending the message, I was still standing in the room with no clue of what to say, the words were choked in my throat and I knew that if it was up to him, nothing would really be solved.

"How do I make you love me again?", his face in stunned shock, lips open ready to say something but nothing came out of it, we continued communicating that way, just looking at each other.

I don't remember how long we stayed like this, many things about this day I chose to delete from my memory, it was better to forget than to face and I don't regret it.

But one thing I could never forget was the scene of him walking out of my door and out of my life for good, because he would rather be just a friend and I could not accept that possibility.

After a few months, I was better but not completely well and maybe I never would be, because I not only lost a boyfriend but also a great friend and I had no way to get either one back and sometimes I ask myself, how is he doing these days? Probably busy, it's strange how life is, one day this person was so important to me but now I don't even know where he is now.